Stumbling Through Enlightenment

We start off this week with Edward talking about a needed vacation. Edward spent some time with family at an aunt’s lake house and had a special visit with an aunt and uncle from Texas. Edward speaks about the general family dynamic and dealing with an aunt that has dementia. Jason asks about anxiety going into the family event. Edward tells us about how his internalization from his childhood has...

In this week’s Check-In, we hear Jason talk about how he is growing through a big event in his life. Jason and his wife have had a boundary that needed to change. Jason has been working around it which has led to some very deep trauma work. The event that he spoke about a few weeks ago has now happened and he shares with us how he got through it, as well as the emotional aftermath. We also talk ab...

We start off our episode this week with Edward updating us on his ADHD medication journey. Recently, he found out that the Adderall he had been taking was causing an extremely high blood pressure. Speaking to his medication provider they decided to switch to Ritalin in the hopes of a more normal blood pressure. Edward also shares with us his experiences around telling people he has known for years...

In this week’s episode, we start with Edward sharing with us a very triggered moment. Being caught between two separate events he goes back to a feeling from his childhood of being both too much, yet not enough. His feelings are still a little raw and as he processes them along with the underlying childhood experiences, Jason offers some different perspectives. Edward and Jason speak about differe...

This week’s episode finds Edward at the end of a solo 70-hour work week. A positive COVID case at work lead to his Team Leader and half of the staff to be on leave. Being short staffed company wide, there wasn’t much help available. The remaining staff worked together and made it work, but Edward felt very overwhelmed. The last two shifts of the week Edward started his ADHD medication for the firs...

This week, in our check in, Jason shares with us some challenges he has been having with his daughter and his concerns about it triggering him. Jason’s daughter has been shutting down recently. Sometimes when there’s conflict or uncomfortable situations that come up. Jason talks to us about being triggered and how he is experiencing the situation emotionally. Jason relates to us how being triggere...

Our Check-In this week is a fun life update for Jason and Edward. Jason has another adventure kayaking with the family on the river again. Having learned their brutal lesson from their last adventure, the family shortened the trip and went with the current. This of course made for a more pleasant experience. Edward’s week involved pulling a muscle in his side not just once, but three times. He did...

Jason starts us off this week with a check-in around his work with the family videos. He shares with us the effect it has had on his perceptions of growing up, and his insights into how it has affected his life. We talk in detail about the experience, both pro and con, and how he is processing with his therapist. Edward announces 2 new editions to his home. A friend of his is currently fostering a...

In this week’s episode, Jason and Edward find themselves in a good space. The weather being warm, and spring turning to summer has brightened both Jason’s and Edward’s mental space. Edward starts out talking about his realization that his outside life is starting to be ok, but that he is feeling that a good spring cleaning of his house is needed. Edward and Jason talk about a new project Edward ju...

Edward checks in about his depression and some of the work he has been doing. Edward shares with us a difficult topic in his life. Relationships as a whole and romantic relationships specifically are difficult areas in his life. Edward shares his anxieties about, the prospects. Jason and Edward talk about the feelings associated and the need for growth. Jason tells us about his week and some good...

In this week’s check-in we talk about the homework Jason was given by his therapist. Jason speaks about watching videos from his childhood: His memories around the situations, what he sees with his adult experiences, and how he reacts emotionally. We discuss mutual perceptions and the dangers of quantifying experience. Lastly, we have a little fun at Edward’s expense, over a recent, ironic, situat...

This week’s episode fonds Jason dealing with a situation that leads to a full-on panic attack. Jason has been preparing himself for an inevitable situation that has caused him stress due to his past traumas. Now he is confronting the real-life situation with his wife and learning how to cope as well as being gentle with himself. We talk about strategies and our learning experiences as Edward draws...

