River Shaman Ramblings

It's time to talk about the facts of life, the spirits and bees... let's talk about marrying, getting tangled up with, and falling in love. With spirits. This episode covers what many are taking for granted as a love and light situation, where you end up with the godly spouse of your dreams. But the truth is, this ancient tradition isn't all it seems and you should beware. I know. I've been dealin...

Walking the traditional shamanistic path created a bit of a conflict for me: Wodan, Frigg, and others aren't in that lore. Or are they? How to reconcile walking a path that does not venerate the spirits that called me to it? By going back to the beginning of course. So welcome back to the campfire! This episode is me trying to outline how I came to a reconciliation on how to walk one path while no...

Okay, the wyrm did go away I'll give it that. I shouldn't be surprised where it might have gone, but I was... and that prompted me to think about animism, the corruption of the concept, and then ultimately I started to think about those sexy angels. Take a trip with me from hell to heaven and how science backs it all up.

In this episode, Spearcarrier opens up about a tumultuous return to—and swift departure from—a commercial shaman school. After feeling "poked off the dragonfly branch" and losing connection to the spirits, a moment of intervention from the spirit world itself turns everything around. We explore the differences between the expensive, "cookie-cutter" Western shamanic training and the more traditiona...

Do you remember what a wyrm is? I remember. I know. For years, I was trapped between two worlds: the fabricated identity my mother pushed on our family and the deep, wyrd magic that was my true inheritance. In this episode, I'm adding to the whole story as I've told it so far. It's a tale of growing up with unseen gifts, of a father who could chase away dragons, and of a Great Wyrm who found me th...

Spearcarrier here—computer fan screamin’, space-heater roastin’ my toes, pizza waitin’ in the wings. Complete with swear words. In this one I sit down with Many Cats and chew over: • the Tale of the Moldy Ham Sandwich (yes, it’s still in the fridge) • how a real-deal fairy ring sucked me into an eight-hour daily dance marathon • “Fairy Hitler” and his soul-siphonin’, gem-bedazzled cicada self • hi...

I wanted to share what I've learned the hard way about identifying and protecting ourselves from parasitic entities, specifically goblins. Oh yes, I learned the hard way that they're very real. We'll go over red flags and discuss how these beings operate. I'll share those traditional protection charms, along with their history and translations. This is really just me sharing my research and experi...

They say the gods are so harsh to those they call, they could be considered abusive. The result is an underlying acceptance that suffering is some sort of penance you pay for the honor of being chosen. Those who must endure the negativity are often shunted aside when they complain about how they're being treated. But there are times the complaints are valid. The complacency over certain forms of o...

In this reflection, I explore the profound connection between the falling rain and the often-overlooked necessity of grief. We live in a world that encourages us to fight against what we perceive as negative, but what if these forces have a rightful place in the natural order? I share a personal experience with a "sorrow drinker," a spirit I came to understand not as an adversary, but as a teacher...

When the Shamanic Death Cycle Finally Ends In this episode, I’m finally unpacking the conclusion to my wild shamanic awakening journey—what I’ve been calling the “saga of the ham sandwich.” It all kicked off with a harrowing “fairy bride” experience that threw me into a living nightmare. For months, I was chewed upon by psychic parasites and attacked by hostile covens who hijacked my spiritual pro...

Warning: this episode contains sensitive topics. In this episode, I’m picking up where I left off in the saga of my shamanic journey, a deeply personal story of being a “walker between worlds.” This journey has been one of immense pain, centered around the separation from my “split soul”—the other half of my being. I recount how a deceptive, bug-like fairy entity wooed my other half, leading to a...

Welcome back to the River Shaman Ramblings. This week, we continue the “Saga of the Ham Sandwich” with a tale of astral projection, imprisonment, and a desperate bid for freedom. I found my other half, a fairy being, trapped in a new, sterile room by her abusive mate. Her wing, a symbol of our connection, had been brutally tattered, leaving her a prisoner unable to even see her own children. The s...

In this third installment of River Shaman Ramblings, I pick up the “Ham Sandwich Saga” right where the last episode left off—mid-freefall after the equinox chaos. We revisit the moment my other-half’s insect-wing was sliced, severing her cosmic connection and triggering a cascade of heartbreak, astral misfires, and frantic rescue attempts. I recount crashing through Maingloth’s window, begging nin...

Ever wonder why no one shares what happens when they world-walk or take vision quests? Because it sounds crazy to the average person out-loud. Well, that’s what this episode and the others are about: One helluva crazy ride down astral lane. In this episode, I fill you in on how a routine night of working on my comics and dancing to my AI-made filk track “Botany Prince” turns into a wild spring-equ...

This story is the start of something awful, but I didn’t know it. It would be years before the next part of this story happens. I wasn’t going to share, but the fact is if you’re not ready to hear fantastical things while dealing with the wyrd and supernatural then you’re not ready for the wyrd and supernatural.

You fall in love with the spirit you're working with. What next? He dumps you. Music credit: Little Bird - Atlatl

Today's issue is not necessarily political, but culture. I will not put my world in danger to share my thoughts on what it is to try to follow two cultural roads: the red road... and the other you might be. Delicate topic. I've been pondering it a very long time. Maybe you can change my mind, but I'm not wanting to debate though. Show me by actions.

Today's topic touches on Mongolian Shamanism and how I experienced being long dead... and was cared for by a spry shaman's apprentice,.

A few years ago people tried to destroy my marriage, my home,my happiness and finally my life - through petty magic. The result? Another personal story that culminated into learning something new. Through this event I saw the nasty side of our healthcare system. Peeked through the veil. Witnessed Egyptian gods. It was epic. Not fun. But epic. Warning: I use curse words. Oh. Noes.

Now that the 2024 election is over, the meltdown that many on the right have been waiting for (with baited breath) has begun. They see it as a source of amusement. I think it's a symptom of a problem we need to face. I might also talk about talking to trees.

I share a dream vision my spirit "guide" (friend) gave me a couple of years ago - a past life experience.

Betrayal. Anger. Balancing emotions. Things like that.

For my first trick I'll talk a lot of bs about myself.