The Crucible Project Podcast

Podcaster Andy Spell is joined by Crucible Coach Jeremy Driver to share about the importance of not doing life alone. Hearing his move from isolation to community and the impact to everything in his life. For more information checkout TheCrucibleProject.org As a man or woman of faith, do you long to live at a deeper level of authenticity, passion and power? Unlike any Christian retreat you’ve atte...

Crucible Women’s Ministry Leader Lisa Modrzejewski interviews Business Leader and Crucible Board Member Nicole Dominguez as she shares how her experiences within Crucible significantly improved her leadership within the business community and in leading her company. Her soul work journey has led her to give herself grace and exhibit grace at a greater degree to others. For more information checkou...

This Father's Day, Roy Wooten is joined by Dr. Mike Ayers—author, educator, pastor, and founder of FatherFriend.net—to explore the power of intentional fatherhood. Drawing from his own story and years of experience, Dr. Mike shares practical wisdom on being present, leading with purpose, and loving your children well through every stage of life. Here are some of the topics we cover in our pod...

In this episode, Andy Spell sits down with Harry Swanson to share his journey from woundedness to healing. After years of carrying the childhood belief that he was unlovable, Harry found himself at a crossroads that led him to The Crucible Project. Through his story, Harry explores how our deepest wounds can shape our relationships, our identity, and our walk with God—and how healing begins when w...

What if the greatest challenge to your leadership isn't a lack of skill, experience, or vision—but an unmet need for affirmation? In this episode, Tim Rush sits down with longtime Crucible Project leader Bob Locascio to explore how woundedness and the desire for approval can quietly shape the way we lead. Drawing from decades of leadership experience, Bob shares his personal journey of recogn...

In a culture where trust is increasingly fragile, Roy Wooten and Byron Myers explore how distrust impacts our relationships, leadership, faith, and sense of self. Discover practical steps for healing trust wounds and learn why biblical manhood is rooted in courageous trust rather than fear and control. Here are some of the topics we cover in our podcast episodes: Radical honesty and grace Spiritua...

On this episode of The Crucible Project Podcast, host and pastor Andy Spell interviews Kenny Johnston about the painful effects of self-loathing and shame. Kenny shares how those struggles led him to feel worthless and invisible, and the conversation explores the emotional and spiritual impact of those beliefs. This episode offers a candid look at shame, identity, and the hope of healing. It is a...

Podcaster Armando Batista is joined by Jonathan Moynihan, Pastor of Mosaic Christian Church in Maryland. Jonathan shares his journey that resulted in him doing the work and living differently. For more information checkout TheCrucibleProject.org As a man or woman of faith, do you long to live at a deeper level of authenticity, passion and power? Unlike any Christian retreat you’ve attended, The Cr...

Andy Spell sits down with Brittany Duke for a vulnerable conversation about childhood trauma, mother wounds, and the path toward healing. Brittany shares how her early experiences shaped her life and how The Crucible Project has supported her as she moves forward. This episode is for anyone seeking hope, healing, and practical encouragement after childhood pain. Here are some of the topics we cove...

Podcaster Tim White is joined by longtime Pastor and Crucible Leader John Casey from Colorado Springs, CO. John shares his personal journey into self-compassion and life changing grace. For more information checkout TheCrucibleProject.org As a man or woman of faith, do you long to live at a deeper level of authenticity, passion and power? Unlike any Christian retreat you’ve attended, The Crucible...

Dive into a heartfelt conversation with Chris Cooper and host, Andy Spell, as Chris delves into the life-changing weekend with the Crucible Project that unlocked his inner strength and reshaped his approach to leadership, faith, and authenticity. Here are some of the topics we cover in our podcast episodes: Radical honesty and grace Spiritual growth Discipleship Mentorship Personal development Lif...

In this captivating conversation with The Crucible Project Podcast host Neil Harbison, Aaron Bahn recounts his transformative journey from military service and personal struggles to finding community, honesty, and grace through the Crucible Project. He delves into how confronting mental health challenges, embracing conflict resolution, and nurturing supportive relationships have led to profound gr...

