Pay It Forward Radio

This was inspired by a conversation I had with a brother, and taking a look at the new success in my life, and how deeply unprepared I feel for it, and by a mentor and friend's passage out of his book, Choose Her Everyday (Or Leave Her). Men need consistent, trustworthy praise from other, wiser men. this is a void that can't be filled by anything, and when it isn't filled, we get wh...

Warning: a few swears.  Recorded this live to an audience on a Discord community I participate in, was inspired by @hotdamnirock and his journey of authenticity. I talk about the deep pain of being let down by older mentors, work and healing from newer people I have met, and the need for integrity and being real. Im back yall.   Link to Zu's Tribe Discord: https://discord.gg/JKr3DRGF My Praye...

My Experience with Bryan Reeves of Bryan Reeves Insight at Elevate 2021. it was a whole week of firsts. There will be a part 2 of this where i interview him on his experience with this. Look forward to the Video Podcast soon to come. Follow Bryan @bryanreevesinsight Support the show (http://cashapp.com/bwade061490) Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

SO this one went in a direction that i didn't quite plan. midway through i pivoted, and started talking about what was really on my heart - the value of keeping promises to me and what that means. There are a lot of christian allusions so for anyone that this may not be your cup of tea i feel you.  Thanks for walking with me on my journey yall.  Support the show (http://cashapp.com/bwade06149...

Normally i just share experiences that others may relate to. I want connection and the only way i can truly get it is to be honest with myself. this was a really uncomfortable story to tell, but it's mine.  Support the show (http://cashapp.com/bwade061490) Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

had a convo with a friend that sparked this conversation. really just exploring what it means for me to be a man and what masculinity actually means in this world.  People that i look to that have mentored me directly or indirectly, emotionally or spiritually, thank you guys so much. Bryan Reeves @Bryanreevesinsight Steve Wood @itsstevewood Silvy Khoucasian @silvykhoucasian Nzinga Moore @iamnzinga...

Reconnecting with myself has been a struggle, especially as i've had some new experiences that have been cool. One thing that's been healing to me is to keep small promises to myself,. this is one of them. My Spiritual Community: http://realprayermovement.org Support the show (http://cashapp.com/bwade061490) Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

To kick off Season 4: A Recap of my journey so far with Pay It Forward - where it is now, and where it's going next, and the latest thing ive been working on: silencing the external voices and listening to the still, small voice.  Shoutouts to: Steve Wood @itsstevewood Nzinga Moore @iamnzingamoore Christina Barsi @thebarsi Sonn Eidem @twostepsaheadpodcast Bryan Reeves @bryanreevesinsight Our...

In this last (or possibly second to last episode) of the year and last episode of the season I've been letting myself feel some things that were unsafe for me to feel before my dad died. one of them has been disappointment. it's sucked, ima be honest. its not a feeling I'm too comfortable with. and maybe that's okay too.   I put a few tips in for anyone who's feeling like...

Election week has felt very intense. lately I have been feeling stress, overwhelm, anxiousness, excitement, contentment, fear, and a few other things. Lately, I have also felt numb to those feelings. And that's OK.  This is my exploration of survival mode, what feeling our feelings actually does,  and how allowing ourselves to feel, is one step closer to allowing ourselves to BE. and in doing...

A Emotionally inspiring and challenging month, this is my growth and experience in letting God be God and what being authentic means to me and my faith in the next stage of my life Streaming on Radiowarp.com Monday/Wed From 12PM-1PM - Tue/Thursday 5PM -6PM PST Real Prayer Movement - Non Religious Prayer Line I am involved in - https://us04web.zoom.us/j/79534717147?pwd=MnpJMW1hWWtXd29zOWdpdTdPZ0QyU...

My experience with my Prayer Group, Real Prayer Movement, at the BLM Los Angeles Protest, and what it was like meeting some cops right after and praying with them, and realizing i hadn't felt really deeply in a while. My experience this last few weeks with the reality of trauma and emotional addiction, learning how to feel again, and making the choice to allow my feelings to flow, and accepti...

Been feeling numb and with some inspiration from @bryanreevesinsight...realized I gotta open up more to myself. feels like rambling maybe it’s finding the way home. follow my journey @payitforwardradio Support the show (http://cashapp.com/bwade061490) Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

When a caterpillar becomes a butterfly, it passes through a period of being sludge. Nobody told me what it was gonna be like to change My whole equilibrium is changing and it's disorienting, and here I am. You're not alone. Follow me @payitforwardradio Streaming Live on Eidem Rocks Radio  Support the show (http://cashapp.com/bwade061490) Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more in...

Looks like the most important thing I can bring to the table is me. as I am, because even when it doesn't seem or feel like it, right where I am is right where I need to be. this felt really good. My testimony of my time at Pasadena City College, and where I'm at at 30 and other life stuff. Follow me @Payitforwardradio Streaming Live Exclusively on Eidem Rocks Radio  www.elasticplayer.xy...

A interview segment with a good friend of mine, Christina Barsi of Be Bold Begin Podcast and Avant Haus Media - we talk often about being real, present, and feelings, and authenticity, and she asked me to be on her show. I talk about my personal story and testimony, and I touch upon what it means to be a black man in a changing landscape. this is one of our conversations.  Thanks so much Christina...

I woke up this morning with this message in my heart and spirit: LET GO. not letting go of negative feelings, but letting go of the part of me that does not believe it is safe to be. letting go of the part of me that fears feeling as a weakness. A dive into masculine and feminine energy and faith. This is a permission slip: We have permission to be. We have permission to let go. we have permission...

I'm still grieving my father figures, and figuring out how to be present.  trying something new here.  Streaming live on Eidem Rocks Radio (Link in Bio) Instagram @payitforwardradio Support the show (http://cashapp.com/bwade061490) Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

on June 18, I found out my spiritual father and mentor died. a lot of life is coming out of this, but this really hurts. I meant to talk about something else, but I promised that I would be real to you guys.  this is my testimony. for anyone that doesn't feel like they have a father anymore, I see you. I love you. Pops, I love you and I miss you.  @payitforwardradio Support the show (http://c...

This is a new beginning for me, but the heart is the same. Follow @Payitforwardradio Streaming on @eidemrocks  Support the show (http://cashapp.com/bwade061490) Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

R.I.P George Floyd, Ahmaud Aubrey, and so many more of us that are in my subconscious that I can't even process. I love y'all. Welcome back to pay it forward. let's get real. Instagram @payitforwardradio Find me on Apple Music, Spotify, IHeartRadio, and many more. Support the show (http://cashapp.com/bwade061490) Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

A powerful discussion about the value of being in heart.  (Featuring Bryan Reeves of Men, This Way) I needed this one. Follow me @payitforwardradio Follow Bryan @bryanreevesinsight Support the show (http://cashapp.com/bwade061490) Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

A Respectful conversation and encouragement that our hearts and bodies need love, and that if you are grieving, you are not alone. Follow Me @Payitforwardradio Support the show (http://cashapp.com/bwade061490) Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.

A Heart to Heart talk from me to you, about my personal gains and victories over my struggles with sleep, rest, and being authentic. Some Practical tips on Laughing, Faith, and how to relax and just live.  Follow Me @payitforwardradio Support the show (http://cashapp.com/bwade061490) Hosted on Acast. See acast.com/privacy for more information.