Reflections of The Father’s Heart

You're a walking miracle. But if you're always focused on the next thing you don't have, you're going to miss it. In this episode, Sandi shares what the Lord put on her heart through a simple phone call — and why learning to celebrate your victories isn't spiritual bypassing or toxic positivity. It's one of the most important faith practices you can build. Because here's the truth: if you don't le...

You matter more than you know. In this episode, Sandi Derby shares a handful of ordinary moments — a Lyft driver running on almost no sleep, an unexpected call from a grieving widow, a little girl's heartbreaking question at recess — that each circle back to the same quiet truth about your worth. If you've ever felt like you don't count, or like your value depends on what you do or what's been don...

"I will never forgive my parents." That's what Sandi said to the woman who first told her she needed to. It took twenty years to learn that almost everything she'd been taught about forgiveness was wrong. In this episode, Sandi Derby unpacks what forgiveness actually means for anyone carrying deep wounds — abuse, betrayal, family pain, religious harm. Forgiveness is not letting someone off the hoo...

For the first time in my life, I couldn't pay my mortgage. I sat at my kitchen table in tears, thinking I was about to lose my home — and then God asked me a question that broke a 55-year stronghold I didn't even know was there. Episode 100 is the full testimony. It's also a teaching on something I've been learning the hard way: in God's economy, promotion often looks like things being stripped aw...

In this episode of the Reflections of the Father's Heart podcast, Seth Dahl and Sandi Derby explore the importance of self-reflection and emotional connection in the face of personal trauma and grief. Sandi shares her recent experiences with loss and the impact it has had on her life, emphasizing the need to take time for oneself to process emotions and heal. They discuss the significance of recog...

In this podcast, Sandi Derby explores the often-overlooked connection between transitions and grief. She emphasizes that change, whether positive or negative, can evoke feelings of loss and sadness, and that acknowledging these emotions is crucial for personal growth and emotional health. Drawing on biblical examples, Sandi illustrates how figures like Joseph and David navigated their own transiti...

In this episode, Sandi Derby emphasizes the importance of trusting God during uncertain times. She shares personal experiences and insights on how preparation, rather than punishment, is often the divine intention behind challenging seasons. Sandi encourages listeners to embrace their journey of faith, overcome past fears, and fully surrender to God's will. The conversation highlights the need for...

In this conversation, Sandi Derby and Seth Dahl explore the profound themes of repentance, confession, and the underlying roots of sin. They discuss the common misconceptions surrounding repentance, emphasizing that true repentance involves addressing the root causes of behaviors rather than merely confessing actions. The dialogue delves into the impact of intimacy, fear of rejection, and self-hat...

What if the season you’re struggling through right now… isn’t punishment—but preparation? In this powerful and deeply personal episode, Sandi shares what it looks like to step forward when you don’t feel ready, when clarity is missing, and when life feels tight, uncertain, or even backwards. If you’ve been asking: “Am I doing something wrong?” “Why does it feel like nothing is working?” “Where is...

In this episode, Sandi Derby explores the themes of self-reliance, the importance of receiving, and the necessity of community in our spiritual journeys. She shares her personal experiences of transitioning through difficult seasons, emphasizing that true growth comes from learning to depend on God and others rather than solely on ourselves. Sandi discusses the challenges of receiving help and the...

To join the free workshop on March 17: https://us02web.zoom.us/meeting/register/lal1QNCzQ2mmF5hiVu6XRA In this conversation, Sandi Derby and Seth Dahl discuss the current exposure of darkness within the church and the world, particularly in light of the Epstein files. They emphasize the importance of the church's response to these revelations, calling for righteousness and unity among believers. T...

In this conversation, Sandi Derby explores the journey of faith, emphasizing the importance of walking by faith rather than sight. She discusses the challenges of maintaining faith during difficult seasons, the necessity of wrestling with God for deeper understanding, and the significance of shedding false identities. Sandi also highlights the power of testimonies in building faith and encourages...

