Testimony Through Tears (Grieving Christian Mothers)

In this episode of Testimony Through Tears, Janet talks honestly about the anger that often comes with deep grief after losing a child to suicide. Anger at the situation, at people, at yourself, and sometimes even at God can feel frightening and isolating—but God is not afraid of your honest emotions. Through scripture and gentle encouragement, this episode reminds grieving moms that they can brin...

When grief comes in waves, it can feel overwhelming and unpredictable. In this episode, we talk about how to navigate those moments when emotions rise suddenly and feel too heavy to carry. Grounded in Isaiah 43:2, this episode gently reminds you that you are not alone in the waves—God is with you, holding you steady through every rise and fall.

When a mom loses her child, even the simplest tasks can feel overwhelming. Something like going to the grocery store—once routine—can become unbearable. The questions, the small talk, the people who don’t know… it’s more than she can carry. In this episode, we gently walk through what that experience is really like for her—and how you, as someone who loves and supports her, can step in with practi...

When someone you love is grieving the loss of a child, especially to suicide, it can feel overwhelming to know what to do or say. You want to help… but you’re afraid of getting it wrong. In this episode, Janet gently walks you through what a grieving mom actually needs right now. Not perfect words. Not explanations. Not solutions. Just presence. With honest insight and heartfelt encouragement, you...

When grief first comes, it often doesn’t feel the way we expect. You may feel numb, disconnected, or like you’re simply going through the motions. In this video, we talk about that early fog of grief and the truth that even when your heart feels distant, God is still near to you and holding you through this storm.

Many grieving moms wrestle with the fear that moving forward means leaving their child behind. In this episode, Janet gently reminds moms that living again is not betrayal—it is one way we carry our child’s story forward. Through scripture and encouragement, she shares how honoring your child’s life, sharing memories, serving others, and eventually sharing your testimony can allow their impact to...

In this episode, Janet reflects on James 5:7–11 and the call to remain patient in seasons of deep suffering. For grieving moms, the waiting can feel endless and the pain overwhelming, but God is still working beneath the surface of our sorrow. Through scripture and gentle encouragement, this episode reminds you that the Lord is full of compassion and mercy, and that even in the long journey of gri...

In this tender episode, Janet talks about the memories that won’t stop replaying — the bad ones that bring waves of guilt and the good ones that ache with longing. Whether you are in fresh loss or years down the road, those moments can rise up unexpectedly and shake your heart. Together, we name the accusations for what they are and look at how the enemy tries to use memory to steal peace. But we...

When the grief feels heavier than your faith… when the pain is more than you think you can survive… this episode is for you. In this tender and honest conversation through 2 Corinthians 1:8–9, we talk about what it means to be pressed beyond your strength—and why that doesn’t mean you’re failing God. Together, we’ll explore how the place where you feel most broken may actually be the place where y...

When Jesus said, “Blessed are those who mourn,” He was speaking directly into the kind of grief that takes your breath away. In this episode, we unpack Matthew 5:4 and what it really means to be blessed in the middle of unbearable loss. If you are a mom grieving the suicide of your child and wondering where comfort is, this gentle conversation will remind you that your tears are seen, your mournin...

When a mom loses her child to suicide, she is grieving more than death — she is grieving shock, questions, and often silence. In this episode, we gently share what moms wish their churches understood about suicide loss. This is an invitation to pastors and church members to love more intentionally, speak more carefully, and create safer spaces for grieving families. Honest, compassionate, and root...

In this deeply honest episode, Janet shares about the reality of darkness in a broken world and how it can quietly overwhelm even the most loved and prayed-over child. “When the Darkness Took My Child” speaks truth about spiritual battle, despair, and the grief that follows suicide loss—without minimizing the pain or ignoring the hope we have in Christ. If you have ever felt like something dark st...

Have you ever felt like your tears meant you weren’t trusting God enough? After losing a child to suicide, many moms quietly carry an extra weight — the fear that their grief somehow reflects weak faith. In this honest and freeing episode of  Testimony Through Tears , Janet gently confronts that myth head-on. Grief is not rebellion. Grief is not doubt. Grief is not a spiritual failure. Grief is lo...

Some days the weight feels unbearable. The silence in your home is loud. The questions won’t stop. And you wonder how you’re supposed to keep going. In this tender episode of  Testimony Through Tears , Janet speaks directly to the mom whose heart feels shattered by suicide loss. With honesty, compassion, and Scripture, she reminds you that you are not walking this road by yourself. If the loneline...

What does it mean to glorify God when your heart is shattered? In this episode, we sit with  1 Corinthians 10:31  and explore how God’s glory is not diminished by grief—but often revealed through it. This conversation is for the mother who has lost a child to suicide and wonders how faith fits into a life forever changed. You’ll hear reassurance that your tears do not dishonor God, that your child...

Romans 10:15 What if God calls  tired  feet beautiful? In this episode, we sit with Romans 10:15 and the powerful truth that God doesn’t wait for us to feel healed, strong, or ready before He sends us. He calls willing hearts—and faithful feet. If you’re a mom walking through deep grief, especially after the loss of a child, this episode is for you. Your feet have walked hard roads you never chose...

What happens when you’re living a godly life—and suffering still comes? In this episode, we sit with  2 Timothy 3:12 , a verse that speaks honestly about the cost of following Christ. For moms grieving the loss of a child to suicide, this scripture reminds us that suffering is not a sign of failure or weak faith. It is not proof that God has turned away. Together, we talk about what persecution ca...

In this episode, I share my story—the hardest one I’ve ever told. The loss of my daughter changed everything, and for a long time, I didn’t know if I was strong enough to speak about it out loud. This is not a polished story or a story of quick healing. It’s an honest testimony of love, loss, faith, anger, survival, and the quiet ways God met me when I could barely stand. It’s about delayed grief,...

Losing a child to suicide shatters more than a heart—it reshapes faith, identity, and the way we understand God. In this episode, we gently explore how deep loss can become part of a sacred testimony—not by rushing healing or minimizing pain, but by recognizing God’s presence in the hardest places. Written for moms who are walking the unthinkable road of suicide loss, this conversation offers reas...

When grief settles in, many moms find that God feels quiet—and that silence can feel unsettling or even frightening. In this episode, we talk about how God often speaks differently in seasons of deep loss. Centered on 1 Kings 19:12, this conversation offers reassurance for grieving mothers who no longer hear God the way they once did, reminding them that silence is not abandonment and that God’s p...

After loss, trusting God can feel impossible—especially when this isn’t the life you would have chosen. In this episode, we reflect on Isaiah 55:8–9 and talk honestly about trusting God when His ways don’t make sense. A gentle reminder that you don’t have to understand to stay connected, and a repeatable prayer for the days when trust feels hard.

When the Shock Is Gone, But the Questions Remain God is not offended by the questions we’re still asking. When the shock of loss begins to fade, the questions often grow louder. In this episode of  Testimony Through Tears , Janet shares her story of losing her daughter, Samantha, and gently explores what it means to bring our hardest questions to God without fear or guilt. Anchored in Proverbs 3:5...