The Death of a Dream

when you were a little kid you didn't question that knowing. i know this because i am watching in real time this play out with my girls. my three year old still goes true to herself and her why. my six year old is building this distrust with herself and her knowing spirit. i can see her struggle with what she knows and what she has been told to know. this is where the trouble comes in. this is whe...

true alignment starts there. for a longer time than i like to think about i said yes to EVERYTHING. literally. it was great i was just always too scared to miss out on anything cool that might happen for i fomoed my way into an extremely exhausting life. i was here there and everywhere. shortly after the exhaustion of my being onset, i realized that my presence was lacking every single place i sho...

how many times a week do you think about what you want in life. ok, how many times a year. if you are like me usually a January thing not really something you ever really think about. sometimes we get specific with weight loss goals but like why would we do that with our life. that's for like CEOs and big important people. nope, it is not. you owe it to yourself to do the work of recovering from y...

don't mind the like one-minute laugh-fest that i have over discovering the title of this episode. where are you growing & i am dead. ok. seriously what are the things. do not just fall for everything. know what you are about how you want to grow and where you want to go. without that specifity, you lose track of who you are on the way to becoming who you want to be. Tell me what you need, read the...

the limit does not exist quoted from one of my favorite movies of all time. MEAN GIRLS. when it comes to you having dreams for your life there is no limit. you owe it to yourself to give space to that curiosity. then listen as you start giving it space. noticing my toxicity through this moment helped me to break down major barriers that would have held me back my entire life. once you are aware of...

now threre are people who are just really good at this. and then there are those of us who are not. i struggled with this for years i didn't believe in my own ability to imagine it for myself. i thought it all had to be conducted and constructed by someone else. after going through the process i created to recover from the death of my dream i found clarity and was able to dream authentic and speci...

it is hard for me to say or even preach about because i struggle to hardest with this one. the silence was not something i happily adopted and when on my merry way. i have had to come back to it over and over again. when i look back at the patterns of my life each and every time i granted myself silence i was performing at a higher success rate. so i have been adopting that practice into my everyd...

just give it a try. allowing people in to see the real you is scary. i get it. because it might mean people reject you right? but why do you want people who don't want you? why would you want to be with people who are only willing to sign up for a percentage of who you are. be you fully. be you freely. and never apologize for being you. EVER.

like force yourself to go there. close your eyes what are you doing. who are you? where do you show up and why? now what needs to change for you to be that person. do you need to de-clutter, do you need to reduce stress. what is it for you. who do you have to become to be the person you want to become. Tell me what you need, read the blog & tell us your story at www.nussinc.com i will forever be c...

i can't even hear those words come out of your mouth. do you really think you were just placed here on this earth to exist and die? do you really think you in all your glory like the one in a trillion chance that you are born were just put here to be and have no impact or purpose? really? come on that is so untrue i can't even. i do know first hand what it is like to feel that and to start recover...

oh wait just me... doubt it. we all have these moments and my six year old finally made me realize that when we give our emotions just space we actually recover faster from the negative then we do stuffing them in a closet somewhere only to be let out in a whirlwind of downfall six months later. it is vital in the true knowing of one's self to be able to handle the good and the bad right then. you...

i was in this constant state of everywhere and absolutely nowhere. my family had had enough of me being there but everywhere else. i was doing all the things. literally every single one of them. i had everything and nothing at all. the truth of the matter was if i left i was replaceable. i was just doing things. i had no depth and presence anywhere i was. none. that needed to change. my new goal i...

we all do it. avoid the pain. run from it and live a life hell-bent on covering it up. if we remain happy or grateful (insert whichever word fills this for you) no one will ever uncover us. we will remain immune to feelings forever. we will live a life of less. i believe, based on my experience, you have to allow yourself ample space to feel that loss to fully grieve and receive all of the reasons...

oh, we are diving all the way in. i will give no chill to this topic. this book has been saving my life for reasons no more obvious than the title. i felt like before this book i was finding my stride in releasing things holding me back and then i read these words and i will never be the same. first it let me develop my own level of fierceness as called. then it set me free in a way i have never r...

if you were waiting for your fairy godmother to come bop you on the head and say you are this you are going to wait awhile. the worst part is even when she comes along and bops you if it is not according to what you know is true for you it may not feel right anyways and you will have spent an entire life trying to be something that was never going to fit. i used to fear the words, "what do you wan...

we are not whole people. when I want to make people whole and realize that we all have good and bad i cannot. i cannot force someone no matter how bad i want them to adopt a life of acceptance, of where they are and where they want to grow. no matter how much i want to help my husband grow or my children they have to want to sign-up for the work as much as i do. there is no fast forward here. in m...

there is only so much time in a day. I know most life-changing quote ever and not one person has said that to you before now... here is another one...you only get one life...wow i am full of it today go me. has your life changed yet? but really how much space do you give yourself to do things that align with who you are called to be. how you are called to show up in this world. how much space do y...

oh i know. the world is a beautiful & scary place to live. my goal as it has always been is to help people see their own call for their life in the uniqueness that is their story. do not feel shamed into your life. do not feel like you do not deserve goodness. call beauty and greatness into your life & it shall come.  Suggest topics you want covered, read the blog & apply to be featured on the dea...

nope, she doesn't fit here. & she can't fit here. there is no way she will ever belong. so i would spend a good majority of time stuck in the line of who i was truly called to be. i think it was just an ever internal struggle with wanting to fit in and do right and truthfully be happy. i would call myself to silence the sadness to only be in the happiness so much so that i would forever be stuck u...

oh, how i just wish this was like a movie. i wish that you just dreamt a dream and then everything fell perfectly into place right away. & somethings do & somethings don't but that does not mean you can stop. as a perpetual starter and stopper of many things i wanted to stop because this rejection season has gone on long enough. but i cannot and will not. i will forever right this story as long as...

this is a struggle point for me. in an attempt to be happy because that is where i always felt best i would just pass by thing after thing after thing in order to pass the pain. i don't live in the real world. i do not like pain. i do not like bad endings. i do not like acknowledging that things are bad. i like things to be great all the time. i like there to be beauty. and because that is who i a...

this episode jumps around a lot. i think it is me trying to process some thoughts i had over the weekend. honestly, i feel like i am taking time to think through the bad (which is near impossible as an enneagram seven. i struggle i make myself feel bad things. like i can't even watch movies twice without fast-forwarding through the struggle. anyways it is a challenge but i have been challenging my...

...because you matter. it is easy to just fall in line right? like willingly just do as others are doing and stop taking into account if you even care about those things. or if it matters at all to you. but here is the deal as soon as you stop taking the "normal" things that matter to others off the table it frees up room for you to be you. to find space. to take up space in places you actually wa...

i actually interviewed for a job and said i lacked compassion that was my weakness. but it wasn't i had been convinced that removing emotion was vital in order to survive. in order to matter. in order to be successful you can't feel like i felt. you must be numb. check out more at www.nussinc.com

yesterday i realized that i hadn't had this reoccurring nightmare in a long time. and when i started to think about this nightmare and what it was i realized it was my soul. my soul trying to save me. my soul calling out and trying to scare me out of my own blindness. i would go on to ignore this and think nothing of it. i had this nightmare for 10 years straight and about a year ago i was having...