SoulFire

In grief, regret can become one of the loudest voices in the room. The should have's . The could have's . The if only's . We replay conversations, decisions, missed calls, boundaries we set, words we wish we had said, and moments we wish we could relive just one more time. In this deeply personal episode of Soulfire , Jesica shares the regret she carried after losing her mom and the pa...

What happens when the world stops saying their name… but your heart still whispers it every day? In this deeply raw episode of Soulfire , I open up about a conversation that shattered my heart wide open. My 7-year-old son, who was only two years old when his grandmother passed away from addiction, broke down crying and confessed something devastating: “My only memory of grandma is when she was dea...

There comes a moment in grief that no one really prepares you for. The pain isn’t as loud. The ache doesn’t consume every breath. The survival mode starts to loosen its grip. And instead of relief… you feel unsure. Maybe even scared. In this episode of Soulfire , Jesica explores the tender, disorienting space that comes after grief quiets — the moment when you realize pain has been leading you for...

There comes a moment in grief that no one prepares you for. The tears slow down. The panic softens. The ache isn’t as loud as it once was. And instead of relief… you feel fear. In this episode of Soulfire , Jesica speaks to the quiet side of grief — the phase where healing begins to settle in and many people feel confused, guilty, or afraid. Afraid that the quiet means they’re forgetting. Afraid t...

The last full supermoon of the year carries a powerful energy — an energy of release, renewal, and emotional clearing. In this episode of Soulfire , we step into a sacred full moon ritual created especially for those grieving, those missing someone, and those carrying weight they no longer want to hold. Whether this is your first holiday season without your loved one, your tenth, or your twentieth...

The days after the holidays can be the heaviest. In this tender episode, I Share the truth about navigating Thanksgiving without a loved one — whether it’s the first year, fourth year, or the twentieth. This is a soft place to land when the grief hits, a reminder that you’re not alone, and a gentle call to honor the ache and your strength. 🔥 Soulfire Work — Gentle Holiday Edition 1. Write Finish...

Sometimes the hardest part of healing is when the people who left during your pain try to come back. In Episode 12 of Soulfire, Jesica Bush opens her heart about forgiveness, boundaries, and the complex emotions that surface when old wounds are reopened. She shares her personal story of reconnection, explains why forgiveness doesn’t always require reunion, and offers gentle guidance for protecting...

When you start healing, nobody tells you how much you’ll change. You stop chasing chaos, you crave stillness, and sometimes that peace feels like loneliness. In Episode 11 of Soulfire, Jesica Bush explores the quiet transformation that happens when healing shifts your identity. She shares how letting go of old versions of yourself can feel like grief — and how that process creates space for peace,...

Nobody really talks about this part of healing — the exhaustion that comes once your body finally feels safe. When your nervous system comes out of survival mode, rest isn’t laziness — it’s recovery. In this episode of Soulfire , Jesica Bush dives into the calm after the storm — the silence your body craves when it’s no longer fighting to survive. She shares how exhaustion is actually the body’s w...

You’ve heard of the 5 stages of grief: Denial, Anger, Bargaining, Depression, Acceptance. But what if they were never meant to be a map—just a guide? In Episode 9 of Soulfire , we dig deep into the origin of the 5 stages, what they got right, where they fail, and why grief doesn’t follow neat steps. I share how I tried to force myself through stages, how shame crept in when grief looped back, and...

After loss, forgiveness can feel impossible—especially when the person you need to forgive isn’t another human, but life itself . In this episode of Soulfire , Jesica Bush explores the sacred process of forgiving life, rebuilding trust, and learning to breathe again after heartbreak. ✨ Soulfire Work: Write a letter to Life . Tell it the truth—your anger, your questions, your heartbreak. Then, wri...

After loss, even happiness can feel wrong. We fear that if we laugh, love, or feel joy, we’re betraying the memory of the one we lost. But healing doesn’t mean forgetting—it means remembering with love. In this episode of Soulfire , we explore the courage it takes to feel again, to open your heart without guilt, and to welcome life back in. ✨ Soulfire Work: Journal about a moment you felt joy aft...

Avoidance feels safe in grief. We stay busy, distract ourselves, or numb the pain, convincing ourselves that if we don’t look at it, it won’t hurt as much. But avoidance doesn’t heal us—it delays the pain, strains our relationships, and keeps our wounds open. In this episode of Soulfire , I share how avoidance showed up in my journey, the hidden cost it carried, and how I finally learned that faci...

Grief doesn’t always show up as tears—sometimes it shows up as anger. In this episode, I sit down with Guinevere Smith to talk about her grief journey, the fire of anger that rose after her loss, and the ways she is learning to honor her Soulfire through it all. This conversation is raw, real, and a reminder that there is no right way to grieve. Anger, silence, laughter, pain—it’s all part of love...

Guilt is one of the heaviest chains in grief. It whispers “I should have…” and “If only I had…” until we start believing the lie that we failed the people we loved most. For me, the loudest guilt came from the last day I saw my mom alive. I set boundaries to protect my kids, and when she asked to come home with me, I said no. Hours later, she was gone. For months, I replayed that moment, punishing...

Anger shows up in grief like a shield. For me, it felt easier to rage than to feel the unbearable truth that my mom was gone. Anger kept me moving when the weight of my pain threatened to crush me. It gave me something to hold on to when silence felt like too much. But here’s what I’ve learned: anger is grief’s armor. It isn’t weakness. It isn’t wrong. It’s a way our hearts try to protect us when...

In this episode of Soulfire , I take you into the foggy days after my mom’s passing—the days where nothing made sense but life refused to stop. I was numb, broken, and still expected to plan a funeral I couldn’t afford, all while trying to keep traditions alive for my boys and hold my family together. I share the story with you about my estranged sister and her roll in the funeral after not seeing...

Grief doesn’t send a warning. It arrives like a storm, ripping through your world and leaving you standing in the wreckage of a life you no longer recognize. In this very first episode of Soulfire , I take you to the day my life split in two—the day I got the call that my mom was gone. October 22nd started like any other Friday. My husband and I were ironworkers, cut loose from the yard early, rea...