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The Gray Area Files: The Road to Deconstruction

Religion EN ↓ 4 episodes

Ever went down the Rabbit Hole inside of your own consciousness? Even if it was by accident? I was a Die Hard Christian for seven years; my entire teenage era. I followed after a patriarchal religion that doomed me to my own destruction. How? Why? For two and half years, I stayed silent about the truth on how everything changed for me that day. The day the March Hare came to me on one unlucky spring.

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The March Hare 19.06.2026 55:03

The circumstances polarizing itself seemed to be something made out of a horror fiction. How did I get here? What exactly did I do wrong? How could someone like me, follow the exact Bible codes to the road to salvation somehow fall short of God’s favor just for asking questions or even seeking answers to the existential crisis that I’ve been living in? What happened March of 2024? What dare does t...

The Gray Area Files: The Road to Deconstruction Part 2 27.05.2026 1:50:40

They say “faith without works is dead”. But how dead do you have to become to stay alive? To stay sane? To remain in reality? How blind does your faith have to become before falling into the ditch of your own making? Or should I say, a rabbit hole? Background Music Sweet Dreams are Made of Screams by MYUU Wong Chia Chi's Theme Song by Alexander Desplat (*Jessie Black Version*) TIMESTAMP 0:00

The Gray Area Files: The Road to Deconstruction Part 1 19.05.2026 46:51

How would you define a “normal childhood”? How would you define “God”? How would you define what is real? How would you define the difference between the supernatural vs. your own mind playing games against you? How far would you go to find the truth about your own existence? This is just the beginning of the horror unraveling in its own cynical nature. Stay tuned in for Part 2. Music: Mystery Pia...

Intro 18.05.2026 2:03

Ever tripped so bad on a substance that you thought the experience was real? Unfortunately, that wasn’t the case for me. Neither was it just a “bad trip”. It was more like a harrowing roller coaster driven to madness from the ideas of what I thought was truth all along. It’s been a little over two years since it all started. Now, I’m ready to tell my story. Ready or not, here comes the White Rabbi...