Episode 55 – Spiritual Bypassing Our Episode this week starts with Edward uncovering the truth about his nature. Caught in a space of avoidance he starts to see a pattern in his work history that was dormant due to the seasonal work he did for so long. When Jason asks about his avoidance behavior it comes out that maybe Edward might have ADHD. We discuss the possibilities and some of the symptoms....

We start our episode this week with stories of the changing seasons. Edward shares with us the adventure he had cleaning his car out after the winter. Prompted by Jason he tells of the grossest and greatest things he found and shares a mystery too. Jason explores with us a new interest in the form of Stained Glass. He has not only learned new words but a bit about his own behaviors. We round out t...

This season starts out with Jason and Edward talking about the transitions from last season. Edward gives us an update on Boundaries and the surprising events that have occurred in his life while he has learned to set them. Jason finds himself in his springtime purge. We talk about the purging of emotional and physical items and working to create better places for ourselves. Today we ask ourselves...

This week’s episode will be a little different. Join us as we look back on the past year. We will share our favorite memories, and individual growth we have experienced throughout the last year. We will discuss our goals for the next year, and the changes we have decided to make for this upcoming year. Our Off the Rails this week will also be different. In our discussion we talk about some of the...

Our Check-In this week centers around Lorri’s loss of her aunt. The loss of any family member is tragic and brings up memories, analyzing of the lessons we learned from the person, and sometimes questions and assessment. With the passing of her aunt, Lorri finds herself not only in grief but also realizing that her generation is now the oldest generation. Jason shares his experiences of the same r...

In this week’s Check-In Lorri starts us off by telling us of her depression through this winter. We discover that her depression is caused, not just by the winter, but also by COVID. This realization opens a conversation about coping, and anger that she has been trying to suppress. These moments and feelings are shared by many and we discuss how to work through them and be with them. This week’s D...

This week’s Check-In starts off with Jason sharing about his experience with a kidney stone. As a trauma survivor who checks out of his body, he describes what he has been going through and how he has been dealing with it. As Lorri and Edward join the discussion and start sharing some of their experiences, Edward shares a story that he has not given a second thought of. Lorri and Jason react to hi...

We start off our episode this week with a conversation about suicidal thoughts and ideations. Jason shares with us, how he has been going through a rough time and has been battling self-worth issues and suicidal thoughts. Our conversation runs through some of his thought processes and support systems that he has reached out to. This week’s Deep Dive delves into a form of thinking that Edward has r...

Edward starts off our Check-In sharing his latest bout of depression. Edward shares with us how his medication increase has assisted him with his anxiety but how a set of situations in his life has increased his level of depression. We discuss the differences between depression and sadness that we need to feel. We also talk about the situations that Edward didn’t think were affecting him but Our D...

This week we start off with Jason for our Check-In. Jason has shared with us in the past that he has a recurring nightmare. Every time he has had the nightmare it has been basically the same. This week Jason shares with us how his nightmare has changed. Instead of starring his wife, it stars his biological mother. We talk about this breakthrough and what it means for him and the work he is doing a...

Our Check-In this week delves into the world of obsessive intrusive thoughts. Jason’s Obsessive-Compulsive Disorder is very much a type called Pure O or Purely Obsessive. This week Jason has been obsessing over his health in an unhealthy way. Battling with a bombardment of intrusive thoughts is exhausting. We discuss some coping strategies and our experiences with these thoughts and the spirals th...

Edward starts us off this week as he discusses his need for time off. Edward understands that he needs a vacation but is reluctant due to situations at work. Through discussion, Edward starts to understand that he is letting his survival-self dictate his actions around asking for time off. He wants to make sure it is the right time for everyone but himself. In the end, we bring it back to boundari...

In our Check-In this week, Lorri shares with us a story that has been brought into focus in her life recently. Lorri tells us about her relationship with a friend from her childhood. Recently this person has passed. Within that relationship, Lorri ended up setting boundaries that caused a great distance between them. She is now dealing with her guilt about the boundaries that she set and her emoti...