The Crucible Project Podcast

Dive into the world of Apple TV's hit show Ted Lasso and explore themes of curiosity, judgment, and vulnerability in real-life relationships. Jess Donovan and Joy Dunning unpack how emotional honesty, safe community, and confronting uncomfortable truths are key to authentic connection and personal growth. With compassionate boldness, they explore what it means to be fully seen, fully known, a...

Podcaster Tim White is joined by longtime Pastor and Crucible Leader John Casey from Colorado Springs, CO. John shares his personal journey into self-compassion and life changing grace. For more information checkout TheCrucibleProject.org As a man or woman of faith, do you long to live at a deeper level of authenticity, passion and power? Unlike any Christian retreat you’ve attended, The Crucible...

Host Jay Mountjoy sits down with Rudy Gezik to explore his powerful journey through the Crucible experience. Rudy opens up about overcoming fears, confronting perfectionism, and embracing community, accountability, and spiritual growth. His story offers an inspiring testament to the power of transformation and the importance of trusting the process. Here are some of the topics we cover in our podc...

In this episode, Joy and Mark Dunning open up about how The Crucible Project has shaped their marriage, parenting, and individual growth. From Mark’s first retreat in 2012 to years of slow but meaningful transformation, they reflect on how accountability, community, and a shared commitment to growth have helped them navigate family dynamics and build healthier relationships. Here are some of the t...

In this Real Christian Manhood Series, Roy Wooten and Byron Myers tackle the topic of sexual purity, exploring why integrity and accountability are vital in relationships and how personal choices carry lasting impact. Through honest stories and practical insights, they invite men to step into community, find grace, and pursue sexual integrity with courage. This conversation challenges the silence...

In this Real Christian Manhood episode, Roy Wooten and Byron Myers dive into why so many men feel stuck in life and how fear, uncertainty, and old patterns keep them from moving forward. They offer practical steps, encouragement, and a reminder that growth begins with awareness, setting boundaries, seeking God's perspective, and taking action toward real change.  Here are some of the topics w...

Tim Kinnaird talks with host Joy Dunning about fatherhood, faith, and the power of personal growth. From chaos to clarity, Tim shares how his Crucible retreat reshaped his parenting, emotional awareness, and relationships. This episode is especially for young dads and anyone ready to lead with integrity, connection, and purpose. Here are some of the topics we cover in our podcast episodes: Radical...

Leadership Series host Tim Rush sits down with Chadd Schrader to unpack leadership, growth, and lessons from the mission field in Mexico. Chadd shares powerful insights on self-awareness, team dynamics, and the spiritual practices that have shaped his journey. They discuss healing, vision, and discovering your true calling through the deep love of God. Here are some of the topics we cover in our p...

Host Martin Brooker interviews Dr. Joe Azzapardi, an expert in intergenerational dynamics. Joe shares his personal journey, including his traumatic childhood and the healing he experienced during his Crucible retreat. They explore themes of trauma, community, and the importance of empathy in understanding generational differences in the workplace. Joe discusses his consultancy work, focusing on he...

Crucible Executive Director Roy Wooten and Men's Ministry Leader Byron Myers focus on the challenges and transformations that men face in their spiritual journeys. They discuss the difficulties of change, the impact of personal growth on relationships, and the importance of community support. The conversation emphasizes that true transformation is often painful and requires a commitment to au...

Host Andy Spell sits down with Roger Lutrell, Thomas Road Baptist Church Men’s and Marriage Pastor , to discuss his journey from corporate America to full-time ministry. Roger shares how The Crucible Project transformed his life, helping him overcome negative self-talk, embrace vulnerability, and find confirmation in his calling. This powerful conversation challenges men to push through self-doubt...

Host Andy Spell interviews Jim Madsen, a stay-at-home dad and Crucible graduate. Jim shares his journey of self-discovery, the impact of his Crucible weekend, and how it shaped his role as a father and husband. He highlights the power of community, asking for help, and embracing personal growth. Here are some of the topics we cover in our podcast episodes: Radical honesty and grace Spiritual growt...

