The Deep by Zoe Marshall

Today we hear from Molly. It’s an intense heart wrenching interview- Molly has her two little girls to her ex partner. She met a man, fell in love and felt like her family was complete. Then one night she was blind sided by the worst thing that could ever happen to your children Content warning: This episode discusses child sexual abuse. For support please check out the following resources. Act Fo...

We’ve all heard of swingers right? What do they actually do? Who are they? My immediate thought is of the cliché - keys in the bowl middle-aged couples now empty nesters, looking for something to enhance the next stage of life. But is this cliché true? What are the rules, what are the boundaries and what’s the reality of being a swinger? Follow Jess and Lawrence on Instagram @oursecretspot and vis...

Endometriosis affects more than 11% of Australian women. I am one of them. Told I could never have children. Today we speak to another endo warrior. You might know her as reality star Erin from Love Island and I'm a Celebrity Get me Out of Here. But what you don't know is that her body is riddled with the disease. She's had her 16th surgery and lives with chronic pain. Follow Erin on Instagram @er...

Today we are going to hear a complex story of a really toxic love triangle that is fuelled by violence and fear. It's a story that belongs in a Hollywood film, a story of manipulation and at its core is brutal domestic violence. Content warning: This episode contains explicit depictions of domestic violence. For assistance please call 1800 Respect . Credits: Joanne Helder - Producer Caleb Jacobs -...

The birth of your first child is miraculous, its a moment in time that you will never forget. But what happens if you find out 4 weeks before birth that your child is intersex. You may be thinking right now what does that even mean? In hospital and society we are put in to boxes. When we are born the doctors tick girl or boy- but for many people this isn't the case. This is one mothers story of he...

Infertility is one of the most challenging things a woman can go through. I’ve been there. My friend Keira and I have been friends for some time and when I became pregnant recently I was incredibly nervous to tell her. Would it change our friendship? Would she be triggered? I knew how jealous I was as friends fell pregnant around me when I was trying so hard to conceive. Keira has a tremendous sto...

Are you a slut? Do you know any? What do you think when I say that word? Dirty, sexy, degrading? Can men be sluts? Would you see them the same way? Nadia Bokody - is ready to reclaim the word. To reframe what slut means to us all. Today we look at female empowerment through our sexuality and Nadia is passionate we change the way we see ourselves, our bodies and our sex. This is the realest sex tal...

Post natal depression - we hear this term a lot. 1 in 5 women will experience it post birth. But what if it was extreme, on the very other end of the spectrum? What if your mental health deteriorated so quickly and dangerously your life and your newborn was at risk of harm or worse? What if you needed to be institutionalized for years, given ECT treatments and every drug imaginable to try and help...

Cathy is the epitome of an Aussie battler. She has overcome very difficult odds. She is a survivor. Cathy reached out to me to share her story and how it had been partially covered in a documentary called “Ghost Hunter”. She said there was a lot more to the story and today she shares that with us. Cathy endured sexual trauma as a child, she survived things no one should ever experience. Note: some...

The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. I grew up being taught to sing the Australian anthem with pride. To celebrate Australia Day with a bbq and drinks! But only in the past few years have I understood what Australia Day aka I...

Zoe shares what's really been going on for her the past few months as well as the episodes that left a lasting impact. Content warning: This episode depicts infant loss and grief. For support please contact Bears of Hope on 1300 11 4673 or Lifeline on 13 11 14. Genetic carrier screening is as easy as an at-home saliva test and results can be back within 3-4 weeks. So, if you want to understand you...

Have you heard of Only Fans? Of course you have! And if you haven’t - It’s a platform for sex workers to create their own content on their own terms, it’s kind of like an adult version of Instagram. Anyone can do it. And people will pay. A lot. I found out that some people are making millions and millions a year. I needed to speak to one of the top earners. Who is also a newbie. What it’s like to...

