Terpene Therapy

This week I'm appreciating the break in the weather both physically and mentally. I got to hang out with my homie after he wasn't doing so well last week and make some amends in that regard. I also talk about the relationship between cycling and consuming cannabis that I had built up over the last decade and how it's been cycling while sober; it's definitely different but not t...

This week I decided to walk to a park to capture the real time effects on my consciousness from my therapeutic ketamine prescription. I talk a bit about my experience with how my mom's death impacted my views on life, death, and the connection between the consciousness and the meat suit. I also briefly touched on my perspective on therapy in general and how it seems to work for me. There&apos...

This week we're exploring one of my favorite parts of the parklands, the Moss Gibbs Woodland Garden! The bottlebrushes are blooming this week and I wanted to capture them before they're gone! I also talk about harm reduction when dealing with thoughts resurfacing from a past addiction. Sometimes, when you go deep enough into the murky waters, the thoughts and cravings never truly leave y...

Today I decided to go out to a part of Iroquois Park that I normally don't go to but since it's a bad tick season this year, I have to walk Sheba on paved areas out in nature! I've always enjoyed this section and there are no cars to worry about as well! It's been a wild adventure as far as the therapy goes for this past week; I've been utilizing meditation and visualizati...

This week I am taking advantage of the new traffic patterns around the waterfront here in town to capture a stream of consciousness about my new addition to EMDR. My therapist recommend a combination of EMDR and Ketamine and so far this week it seems to have a synergistic effect on my mood and my dreams/sleep quality! Set, setting, and intention make a world of difference compared to when I used t...

This week we have a very corny title for a very philosophical episode lmao.  Last week I felt compelled to buy a copy of Be Here Now by Ram Dass and there was a section of that book that heavily related to my life so I decided to share it with y'all here today. The coming down portion is valuable insight to anyone out there who's experienced in traveling. It's not the end all be all...

This week we're at Riverview Park to explore and catalogue more of the Levee Trail with Sheba! This environment always inspires nostalgia for me and reminds me of a simpler time in my life. It's been very rainy around these parts so I'm grateful for the opportunity to get outside and enjoy the sunshine! Cactus Carl is also continuing to grow at a good rate, it wont be long until the...

This week I'm exploring a section of the loop in Turkey Run park while I was waiting to get my AC unit fixed and reflecting on how grateful I am to have functioning AC when it's working. Once it gets up to 80+ degrees in the house I begin not sleeping as well and it also makes my dreams strange, like a half fever dream.  This combined with the continuation of the EMDR process led to a fe...

This week I began the first of the many experiences with the EMDR process and it's been a heavy week to say the least. It seems like this process has taken a lot of repressed memories and brought them to the forefront for reprocessing; this ultimately will be good. However, right now it's difficult to deal with and has been affecting my sleep. This is to be expected though and I feel lik...

Today I'm shaking off some of the heaviness that I've been feeling since last week's near death experience by hiking a few miles in the woods of Jefferson Memorial Forest. I go over some fun memories of hiking out there a few years ago as well as a wild experience with an Amanita Regalis mushroom. I also do my part to help clean up nature by picking up a bottle of red Rhotos that I...

The other day I decided to go film an episode on my kayak at Floyds Fork after a big storm and the waters were too treacherous to handle. The footage is forever lost but I am alive. I got pinned under the water against a downed tree that made a strainer, but luckily was able to make it out. After I got out of the water the adventure really began. I'm grateful to still be here!  I also share s...

Today's (yesterday) Earth Day and so Sheba and I went to a trail that I don't hike on very frequently! I also talk about my bicycle day ride and the weaponization of ticks! It's a beautiful day to get outside provided you have the health and means to do so! Cactus carl is also doing well, and the new growth is a couple months away from being ready to propagate! I hope you have a goo...

This week Sheba and I are exploring the site of the abandoned graves that used to be part of the Central State Hospital also known as the Lakeland Asylum. I decided to do this today because I started my first of many EMDR therapy sessions this past Monday and wanted to reflect a bit on how appreciative I am that mental health treatments have come so far in this part of the world. PTSD, Bipolar, an...

Today, I'm heading down the other direction on the Louisville loop trail from three weeks ago, I realized that I hadn't actually been that far down and wanted to see where it lead to! It's a nice walk and I wanted to get it in before the data center is built and the environment gets fucked down there! It's sad to see how things change sometimes, so enjoy them while you still ca...

This week, I'm officially 30 years old. It feels weird to say that but it happens to most people at some point! I'm grateful for the ability to get outside today and enjoy the weather with Sheba and I'm grateful for the cactus in all of its collective wisdom! Tonight, I'm going to get some steak frites and watch the storm roll in, maybe even get a post storm walk in who knows!...

This week I decided to go enjoy the weather with Sheba at a park that I haven't catalogued on here yet and visit an old spot where I hadn't been to in quite some time. This is the last hike before I turn 30 next week and I am grateful to have made it this far. Every day past 18 is a gift based on how I used to live and being able to be up walking around and breathing the air is something...

This week I decided to take Sheba on a walk at a place that I hadn't been to in 20 years. When I was a kid, my mom was on the urban planning team in Louisville and we had to go out and make sure that this section of the Louisville Loop was done properly before it was opened to the public. For some reason I've been having a recurring dream about that day this past week and I wanted to see...

This week I'm taking Sheba for another walk after having found a new therapist to work with. The initial meeting was good and they recommended to me that I undergo EMDR therapy; this will hopefully help me deal with past traumatic experiences in a constructive way and allow me to be more resilient when I come across new ones going forward. I also revisit some past fun memories! We got in a go...

It's getting to be spring time around this way and unfortunately it's been a whirlwind of change since the past episode! I've been dealing with the death of a family member and my friend going back down a bad path with alcohol. This time of year is always representative of new growth for me, however that doesn't always mean its fun and easy. They call it growing pains for a rea...

This week we're taking a look inside the tent to see the new growth that's been happening on Cactus Carl! I've been learning a bit more about caring for TBM cacti and it's paid off in two new pups! They sprang up about a week and a half ago and have been growing vigorously ever since! It's been a strange week again over here, so the 2nd part of this episode is spent out in...

This week is a stream of consciousness episode where I continue the hike from last time! I talk about a lesson that I've learned from not consuming cannabis, my hopes for a peaceful and unified future for our species, and we end the hike with heading to one of the bigger creek beaches along Floyd's Fork. It was a beautiful day outside and I'm glad I had the ability to capture it as...

Today's episode was going to be focused on harm reduction + information about one of my favorite compounds: 2c-b. This is one of Alexander Shulgin's most prized creations and it deserves a bit of a spotlight on this podcast! However, I ended up running into to an unknown gentleman on what started about eagles and by a twist of fate, this episode turned into a full on conversation about l...

This week I'm capturing a new trail and the rare snowy weather for my area with Sheba. She absolutely loves the snow and can't get enough of hiking out here! I also discuss some more of the dreams that I've been having since I've been battling the heavy sleep for the past couple of weeks. Sometimes I feel like human beings have a natural period of low energy during the winter. ...

This week I've been hit with the curse of low energy which is a part of existing with bipolar disorder; I have always existed at some point along the sine wave. The lows can be just as bad as the highs although the highs can lead to making crazier decisions. When I'm low I just sleep a lot. So because I'm sleeping a lot, I might as well journal the dreams that I've been having....

This week I've been doing some listening to an audiobook of The Body Keeps The Score that was recommended to me by the therapist that I'm currently working with! I'm on chapter 4 right now and decided to take some notes on how my experience with PTSD relates to the information provided in the literature. I still have some months left on my journey of integration before I get back to...