stream of consciousWes

thanks for listening

thanks for listening

This is a conversation I had with my grandfather, Amp, my mother's father. I recorded us on a whim after a family gathering to celebrate my return to Iowa after a year-long road trip back in 2021. 4 years later and a lot has changed in my life and in Amp's life. I moved back to Iowa in October 24' to be closer to him and to the rest of my family. I was able to be a caregiver for him several times...

thanks for slowing down, taking some deep breaths, and listening to this episode about money, society, desire, community, and just like life. :)

it's okay to start something and not finish it. to do a workout one time. to paint a painting and not want to paint again for years. to read a few pages of a book. to make a healthy meal and not want to make it again. to go to a yoga class and not go back. to post a video and not want to create a content schedule to post more. to follow your intuition and your interests as they are TODAY. tomo...

You believe that your future holds so much potential and then it becomes the present and you have to act on your ideas of who you want to be and what you want to accomplish. This can become an experience that leads to a lack of trust in yourself. Providing evidence over and over again that you fail at becoming what you have the potential to become. Go easier on yourself. Break everything down into...

are our creative efforts our own under capitalism? must we transform our individual artistic efforts into a business plan to survive? this is a common predicament humans find themselves in these days. lets discuss :)

keeping up with and forming friendships these days feels incredibly difficult to manage. our lives have become more and more isolated as going out becomes more expensive and we become more familiar with a lifestyle and routine of staying in our homes and our little bubbles.

Share with others when your cup runneth over. Acknowledge when the time you spend in isolation isn’t serving you. We all need rest, but if all we do is rest and unwind and destress in our own lil comfortable nests, it starts to isolate us from the stuff that fills up our cups. Don’t worry about what it looks like to others when you try something new. Don’t hate your body to get yourself in the gym...

One of my strengths is my ability to narrate and observe. This is how I discovered the power of tarot. This is how I discovered freestyle rapping and improvisational creation. In my expression and story-telling about what I’m going through, I hope that you can hear something that helps you to shine a light on your own life. This episode starts off talking about jobs and having to draw boundaries o...

art exists in so many forms. I often feel bound to do what ive already done, to do the kind of art I chose to do as a teen. It feels easy to let my past guide me to the choices and options I think I’m already good at. Being a beginner is intimidating and I think it can feel harder and harder as we get older. SO get out there and experiment. Draw a picture of your dog and then another one and anoth...

ITS NOT AS SERIOUS AS I TEND TO THINK

honoring a honey bee’s life, commentary of cultural masculinity and emotions, some fun freestyles. Tune in for a great ‘sode :)

life is beautiful and SO ARE YOU. dont forget it! This episode is about my creativity, my flow, my freestyles! so listen in because you’re in for a treat! who knows where we’re going but let’s have a good time on the journey! lol

today is made of choices. so was yesterday. so is tomorrow. it doesn’t have to be any bigger than that.

it’s easy to get caught up in the idea of what we thought was going to happen. and when our feelings and energy levels differ from that we might feel like we aren’t living up to who we should be. let’s instead just honor how we’re feeling I’m this moment and think about what we could do to honor and assist our current state of being.

who you are is enough. all you gotta do is follow your interests. give stuff a shot. see how it feels. see what you’re capable of. easier said than done. don’t let others get you down.

presence doesn’t demand our attention the way other stuff does. we deserve some peace and quiet sometimes.

dare to dream

we adjust to a change in our environment. we can choose to slowly inch our way into the newness or we can cannonball. either way, we have agency in how to approach the transitions I’m our lives. let’s not take any hour for granted, we don’t even get a million of them.

stepping away from such a polarized view of life and of myself.

thoughts on the critical mind and the positive mind. when we are scared we are thrust into authenticity. we don’t have to have control all the time. presence can be a path towards acceptance and newness.

come sit down with me for a chat about being alone, isolating ourselves with our addictions, and sharing our difficulties with the people we love. finding people to talk about the big life stuff with has changed my life. I hope you all can find some safe people to build community with. love you

so my jaw clicks sometimes when I talk. and I get so in my head about it. and I talk about it a lot during this episode but guess what!? you can barely hear it, if at all. So. this is a great example of the way that we can become obsessed with something that seems so obvious and annoying and noticeable to us, that other people can barely even pick up on. I can believe that I am so obviously an ann...

its easy to get caught up in old tapes this episodes music is below: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=18NHV4nJLQc&t=1685s