Could you imagine being imprisoned for 12 years for a crime you didn't commit? How would you survive that, how would you survive solitary confinement, survive the other prisoners, survive the injustice? Today I get to speak to Raphael Rowe who did survive. In fact he has gone on to be a great journalist and the host of " Inside the worlds toughest prisons " on Netflix. Content warning: this episod...

Rachael Casella is a mother, a wife, and a friend. She’s also a pioneer for parents when it comes to genetic testing for their unborn children. Rachael has lived through every parents worst nightmare. Somehow through her grief she’s managed to find purpose and fight, and has created incredible opportunity for Australians through Mackenzie's mission. Learn more about MacKenzie's Mission and follow...

Everyone has heard of the 2010 cult horror film "The Human Centipede" and if you haven't, I’m sure you are googling it now. I remember hearing how it had been banned in some countries and that people were passing out in the cinemas watching it! I was fascinated, over the years I had watched the trailer, too scared to watch the film. It’s plotline- three tourists are sewn together mouth to… end, by...

Jess named her episode when she reached out to me in an email - that was the subject line. The Overnight Parent. And its true. After Jess found out her mother had suicided she is left to raise her two step siblings. At 23, grieving her mother, Jess was living in another city, in a share house and decides she must take on an overwhelming responsibility and become a parent. How does she do it? And w...

Are you a feminist? What about an intersectional feminist? Do you know what it really means? It’s not just hairy armpits and burning bras. Fighting for equal pay. In fact currently we are seeing more and more “white feminism” you may be one of them And not even know it. Today we dive into a deep topic, “intersectional feminism”. Don’t let the big words turn you off. This is a passionate conversati...

Siri Dahl has been in porn since before it was super easy to access online. She has done it all, worked everywhere from Gonzo sets to full blown production. She even left the industry for a while, but her love for sex and making content couldn’t be denied. Her family all know and her boyfriend is sometimes also a co-star. This is an explicit episode, which may get your heart racing. Content warnin...

Heroin as we know is one of the most addictive substances- it generally chews up and spits out its users taking away any chance of living a purposeful life. Kelly reached out to me, she is ready to share her story. She is a high functioning addict, with children, a big corporate job and a house. Kelly's addiction has dominated her life for over 20 years. The secrets, the betrayals, the loneliness-...

The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Mikele is young, beautiful and smart. She is also a bulimic and has been since her early teens. In today's episode, Mikele shares her experience as a First Nations and Maltese woman and th...

The Deep acknowledge the Traditional Custodians of the land on which we work and live, and recognise their continuing connection to land, water and community. We pay respect to Elders past, present and emerging. Cleonie Quayle is a survivor of “the stolen generation”. She was taken as a 4 year old but the government took her away from her family and community and placed in a group home with other...

If I told you there was a man, who said since having his "real dolls" aka sex robots- his life has never been more fulfilled would you believe me? Brick Dollbanger has been living with real dolls for 12 years. He in fact is so deeply immersed in the community that the creators of real doll have asked him to be the sex robot test driver. This episode is mind blowing but you may want to listen to it...

There have been many questions from you all about my own story/traumas and if I will ever share it. At this point I won’t. The deep isn’t about me. But today I will share a glimpse and that’s because it was a huge gift that The Deep gave me. I am forever changed by this podcast and by this moment you will hear right now. Credits: Joanne Helder - Producer Caleb Jacobs - Music AJ Davis - Comms Manag...

Imagine falling in love with your soul mate, having a child together and living blissfully ever after. Then in one moment life as you know it is decimated. Over. What happens the moments after you live through the worst moment of your life? How do you recover? How do you go on? How do you grieve? For help processing grief, Jo has published Grief - a guided journal . You can also follow Jo on Insta...

Charlie has survived extreme neglect, abuse and cruelty at the hands of his mother. At the age of 12 she dropped him off at a care home and never returned. Charlie was thrown into the foster system like 1000's of other children. Moved 10 times in 8 years. This is his story. Content warning: This episode deals with child abuse and neglect. For help, children can contact Kids helpline on 1800 55 180...