Savannah Hauk, Author and Julie Rubenstein, Style Consultant

The Fox and the Phoenix

Society EN ↓ 286 episodes

Understanding the Feminine Crossdressing ExperienceTo de-mystify, humanize, and celebrate the crossdressing trans community, providing a positive and realistic understanding through conversation between a crossdresser and a cis-ally.

Author

Savannah Hauk, Author and Julie Rubenstein, Style Consultant

Category

Society

Podcast website

podcasters.spotify.com

Latest episode

Jul 8, 2026

Where to listen?

Podcasts in the app Replaio Radio Coming soon

Podcasts are coming to the app soon. Install now and be the first to see a whole new take on podcasts

Get it on Google Play Install for free Android 5M+ downloads · 4.8 rating iOS soon

Episodes

265 - Girl Talk 08.07.2026

In this episode, Savannah chats to Julie about the power of girl talk, especially as it relates to the strong bond between girls like Savannah and the vulnerable and deep conversations that results through and with those that share similar experiences and personal journeys and self-assessments over the years. It creates a lovely shorthand that allows those in the sisterhood a way to connect and co...

264 - Mirror, Mirror (part 2) 24.06.2026

In this second of two episodes, Julie chats with Savannah about the profound "first time" that one sees their true femme self in the mirror... that first fateful time when the reflection in the mirror stops being just a biological male and starts being the more authentic and grounded female spirit. Julie and Savannah read listener letters and comment about how often there are commonaliti...

263 - Mirror, Mirror (part 1) 17.06.2026

In this first of two episodes, Julie chats with Savannah about the profound "first time" that one sees their true femme self in the mirror... that first fateful time when the reflection in the mirror stops being just a biological male and starts being the more authentic and grounded female spirit. Julie and Savannah read listener letters and comment about how often there are commonalitie...

262 - Fraud and Failure 10.06.2026

In this episode, Savannah discussed with Julie the struggles she is experiencing in the aftermath of her breakup with her long-time partner, Judy (as revealed in ep 261). In light of the breakup, Savannah worries that she is not as credible as she should be because as an author, advocate, podcaster, and speaker, she should have been able to make the relationship work. The discussion goes into the...

261 - Hey Judy! The Exit Interviews 27.05.2026

In this episode, both Savannah and Julie separately interview Judy. In these interviews, they discuss the trials and tribulations , the ups and downs of being in a long-term relationship with a crossdresser and gender-expansive person. And while love was always present, the drive in syncing with a person of this breed is sometimes not enough to keep the relationship together. So, in this way, Judy...

260 - In The Family Way 20.05.2026

In this episode, Savannah lets Julie in on a little secret. That admission involves revealing herself to more members of her immediate family through a text chat. Stemming from a sad and regretful remembrance on the anniversary of Savannah's father's passing, Savannah decided afterward to reveal herself to sisters and nieces and nephews that there was more to Chuck than just Chuck. Savanna...

259 - Bimbification 13.05.2026

In this episode, Julie asks Savannah to talk about the probably-already-cooling news about Bryon Noem, the husband of the former Director of Homeland Security, Kristi Noem. Bryon was outed by leaked photographs of him wearing a massive breast form and pink hot pants as he paid to converse with online personalities who also had exaggerated feminine features. What happens when a political figure who...

258 - I Wish I Would Have Known 29.04.2026

In this episode, Savannah asks Julie one of the most foundational questions people in the queer community tend to hear or strive to find an answer to, "I wish someone would have told me...". From the fact that our younger selves would rarely listen to advice from the future because they would not have the world experience to understand the advice or warnings, to using that understanding gained thr...

257 - Do You Validate? 22.04.2026

In this episode, Julie talks to Savannah about social media and its effects on how we, as gender-expansive people, use the digital platforms as a benchmark to find external validation. From the cycling of posting and the wait for the dopamine high, to dressing for performance versus authenticity, to looking for external reactions versus just dressing for one's own sake, to using social media as a...

256 - Integration Testing 15.04.2026

In this episode, Savannah lets Julie in on a bit of an experiment... one where Savannah has been testing to see at what point of her presentation she feels complete in her feminine persona. Does Savannah only come out when the wig is finally donned? When undressing, at what point does Savannah disappear and Chuck returns? If Chuck and Savannah are integrated from a mental perspective, why is there...

255 - To Keystone and Back: A Podcasters' Tale 08.04.2026

In this episode, Savannah and Julie regal the listeners with another riveting tale of danger and adventure, of heart ache and heart's song, of sleepless days and endless nights, of red eye flights and the meowing of cats. Savannah and Julie retell their adventures attending this year's Keystone Conference in Harrisburg, Pennsylvania. ----- SAVANNAH HAUK is the author of “Living with Crossd...

254 - Better Than Average 25.03.2026

In this episode, Savannah shares a reel from Instagram with Julie, forwarded to Savannah by a close friend of the podcast. In the reel, the influencer talks about how most human beings are simply ordinary and average in their looks. Sure, there are some wh might be considered as fugly and others who seemed to have achieved Adonis and super-model status. Yet, the vast majority of people live somewh...