In this conversation, Sandi Derby discusses the infiltration of Satanism within the church, sharing her personal journey and experiences with spiritual abuse. She emphasizes the importance of discernment, accountability in leadership, and the need for truth and transparency in church communities. Sandi highlights the consequences of manipulation and abuse, urging listeners to seek healing and rest...

Want to register for next week's meeting on 2/18: Free registration is here: https://us02web.zoom.us/meeting/register/gien587SSEuegZs3deoU5A In this episode, Sandi Derby and Seth Dahl explore the profound grief experienced within the church community due to recent events. They discuss the importance of acknowledging and addressing grief, the impact of loss on faith, and the necessity of healing to...

In this podcast episode, Sandi Derby and Seth Dahl discuss the recent controversies surrounding Shawn Bolz, a prominent figure in the Charismatic Movement. They explore the implications of his actions, the impact on victims, and the role of church leadership in addressing such issues. Seth shares his personal experiences and feelings about the situation, emphasizing the need for accountability, he...

In this conversation, Sandi Derby and Seth Dahl explore the complexities of healing from church hurt and spiritual abuse. They discuss the differences between spiritual abuse and church hurt, emphasizing the importance of healing to differentiate between difficult and destructive experiences. Through personal stories and insights, they highlight the role of the Holy Spirit in the healing process,...

In this episode of "Reflections of the Father's Heart," hosts Sandi Derby and Seth Dahl delve into the sensitive topic of church hurt, exploring the emotional and spiritual ramifications of experiences within church communities. They discuss how both congregants and pastors can be affected by misunderstandings and miscommunications, leading to deep emotional wounds. Sandi shares her personal journ...

In this conversation, Sandi Derby and Seth Dahl explore the often-overlooked connection between emotional health and physical well-being, particularly in the context of New Year's resolutions and weight loss. They discuss the importance of addressing the root causes of unhealthy behaviors, the power of redemption and renewal through faith, and the necessity of emotional processing for overall heal...

In this episode, Sandi Derby and Seth Dahl explore the inspiring story of Whiskey the Bird, who was abandoned and rescued, drawing parallels between his journey and the human experience of overcoming victimhood and finding identity. They discuss the importance of healing, the power of naming, and the significance of finding supportive communities. Through prayer and personal anecdotes, they encour...

In this episode, Sandi Derby and Seth Dahl discuss the emotional complexities that arise during the holiday season, particularly focusing on grief, joy, and the importance of being honest about one's feelings. They explore how unresolved pain can manifest during this time and emphasize the need for community support and healthy boundaries. The conversation highlights the significance of mourning a...

In this conversation, Sandi Derby explores the themes of freedom, bondage, and the power of words. She discusses the importance of understanding forgiveness, self-care, and the role of the enemy in our lives. Through biblical references, particularly from Exodus, she emphasizes the journey of coming out of bondage and the pressures that can arise when seeking freedom. Sandi encourages listeners to...

In this podcast episode, Sandi Derby and Seth Dahl explore the themes of shame, identity, and emotional healing through the lens of the Marvel movie 'The Thunderbolts.' They discuss the importance of understanding the Father's heart, the impact of childhood trauma, and the necessity of community support in overcoming shame. The conversation emphasizes that witnessing and connection are crucial for...

In this conversation, Sandi Derby shares her experiences with rescue animals as a metaphor for authenticity and self-discovery. She emphasizes the importance of embracing one's true self, drawing on biblical examples, particularly King David, to illustrate the journey of understanding identity in Christ. Sandi discusses the challenges of breaking free from societal and familial systems that hinder...

In this deeply personal podcast, Sandi Derby shares her journey of healing and self-discovery after a tumultuous relationship that was marred by past trauma and toxic patterns. She reflects on her struggles with purity, boundaries, and the impact of her past experiences on her present relationships. Sandi recounts the challenges she faced, including stalking and legal battles, ultimately leading t...

In this podcast episode, Sandi Derby and Seth Dahl discuss the importance of emotional wellness and introduce their Emotional Wellness Assessment. They explore how emotions can accumulate over time, likening them to pebbles in a backpack, and emphasize the need to address emotional health for overall well-being. The conversation highlights the connection between emotional and physical health, the...