Host Andy Spell talks with Mike Hall as he shares his journey of personal growth through The Crucible Project, tackling struggles with identity, passivity, and pornography. He highlights the power of grace, truth, and brotherhood in healing, especially through challenges like divorce. Mike encourages men to seek their true identity, embrace fatherhood, and find support in their struggles. Here are...

Leadership Series host Tim Rush sits down with Barry Thomas to discuss his leadership journey and the expansion of The Crucible Project from Chicago to Texas and beyond. Barry shares insights on authenticity, self-belief, and the challenges of fostering emotional and spiritual growth in his community. He reflects on the impact of leadership on his family, personal identity, and the importance of v...

Host Joy Dunning sits down with guest (and podcast editor) Robert Locklear to talk about his journey of self-discovery through the Crucible experience. Robert shares his struggles with anger and vulnerability, how his childhood shaped his relationships, and the pivotal questions that led him to deeper emotional awareness. They explore faith, authenticity, and the challenge of aligning one’s public...

In this episode, Crucible Executive Director Roy Wooten and Men's Ministry Leader Byron Myers explore the concept of godly masculinity, contrasting it with toxic masculinity. They discuss the confusion many men face regarding their identity and the societal pressures that contribute to harmful behaviors. The discussion emphasizes the importance of emotional awareness, setting boundaries, and...

Terry Martin sits down with host Joy Dunning to share his journey of personal growth and transformation through Crucible. Terry discusses the challenges he faced in his family life and reflects on the importance of recognizing and embracing anger as a means to establish boundaries and gain confidence. Here are some of the topics we cover in our podcast episodes: Radical honesty and grace Spiritual...

Host Joy Dunning sits down with Chris Modrzejewski who shares his journey to the Crucible Project, discussing the transformative impact it has had on his personal life, marriage, parenting, and ministry. He emphasizes the importance of emotional awareness, authenticity, and the ongoing work of personal growth. Chris also shares his mission to build transformational community by connecting people t...

Grayson Ege speaks with host Joy Dunning about the profound impact of the Crucible experience on his journey as a father. They explore themes of intentional parenting, the importance of emotional health, and the dynamics of family relationships. Grayson also shares personal stories about his growth, the challenges of parenting, and the significance of vulnerability and repair in relationships. The...

Leadership host Tim Rush sits down with Crucible Executive Director Roy Wooten to discuss the critical aspects of leadership, particularly in the context of pastoral care. They explore the importance of vulnerability, the need for safe spaces for pastors to express their struggles, and how church members can support their leaders. They also emphasizes the role of confession and authenticity in fos...

Vickie Kerr shares with host Joy Dunning about her transformative journey through soul work and coaching. This conversation dives into the importance of coaching , the dynamics of authentic relationships, and the power of community support in personal growth. Vickie shares how she overcame personal challenges, embraced her worthiness, and emphasizes the significance of dreaming and setting intenti...

Tim Rush and Andy Spell explore the multifaceted nature of leadership, focusing on Andy's personal journey and insights gained over nearly 40 years in ministry. They discuss the importance of recognizing one's leadership style, the role of personality in leadership, and the significance of self-care and validation. Andy shares his experiences with ego management, the journey of self-acce...

Lewis Yuan sits down with host Mark Dunning to share his journey from faithlessness, self-doubt, and personal struggle to finding purpose, healing, and hope through vulnerability and connection. Lewis recounts how years of self-reliance led to brokenness and how his Crucible retreat helped him confront his deepest fears, embrace radical honesty, and connect with a community of men  with reignited...

Leadership Series Host Tim Rush sits down with a very special guest, his wife Kim Rush, certified Crucible Retreat Leader and Coach . Kim reflects on the challenges of leadership, the balance of family and ministry, and the deep personal growth that comes from leaning into soul work. From lessons learned in Mexico, to navigating identity through seasons of loss and change, to embracing the importa...

Kevin Heraly sits down with host Andy Spell to share his transformative journey of stepping into true manhood and embracing soul-deep authenticity. From a pivotal moment that exposed hidden truths to discovering The Crucible Project, Kevin recounts how faith, grace, and accountability reshaped his marriage, fatherhood, and personal integrity. "Sometimes, 48 hours can change your life." H...