Ella

Out of Order with Ella | Not Just a Grief Podcast

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Out of order loss is the kind that does not follow life's expected timeline. I'm Ella, and I lost my brother and boyfriend when I was 22 years old. On Out of Order with Ella, I blend everyday life updates with raw reflection, highlighting how grief is in everything I do, but not all that I am. This show displays how hard topics like grief, trauma, and loss can coexist in everyday conversations without stopping them. I hope it feels like a catch-up call with a friend and a good therapy session all in one—because the there is no grief without light and love. talk to you Monday!

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Ella

Episodes

8 - you are not exempt from grief 05.08.2025 23:21

attention! this message is for everyone yes, you too. + welcome August, World Juniors, & end of clinical year ____ special person shoutout https://form.jotform.com/251697033824057?fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAacNuiAT5n4ty04joCsXkYYbwOOvWH-SuyRJAl21MFhdLC5TO6ggFHl7Iz16Lg_aem_9E4yfHChn3deJwRXgtjyAA __ ask me anything https://form.jotform.com/251698198762071?fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAaeJ0qTN3qk9lUFEj4...

7 - four years without them 29.07.2025 30:00

what actually goes down during support group meetings & raw feelings and reflections from 4th death anniversaries of Mack and Sam ____ special person shoutout https://form.jotform.com/251697033824057?fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAacNuiAT5n4ty04joCsXkYYbwOOvWH-SuyRJAl21MFhdLC5TO6ggFHl7Iz16Lg_aem_9E4yfHChn3deJwRXgtjyAA __ ask me anything https://form.jotform.com/251698198762071?fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW...

6 - holding space for grief 21.07.2025 31:42

onward and upward in pediatrics, graduating SO SOON, applying to jobs, internet hate, and a personal check in leading up to the 4 year anniversary of losing Mack and Sam __ special person shoutout https://form.jotform.com/251697033824057?fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAacNuiAT5n4ty04joCsXkYYbwOOvWH-SuyRJAl21MFhdLC5TO6ggFHl7Iz16Lg_aem_9E4yfHChn3deJwRXgtjyAA __ ask me anything https://form.jotform.com/251...

5 - ask them this not that 15.07.2025 24:38

starting my pediatrics rotation, new JB, and asking "how's today?" instead __ special person shoutout https://form.jotform.com/251697033824057?fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAacNuiAT5n4ty04joCsXkYYbwOOvWH-SuyRJAl21MFhdLC5TO6ggFHl7Iz16Lg_aem_9E4yfHChn3deJwRXgtjyAA __ ask me anything https://form.jotform.com/251698198762071?fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAaeJ0qTN3qk9lUFEj4M7xp9MX9HaBYLoddDKlDbFUJg...

4 - 10ish ways i helped my mind and body after trauma 10.07.2025 28:05

4th of July recap with a trip down memory lane, getting back in the workout groove, and 10ish tips that ACTUALLY helped me in the first days, weeks, and months after losing Mack and Sam that I still do to this day __ check out Rêve https://www.revestudios.co/ __ special person shoutout https://form.jotform.com/251697033824057?fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAacNuiAT5n4ty04joCsXkYYbwOOvWH-SuyRJAl21MFhdLC5...

3 - how to be there for people in grief 30.06.2025 27:53

on to rotation 9 of 9, Beau's 21st birthday recap, how to actually be there for your people in grief, and out first special person shoutout - Dylan also, check out Kaylyn Sahs - https://open.spotify.com/artist/7Muz7D0pEhoHGuosDjbSgK?si=uGQHVIVRSCSTK0BKOGvVKQ __ special person shoutout https://form.jotform.com/251697033824057?fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAacNuiAT5n4ty04joCsXkYYbwOOvWH-SuyRJAl21MFhd...

2 - you can still do hard things 23.06.2025 23:16

weekly update + 3 things that have allowed me to do hard things while grieving Check out Minnesofa! https://minnesofafurniture.com/?srsltid=AfmBOopegFAlI1rG6-5rKxB7v5uxbl4qurSmcaFIzCwfzBVtJxScNyau Article referenced: https://journals.plos.org/plosone/article?id=10.1371/journal.pone.0322416#sec030 __ special person shoutout https://form.jotform.com/251697033824057?fbclid=PAZXh0bgNhZW0CMTEAAacNuiAT5...

1 - what is out of order? 19.06.2025 18:17

episode 1! hi, I'm Ella. I'm 26 and live in Minnesota, and I lost some really important people far too young. my life has turned upside down over and over and over again since that day. each day since brings new challenges, AND newfound joy. I'm not the only one walking through grief, so I'm here to share my healing journey, and maybe create community along the way. whether it'...