Stumbling Through Enlightenment

Edward finds himself ready for the return of his House Manager. Edward talks about looking forward to time off, then returning to doing only his job. Edward explains to Jason where he is at using Spoon Theory. Spoon Theory is often used to describe the amount of energy or the ability to do a specific task when one has an autoimmune disorder. In this case Edward uses it to describe his brain activi...

Jason starts us off this week lamenting the lack of light and about a rough week at work. From a discussion around some very chaotic new clients, to current clients having expectations that are unrealistic. To the craziness of the Holiday season, Jason has had a wild ride. Self-Soothing is something we’ve touched on before, but what is it? In this episode Jason introduces us to what it means to se...

This week finds Edward taking back some power and resetting some boundaries at work. After working on one of our recent episodes, Edward finds himself taking a closer look at his own work boundaries. Realizing that he is going to burn out sooner rather than later if he tries to keep up the pace, he has set for himself, Edward has decided to give up his 6th day in order to preserve some of his sani...

Jason shares with us an update on the sleep study he took at home along with his continuing concerns about his oxygen levels. The sleep study found nothing out of the ordinary, but now Jason finds himself having to partake in a more traditional sleep study in a hospital. We finish out our check in with some Family drama, Jason is experiencing with his biological brother. Jason finds a lot of growt...

This week we check in with Jason and the darker days of winter. Jason finds himself struggling with the darkness and looked up the actual amount of light we are getting to find it only 8 hours. This is not enough for most of us with any mental health issues. Jason also tells us about a startling discovery he made with his wife. Jason’s oxygen levels are down in the low 90s. This has obviously caus...

We start off this week’s episode with Edward checking in about his medications. Edward finds himself having trouble taking his medications every day, but also shares with us his increased energy and better mood. Edward discusses his excitement around his blood pressure situation and how he is hopeful for the return to Adderall. One scary element to him is a temporary increase to his suicidal ideat...

In this episode we start off with an update on Jason’s candid camera situation at work. We start out discussing his therapy session around what happened and the insights that came with it. Jason shares with us that he didn’t feel safe in that environment, but that he is moving to a good place with it. Realizing that he is safe has allowed him to be at peace with what happened and his workspace. No...

This week we start off with Edward relaying a particularly good week of some much-needed self-care. After spending a day off out of town with a friend, He talks about spending time with his sister, going to see a movie for the first time since the pandemic started, and a search for Indian food. As we have now entered the Holiday season it is again time to remind ourselves that setting boundaries i...

This week’s episode is all about Attachment styles. We begin by taking one of the tests that can easily be found online. We talked about the questions and answered them which gave us scores. The scores alone did not tell us much, but through some reading, and delving into the subject we have started the journey of understanding our individual attachment styles. Our Deep Dive is the explanation por...

Edward Starts us off this week with a tale of frustration and anger with a huge learning potential. He discusses a situation that arose within his work, that caught him off guard when a coworker sets a boundary that is at odds with the needs of the program. Edward sees red and discusses his reactions and anger in that moment. Jason assists with helpful insight and together they navigate some emoti...

Jason starts us off this week with a Check-In about a candid camera situation gone wrong. A possible prank instigates Jason to set up a camera in his office at work just to see what is going on. What he ends up capturing is a couple of coworkers trash talking him in his own office. Jason is caught off guard and is now in the middle of processing the situation. Jason and Edward discuss insights int...

This week’s Episode starts out with a tale of two wills. Edward finds himself in a situation when he and someone he works with start to co-escalate. Hindsight is 20/20 and, in this case, quite funny and educational. Jason also shares a story of a similar situation in which he found himself. Laughs are had and lessons are learned in this Check-In. In our Deep Dive, this week Jason and Edward play a...

We begin our episode this week with a general check in with Edward. Having started a new medication, Edward shares with us hour he has finally started to feel a lifting of the depression. As he’s starting to get back into the swing of his life, he talks about cleaning the house and the extra work that goes with the benefit of having kittens. He also shares with us two stories of occurrences that i...

Jason starts us off this week with some good news. He has bought a new to him car. Jason shares with us the trials and tribulations of the buying process. He and Edward tell stories about other car buying experiences, and Jason talks about his plans and hopes for the future along with the some of the cool features of his current car. Our Deep Dive this week is all about the cost of growth. We don’...

This week’s Check-in starts within the world of online selling. Jason is replacing his washer and dryer. Because of this he tries to sell his washer. This leads to a situation that triggers an emotional response of betrayal from childhood. Jason identifies his childhood feelings of promises being broken and how they have evolved into the adult feelings of being taken advantage of. In our Deep Dive...

Edward starts us off with a story of change in his life. Edward finds himself running the house he works at while his boss is on family leave. New responsibilities and a new schedule create some good and some challenging situations. Edward also talks about a new medication that he has added to his regimen and Jason and Edward talk about the perception differences between euphoria and typical. Our...

In this week’s Check-In Edward talks about his blood pressure and the process around getting it to more acceptable levels. Jason questions if it really was the medication since it is barely changed, and Edward has been off the stimulants for more than a month. Edward mentions that the last time he had high blood pressure such as this was when he was anemic. Edward talks about the frustration of ha...

Edward shares with us a story about car troubles. The story has a happy ending but getting there is a bit drawn out. As part of the story Jason and Edward talk about their relationships and history with manifestation. Edward finishes up with a lesson he learned from the experience about people and feeling worthy. This week’s Deep Dive is a discussion around the use of Cannabis in the treatment of...

We start out this week’s episode with the last installment of Jason’s vacation story. Jason shares with us, not only his anxiety around vacations, but also some of the comical situations he and his wife find themselves in, while in the big city. Jason also speaks about ways he “unplugged” from his job to take this time, and the feeling of filling the well from a much-needed break. Our Deep Dive th...

In this week’s Check-In Edward talks about his continuing journey with his ADHD medication. Edward’s high blood pressure has become a major concern, even after switching to a different medication. Edward and his medication provider have decided to temporarily discontinue the use of stimulants at this point, while working with his primary doctor to bring down his blood pressure. In the meantime, Ed...

This week finds Edward with new life in his house. The kittens have come home! Edward shares with us his experience bringing home Bartok and Espur and how surprisingly emotional it was, given that their original foster family was a friend that recently passed away. Edward talks the first couple of nights and the challenge with having his mother around as “emotional support.” Today’s Deep Dive is a...

In This episode we get a chance to sit down with Michelle and learn about her Ayahuasca experience. Starting out Michelle shares with us the story of her journey to Peru and what was going on in her life at the time, as well as the ups and downs during her experiences. We also get a chance to hear about how it has changed her life and what her plans are for the future. If you would like to reach o...

Jason talks about the wedding he and his wife attended. We find out how the wearing of the jacket went, but also how Jason dealt with a new boundary that neither he, nor his wife, knew existed. Jason speaks about the struggles he had with certain situations and how he and his wife dealt with them. Jason ends his story of the wedding weekend with some insights into his relationship, and his return...

This week’s Check-in finds Jason getting closer to the wedding and vacation. Jason’s history with vacations has not always been positive, so getting ready for vacation is an emotional and mental chore as well as a physical one. Leading up to his vacation Jason questions a work situation he experienced. The conversation turns over to being human in the mental health field. We discuss it being ok sa...

Jason is getting ready to attend a wedding with his wife in this weeks Check-In. The only challenge is trying to find something to wear. Jason doesn’t often “dress up” so finding clothes appropriately for a wedding is a little difficult. This is compounded by the fact that Jason has a hard time committing to an outfit that might not be as comfortable as he needs it to be. Jason talks about his nee...