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wow i haven't felt this invigorated by an episode in a long time! working through some of the pain in my head right now, helping me understand the bigger picture of trying to reconfigure my sense of home in myself, which is wonderfully, chaotically, reflected in my physical reality. i hope you can relate <3

more gorgeous messages from spirit! and i am so sorry this episode is late, my family was visiting from across the world so i was a bit busy

another poem i titled change to start this episode out! wow almost like i am a scorpio who constantly is putting herself in new situations to see how they can teach me and help me grow. also remember that change and death are conjoined twins and the more comfortable you can get with one the more comfortable you can get with the other. PHEW guess i need to record some more audio because it feels li...

this is some audio from last year in december and it was really refreshing to hear where i was mentally and emotionally at that point in time, and reflect where i am now. the overall message is trust yourself and you cannot go wrong. its your life baby, theres nothing you can do wrong if its true to you.

i really liked this one. really needed these messages

woweeeewowza i am so excited about this!! it was so so nice to have a focus and a direction with this episode and to have it feel more like a conversation with you guys, my people. the questions are as follows: is cereal a soup? where are you going? what is the purpose of life? is traveling expensive? are you lonely? what is a soul? advice for 26 year olds reflections on saturn return also apologi...

were back on the pacific for this one, reflecting on how the time away from society has helped fortify my sense of self. i do miss the sound of the ocean out here in the desert

WELCOME TO SEASON TWO how exciting!!! we made it through the first season! not a lot of podcasts do apparently, but i am a yapper so it makes sense how we got here. this episode is absolutely beautiful wonderful i love it so much. i asked some of my friends two questions and i put them all into this amazing episode. brought to you by the people who help me be me. i hope you enjoy it! and its so go...

this guy is all about getting to know ourselves better, trusting our intuition (which is really like trusting god/universe/spirit (i just like saying god bc i think it’s kind of funny)). and also realizing the stories we tell ourselves and that we can change them

hello hello hello! more messages from spirit here! i am out of cell coverage and away from electricity, so i am sending all the good nature vibes here. so so much love to you all

part two of the last episode: really unpacking all the ways i've tried to avoid myself and taking responsibility for my life. and also diving into saturn return and where consciousness comes from

PHEW this one is unpacking some deep shit - but also it really only feels like deep shit because its old?? like, its under so many layers, we haven't had to look at this in a long time?? but also how funny that everything starts to rotate around these things we won't look at? something about burying things deep, bringing them closer to the center of gravity. to you. there's more pressu...

in here are some words that have gotten me through to today. Andrea Gibson (8/13/75 - 7/14/25)

WOW i forgot how hard transformation can be. was feeling like everything in my life was crumbling (because it was). found the poem, now that i am also on the other side, and it reminded me that the falling apart is also a falling together of everything you didn't even see coming. talk of suicidality, so if you are sensitive to this just be aware.

some messages from spirit that have helped me get through a very dark 6 weeks. i hope they can give you some solace while i am away at sea.

this one is a bit more reality based and less idealogical, although obviously i am still the symbol-obsessed, on-a-mission-to-understand, self. who are we outside and inside our dearest relationships? how do we show up in them? how do we move with them in times of deep change.

oh BOY this one feels like responsibility. but more in the way you're like FINALLY! let go baby, just be yourself please. were all begging for it

another trance speaking episode! some more wisdom from spirit to share! and some life updates from the road. i really liked the wisdom from spirit this time, probably a bunch of stuff they were like "abbott's gotta work on this shit" lmao

been thinking about this one for a WHILE. feels really good to finally get it out there. this one gets all into the analyzation of passion and patience and how they are actually in romance or in relation to trust and fueling your life. also getting into why i think confidence isn't really the right word, isn't the right feeling to pursue if you actually want to feel that way. (that sounds...

oh my GAH this is a good one. i didn't really like it at first but it felt like there was something there so i kept pushing and then who knows where the time went. talking about quitting smoking cigarettes, what brought me there, what held me up along the way, and how it all comes back to the power of choice. a lot more giggles with the extra time as well, because life is seriously absurd and...

this one is a little different. i thought it might be interesting to y’all, i know i would be! someone PLEASE let me know what they thought in the comments, i'm very curious

wowowow unpacking some DEEP stuff that i didn't even know i was really struggling with. mentions of suicidality, for anyone that is particularly sensitive to that, beware. discussing fundamentalism culture, and how some of the practices that aren't unique to it could be effecting us now. please, be gentle with yourself, especially in these times of change. discipline isn't being mean t...

this episode gets all into letting go and transformation, but in the more physical reality sense, rather than internal. its funny that so much internal shifts had to happen before the external could follow (although isn't that always the way). its a very phone call with a friend vibe, not as much as the usual metaphysical monologue. but in effect a lot more giggles. i hope you enjoy :) a funct...

a lot a lot of laughs in this one, relishing in the ridiculousness of existence. covering everything from disordered eating to disordered attachment styles, it might also surprise you how they are related. some technical difficulties and some intense reality changes delayed this whole episodes process, but just like university i am getting her out before the midnight deadline! much love to yall al...

some present life commentary, struggles in bike seats. really getting into what it means to create your own structure, ways i have avoided it in the past. building a foundation for a life that fulfills me more. being honest about all the ways i've held myself back before. and the way we all have our own way.