253 - Things They Didn't Tell Me (part 2) 18.03.2026

In this second of two episodes, Julie and Savannah read your listener letters! This time, Julie reached out and asked the question, "What didn't you know about or what didn't THEY tell you?" before or as you embarked on their transgender journey. From the difficulties of dating in a post-transition world, to the switch from clothing being euphoric to the transition being euphoric...

252 - What They Didn't Tell Me (part 1) 11.03.2026

In this first of two episodes, Julie and Savannah read your listener letters! This time, Julie reached out and asked the question, "What didn't you know about or what didn't THEY tell you?" before or as you embarked on their transgender journey. From the difficulties of dating in a post-transition world, to the switch from clothing being euphoric to the transition being euphoric,...

251 - Showing Up 25.02.2026

In this episode, Julie and Savannah talk about the upcoming Keystone Conference in Harrisburg, PA, and how difficult it can sometimes be for some attendees (returning or first-timers) to be able to "show up" in a more extroverted fashion to get dressed up, meet people, and make connections. The conference can be overwhelming just by the sheer number of attendees and can be daunting as so many sist...

250 - Red Light, Green Light, 1-2-3 18.02.2026

In this episode, Julie and Savannah chat about an important topic as it applies to gender-expansive men and their cis-female partners or spouses. So many crossdressing men hide in the shadows, revert to closeting their feminine behavior after sharing their queerdom to their partners. When partners are told, so many emotions are felt and so much understanding and support is needed for both parties....

249 - Giving Her Permission 11.02.2026

In this episode, Savannah reads a letter to Julie about late-blooming male-to-female crossdresser Olivia who has come to the realization that their feminine side might want to create a wish list for herself. The idea of giving herself permission to want something for her feminine side is new and seemingly a novel concept. Is this typical for a late-blooming CD? Is it too near adjacent to the Pink...

248 - From Belgium, With Love 28.01.2026

In this episode, Savannah reads two wonderful email letters to Julie. Recently, Savannah received a correspondence from a bi-gender MTF girlie named Jennifer who hails from Belgium! The content is so poignant and powerful that a summary here could never do it justice! Listen in for an eloquent pair of letters from a gender-expansive person coming to love themselves, share with their family, and fi...

247 - A Life's Journey (Part 2) 21.01.2026

In this second of two episodes, Julie asks Savannah about the journey she and other gender-expansive persons have experienced from a tender age of 5-years-old, to the draw to the feminine, to the resulting shame and guilt one might experience during their secretive discovery of self, to accepting and fianlly becoming expansive in a still-gender-rigid world. Savannah and Julie talk frankly and emot...

246 - A Life's Journey (Part 1) 14.01.2026

In this first of two episodes, Julie asks Savannah about the journey she and other gender-expansive persons have experienced from a tender age of 5-years-old, to the draw to the feminine, to the resulting shame and guilt one might experience during their secretive discovery of self, to accepting and fianlly becoming expansive in a still-gender-rigid world. Savannah and Julie talk frankly and emoti...

245 - Spouse's Softer Sides 07.01.2026

In this episode, Savannah chats with Julie about cis-female and gender-expansive MTF boyfriends or husbands where the genetic woman of the relationship prefers their male partner's feminine identity in many ways over when the male partner is presenting in his own AGAB biology. Why is it that so many gender-expansive partners exhibit personality traits that are more attractive to their partners tha...

244 - Outside Perspectives 24.12.2025

In this episode, Savannah chats with Nicole and asks her outside perspective of the Boooos Crawl that they, plus friends Victoria and Ramien , enjoyed during an epic Halloween weekend in Atlanta! From getting recognized in the iconic yellow Belle gown (Beauty and the Beast) to a second gasp at the Beast's severed head roped at her side, to an awkward 'You're a dude' moment, to meet...

243 - Beauty and the Beast 17.12.2025

In this episode, Savannah and Julie talk about Savannah's month-long experience with a rush of body positivity, gender euphoria, and a more positive outlook on her femme life as of late. From some weight loss making the clothes feel and look better, to sources of external support, some renewed internal self-worth validation, and great rewarding events, Savannah has been harnessing all the posi...

242 - Media Attention 10.12.2025

In this episode, Savannah gushes to Julie about the various streaming shows and series she is watching. From Netflix's 'Wayward' to 'K-Pop Demon Hunters', to Amazon Prime's 'Gen V', Savannah and Julie talk about how evolved 'queer-coded' storytelling has become over the years. From a transman being a character in a story where their gender identification has nothing to do with the series, to takin...

241 - Protect Guys and Dolls 03.12.2025

In this episode, Julie tells Savannah about a social media post she make for "Protect the Dolls" and a comment that made her take the post down and re-evaluate what was most appropriate and most inclusive. While protecting the beautiful, young and passable "dolls" is a just cause, there are many who feel they are old, clockable "bricks" that do not fall under the same...

Listen to the The Fox and the Phoenix podcast in Replaio

Radio and podcasts in one app - free, with no sign-up. Install today and do not miss the launch

Get it on Google Play

Replaio is not a podcast publisher; show names, artwork and audio belong to their authors and are distributed through public RSS feeds.