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The God I Thought I Knew What if the story you’ve believed about God isn’t the story He has been trying to tell you all along? For years, I believed God’s love depended on my performance. I quietly carried the fear that one mistake could cost me everything—that belonging had to be earned, grace had limits, and if I failed badly enough, I would no longer be welcome. I didn’t realize that the story...

The Apology That Never Came There are some wounds that never receive an apology. Some people never acknowledge the pain they caused. They never accept responsibility. They simply move on, while we are left carrying the weight of what happened. In this deeply personal episode of P.I.P.E. Podcast, Ann Mayfield shares her journey through childhood sexual abuse, betrayal, depression, and the long road...

🎙️ Podbean Description Maybe I Was Never the Problem What if the story you’ve believed about yourself isn’t actually true? For years, I believed my biggest struggle was rejection. Every disagreement felt like abandonment. Every misunderstanding felt like proof that I was the problem. But this week, one ordinary moment on a golf course led me to a realization that changed everything. I wasn’t respo...

Fear doesn’t always look like panic. Sometimes it looks like settling. Sometimes it looks like staying where it’s familiar because you’re afraid of what’s on the other side. In this deeply personal episode of P.I.P.E. Podcast, Ann Mayfield shares the story of how fear quietly shaped many of her life’s decisions—and how God patiently transformed that fear into faith. Ann opens up about the fear of...

Generational pain isn’t just carried through what happens to us. Sometimes it’s carried through the things we never talk about. The secrets. The silence. The shame. The things we convince ourselves we’ll take to the grave. In this deeply personal episode of P.I.P.E. Podcast, Kezia reflects on a week that forced her to see a pattern she couldn’t ignore. Through conversations with her children, refl...

Episode 9: Protecting Your Peace Peace isn’t something you find when life becomes perfect. Peace is something you choose to protect. In this episode of P.I.P.E. Podcast, Ann Mayfield shares what she’s learned about protecting her peace while navigating healing, relationships, personal growth, and everyday challenges. Through honest reflection and practical wisdom, Ann discusses how worry, people-p...

Disappointment has a way of changing us. Not all at once, but slowly over time. It teaches us to hesitate before we hope, protect ourselves from excitement, and prepare for things to go wrong before they ever do. What starts as a way to avoid pain can eventually become a way of living. In this deeply personal episode, Kezia shares her journey through disappointment, unanswered questions, motherhoo...

You Can’t Keep Everyone Happy and Heal at the Same Time   Healing changes you.   And sometimes that’s exactly what makes people uncomfortable.   In this episode of P.I.P.E. Podcast, Ann Mayfield shares one of the hardest lessons she’s learned on her healing journey: you cannot keep everyone happy and heal at the same time.   Through personal reflection and hard-earned wisdom, Ann opens up about le...

In this deeply personal episode of P.I.P.E. Podcast, Kezia reflects on a recent women’s retreat that challenged her in unexpected ways.   Through letter-writing, honest self-reflection, and time away from the noise of everyday life, she began uncovering the identities, labels, and survival strategies she had carried for years. What started as a retreat became a journey back to the version of herse...

Episode 7: The Day I Stopped Giving Up On Myself   There comes a moment when you realize you can no longer keep living the way you have been.   In this episode, Ann shares the turning point that changed her life forever. After years of struggling with health challenges, depression, negative thinking, and the weight of past wounds, she made a decision: she would stop giving up on herself.   Ann ope...

this episode of the P.I.P.E. Podcast, we explore what happens when the body remembers long after the mind believes it has moved on.   Many of us learn how to survive difficult seasons. We learn how to push through pain, carry responsibilities, and keep moving forward. But what happens when survival mode becomes normal? What happens when peace feels unfamiliar?   In this conversation, Kezia shares...

What happens when we begin to question the things we were taught to believe were normal?   In this episode of the P.I.P.E. Podcast, Ann Mayfield shares an honest conversation about the generational patterns she inherited, the lessons she carried into adulthood, and the behaviors she unknowingly passed down to her own children.   Raised to stay quiet, obey without question, and push through pain wi...

Tonight’s episode is a deeply personal conversation about survival mode, emotional pain, identity, and healing.   There were seasons where pain slowly became the lens I saw everything through. Not intentionally. Not all at once. But quietly over time.   In this episode, I talk honestly about what happens when survival becomes normal, when peace feels unfamiliar, and how healing sometimes begins wi...

In this episode of P.I.P.E. Podcast, Ann Mayfield shares what it means to truly live again after years of surviving in silence.   From childhood trauma and losing her voice… to healing, faith, identity, and learning how to finally choose herself, this episode is an honest conversation about removing the mask so many people wear just to make it through life.   Sometimes survival becomes so normal,...

In Episode 4 of the P.I.P.E. Podcast, Kezia Mayfield talks about what happens when peace starts to feel unsafe, and why healing can feel uncomfortable before it feels freeing.   Sometimes survival becomes so familiar that calm feels foreign. This episode explores emotional patterns, healing, self-awareness, faith, survival mode, and learning how to live differently after chaos. P.I.P.E. (Plug Into...

For years, survival taught me how to hide my pain behind strength, performance, and protection.   But eventually, I realized the mask I wore to survive was also keeping me from fully being myself.   In this episode of P.I.P.E. Podcast, I share the emotional journey of reconnecting with who I was underneath survival mode — and what healing looked like once I stopped pretending I was okay.   If you’...

In this episode of P.I.P.E. (Plug Into Positive Energy), Kezia talks honestly about shame, survival mode, emotional hiding, anxiety, accountability, and what happens when pain changes the way you see yourself.   “The Version of Me That Stayed Quiet” explores the emotional exhaustion of trying to survive while silently falling apart — from disappearing from relationships to struggling with peace, r...

Real stories. Real healing. Real hope.   P.I.P.E. — Plug Into Positive Energy — is a podcast about restoration, resilience, faith, relationships, motherhood, grief, survival, and the process of rebuilding your life when things fall apart.   Hosted through Crowns Restored, the podcast creates space for honest conversations that are raw, thoughtful, and deeply human. Some episodes are personal refle...

This first episode is the beginning of P.I.P.E. Podcast, owned by Crowns Restored. It is honest, imperfect, and real. A conversation about restoration, grief, starting over, and choosing to plug into what gives life.

Real conversations about what you carry, what you tolerate, and what it actually takes to come back to yourself.   Full Episodes Coming Soon