The Deep by Zoe Marshall

As a 12 year old, Ruth loved to chat with her friends online but it wasn't long before a predator found and groomed her. This very quickly became a real life, sexually abusive relationship between a child and a full grown adult paedophile. We have spoken to a few chid abuse victims on this podcast but Ruth's memory of this time is so clear that we get a real insight into what 12 year old her was t...

Glen grew up on the streets of Sydney. What he has survived is absolutely incredible, homelessness, drug addiction, crime and the absurdity of our judicial system. He's lived through the worst aspects of humanity and has wise words for the rest of us. Content warning: This episode discusses child sexual abuse and addiction. Resources are linked below. For free and confidential advice about alcohol...

The Port Arthur massacre. It's common knowledge in the minds of Australians but it's not often we hear the story of a family who lived through this first hand. Sue's mother was shot and killed during the massacre and her whole family feels the effects of it, even today. Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early...

I have spent the past few months doing womb spiral. It's a journey to awaken the feminine, investigate trauma and listen to your body and yoni. There are 7 gates moving through the female organs which each cover a different element of your life. I went through this with Kellie from Soul Healing and she is one of my trusted guides when it comes to this work. This is not one of my typical interviews...

If you haven't heard of cuckolds, they are people who enjoy seeing their partner get intimate with someone else. Today we speak to Ciren whose husband is one such person. He'll even jump on the security camera to catch a glimpse. And this is what gets him off. Content warning: this episode sexually explicit. Follow Ciren: IG is @cirenv_2 Twitter/X @Cirenv_2 Onlyfans @cirenv Manyvids Ciren Verde&nb...

You've never met a woman like Karly. We spoke to her husband Steven in this season. He came out as gay, leaving his young family and starting a new life. So many of you wanted to hear her perspective so we got her on the show. Honestly this woman is incredible. Follow Karly on Instagram @__Karlyanne Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to ex...

Steve was happily married with his wife and two young kids. But he was also living a lie. You see, Steve is gay. And he tried to suppress it for a long time but eventually the truth came out. We explore how Steve was able to mask this for so long and perform with women, how he discovered his sexuality and how he broke the news to his wife and kids. Follow Steve on Instagram @______steve88 Join the...

Who wants more money? We all do right. This is epic. How to manifest more money, more wealth, more abundance... You deserve this! We've asked Kat Dawes to come back. If you heard her episode with her story you'll know she manifested a juicy abundant life for herself and she's going to reveal the secrets on how you can do it too. Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.c...

Imagine being able to remember every moment of your life. Even when you were a baby. Today's guest Rebecca has a condition called HSAM, Highly Superior Autobiographical Memory. She can re-live the best moments of her life, like blowing out the candles on her childhood birthday cakes but also the bad memories, which can feel like they are raw and real. This is such a fascinating chat with someone w...

Today we delve into the mind of a cheater, an adulterer. Danielle betrayed her husband by having an affair for 12 months. This is a surprising tale about relationships, polyamory, and perceptions. Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content f...

Today we discuss all things BDSM. Everything you wanted to know about the kinky stuff others get up to in their bedrooms and how beginners can dabble in BDSM to spice up your life. Content warning: This episode is very sexually explicit. Follow Cindra on Instagram @cindrabanks Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes,...

Today's guest went through such a different journey to parenthood and it's such a beautiful one. Sean and his partner both loved the way they were raised and wanted to emulate that. They are queer parents and are doing so many great things. We really hope this is an enlightening chat and shows some of the more positive sides of raising a family in an unconventional way. Follow Sean on Instagram @s...

Ethan went from failing university to now touring some of the biggest names in self development like Gary Vee, and he's only 29. This is an incredible story about coming back from failure to create the life of your dreams. And if you have a child in this situation, how you can help them turn it around too. Follow Ethan on Instagram @ethan.donati Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subsc...

Today I'm joined by the most amazing human. Millie lives off grid with her little family, which she created using a family friend as a sperm donor. Her son has a disability but is in the best possible hands - you'll hear why. Millie is such a breath of fresh air on this topic and I hope you love her as much as I do. Follow Millie on Instagram @jessi_and_millie Join the community and go 'deeper' wi...

Since we often discuss trauma and loss on this podcast, I really wanted to spend some time unpacking grief in a helpful way. Sal and Im from the Good Mourning podcast are joining me today to chat through some helpful ways to process grief, including loss of a parent, loss of a child, and how different cultures handle grief. Check out the Good Mourning Podcast podcasts.apple.com/au/podcast/good-mou...

It's time to Ariise. Some changes are coming to The Deep and we hope you love what we have planned. Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early access and ad free listening to regular episodes and extra juicy content from Zoe. Credits: Joanne Helder - Producer Caleb Jacobs - Music Tash Todd-Williams, Word of Mouth...

Danielle is a paediatric intensive care nurse. That means she cares for children and their families at their worst point. Children who are sick, children who are abused, children who are dying. I think anyone who's able to take on this role deserves a medal. Danielle has seen the worst things children go through and still gets up every day to do it again. Content warning: This episode discusses ch...

Ali Kali is famous as the lactating porn star. Yep, she's known for squirting dudes in the face with her milk. But that's only a tiny part of why I wanted to talk to her. Her story is a wild ride involving addiction, sex work, child loss, and... meditation masturbation? Content warning: this episode is very sexually explicit and contains discussions on infant loss, addiction and suicide. Support r...

This is part 2 of my interview with Collier - who lost everything when his father murdered his mother. Today we discuss what it's like to grow up with everyone knowing your sad story and what happens when he confronts his father in prison. Content warning: This episode discusses domestic violence including murder. For assistance please contact 1800RESPECT the national sexual assault, domestic and...

Collier was just an 11 year old boy when his father killed his mother. And Collier was not going to let him get away with it. This is part 1 of the incredible story of a newly orphaned child's relentless pursuit of justice and growing up being famous for all the wrong reasons.  Content warning: This episode discusses domestic violence including murder. For assistance please contact 1800RESPEC...

Glen grew up on the streets of Sydney. What he has survived is absolutely incredible, homelessness, drug addiction, crime and the absurdity of our judicial system. He's lived through the worst aspects of humanity and has wise words for the rest of us. Content warning: This episode discusses child sexual abuse and addiction. Resources are linked below. For free and confidential advice about alcohol...

Jordana longed for a baby girl, but instead she was blessed with three boys in a row. To some it may be trivial but to others gender disappointment is heart-breaking. The grief of the loss of the child you had imagined, and the guilt that follows is what we discuss openly today. Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episode...

This is such a special episode. Comedian, media personality, and fellow podcaster Meshel Laurie joins me and we get real deep into her personal life. From her relationship with her father to how she deals with trauma to raising her kids. You probably haven't seen this side of Meshel and I'm so glad she shared it with me. Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedee...

We deal with a lot of grief on the podcast and I think we have all been through it in some way. Today I really wanted to explore intimacy during, and after grief. It's not something that a lot of people talk about so I'm starting the conversation now. I'm navigating all of this with Rachel from LBDO. She is an expert in sexual wellness and has also had her own experience with grief. LBDO have give...

Last week we spoke to Elliott. It was actually his wife who reached out to us about his story and I feel it's really important to share both sides of this one. Tamara shares what it has been like living with a gambling addict for so long, hoping things would change. Join the community and go 'deeper' with Zoe by subscribing at apple.co/thedeep to gain access to exclusive bonus episodes, early acce...