**Explicit Content about sexual addiction and abuse.** Prepare to be seen, heard, and healed. In this powerful conversation, Doug Carpenter, a seasoned psychologist and author, bravely unpacks the deeply hidden wounds of sexual abuse, shame, and the path toward recovery. If you're tired of darkness hiding your truth, this episode is your call to step into the light and reclaim your life. Here...

**Explicit Content about sexual addiction and abuse.** This episode unearths the raw, messy, and brave truths about male sexual abuse, shame, and healing. With Dr. Doug Carpenter, a psychologist and author, we dive deep into the complex journey from childhood trauma to adult recovery, confronting shame, and rewriting the narrative of brokenness into strength. If you're ready to face what’s be...

Are you feeling stuck, restless, or like something's missing despite doing everything "right"? In this episode, Roy Wooten and Byron Myers dive deeper into the often unspoken inner battles of successful Christian men who appear to have it all together but feel far from fulfilled. When success masks a deeper gap, what’s really going on beneath the surface? Join us as we expose the tr...

In this episode of the Crucible Project podcast, Tim Rush interviews Judson Poling, a long-time leader in the Crucible Project. They discuss Judson's journey into men's work, his reluctant approach to leadership, and the importance of feedback and encouragement in developing future leaders. Judson shares personal anecdotes and insights on how to identify potential leaders and the signifi...

Are you tired of carrying a façade that leaves you exhausted, restless, and disconnected? This episode dives deep into the heart of genuine manhood, stripping away the masks we wear to reveal the authentic, vulnerable, and courageous leader God designed us to be. If you've ever felt like you're just going through the motions or that no one truly sees the real you—this episode is your cal...

In this episode, Neil Harbison joins host Martin Brooker to explore his powerful journey through mental health challenges, personal growth, and transformation in the Crucible Project. Neil opens up about learning emotional presence in fatherhood, embracing vulnerability, and the deep healing that comes from community support and radical honesty. His story offers a raw and hopeful look at manhood,...

Missionary and **tricultural** leader Matthew Reed joins host Tim Rush on the Crucible Project podcast to share how growing up across cultures, serving in Mexico, and walking through the loss of his father reshaped his approach to leadership and personal growth. In this episode, Matthew unpacks how the Crucible Project helped him move from follower to authentic leader, explore his gift as an “opti...

In this Real Christian Manhood episode, Byron Myers interviews Roy Wooten about Unstuck , a trauma-informed curriculum designed to help men break free from isolation and grow in authentic Christian manhood. They explore emotional connection, courage, and biblical transformation, showing how men’s small groups can foster personal growth, honesty, and lasting change. Discover how Unstuck helps men m...

Host Joy Dunning sits down with Dr. Paul Spradley—educator, executive leader, and justice advocate—to explore how inner healing fuels meaningful leadership and lasting change. Paul shares his Crucible story, the power of emotional honesty and brotherhood, and why doing the hard internal work is essential for pursuing justice, wholeness, and healthier communities. Here are some of the topics we cov...

Chris Rice, a community leader from the Chicagoland area, shares with host Joy Dunning about the impact of his Crucible retreat on his parenting, marriage, and anger. Through honesty with God and himself, Chris found a new path forward where he knew he was God's beloved son, even in the midst of pain and difficulty. He shares, "To be able to tell God how I really felt - even though I kne...

Crucible Executive Director Roy Wooten and Men's Ministry Leader Byron Myers engage in a deep conversation about goal setting and achievement. They reflect on the importance of realistic goals, the role of motivation and authenticity, and the significance of accountability in achieving personal objectives. The discussion also touches on overcoming stubborn goals, the value of community suppor...

Host Joy Dunning sits down with Annette Maier, a licensed counselor, to explore her calling into counseling and the transformative impact of Crucible retreats on both her personal life and professional practice. Annette shares how the retreats helped her reconnect with her emotions, trust the process, and experience the kind of vulnerability and community that brings real change. Together, they un...

In this Christmas special, host Robb Paolasso and some of the Crucible staff team reflect on their personal experiences with Christmas, exploring themes of sadness, anger, fear, happiness, excitement, and joy. In this heartfelt conversation, each member shares their unique stories, highlighting the importance of emotional awareness and personal growth within the context of family and community. Jo...