night night bitch: esoteric stories for sleep and meditation

I haven’t posted on this feed since April 2025. In that time, I became a mother. And I went underground to build something. For years, I told you stories to help you sleep. But I realized I wanted to build a tool that would help you wake up—not to the world, but to yourself. This is the evolution of this podcast. I didn't leave; I was building a sanctuary. It is called MOODS. The waitlist opens to...

There’s a reason the story of Cinderella lingers in our bones. Beneath the soot, the glass slipper, and the pumpkin-turned-chariot lies an ancient memory. A memory of the soul’s exile, longing, and return. Tonight, we’re not reading a children’s fairy tale. We’re whispering open a door to the sacred. Anne Baring’s breathtaking interpretation reveals Cinderella as an echo of lost goddess traditions...

In this deeply nurturing guided meditation, I invite you on a transformative journey that transcends the mere biological aspects of pregnancy and childbirth. This is a sacred visualization designed to help you tap into the ancient, intuitive knowledge your body holds, empowering you to trust its natural birthing capabilities. This audio journey draws from the esoteric and mythic traditions that vi...

Have you ever wondered about the true magic behind the summer solstice? Join me for a mesmerizing journey into the heart of Litha, also known as Midsummer, as we uncover the profound significance of the longest day of the year. Imagine yourself in a serene summer forest, the gentle rustling of leaves and the melodious songs of birds setting the perfect backdrop for an evening of enchantment and di...

Join me as we delve into a rare and enlightening lecture by the legendary scholar and mystic, Manly P. Hall. In this episode, I will be reading Hall’s 1924 lecture titled 'Fundamental Errors in Modern Occultism (And Their Remedy).' This lecture reveals the stark contrasts Hall observed between the empty promises of modern occult practices and the disciplined wisdom of ancient traditions. As we exp...

In this multi-episode series, we explore the ancient fairy tale "The Handless Maiden," collected by the Brothers Grimm in 1812, through the lens of astrologer and mystic Jessica Davidson's brilliant online essays. The story follows a young woman whose father, in a desperate deal with the devil, sacrifices her hands for wealth and convenience. Her subsequent journey through the forest in search of...

In this multi-episode series, we explore the ancient fairy tale "The Handless Maiden," collected by the Brothers Grimm in 1812, through the lens of astrologer and mystic Jessica Davidson's brilliant online essays. The story follows a young woman whose father, in a desperate deal with the devil, sacrifices her hands for wealth and convenience. Her subsequent journey through the forest in search of...

In this multi-episode series, we explore the ancient fairy tale "The Handless Maiden," collected by the Brothers Grimm in 1812, through the lens of astrologer and mystic Jessica Davidson's brilliant online essays. The story follows a young woman whose father, in a desperate deal with the devil, sacrifices her hands for wealth and convenience. Her subsequent journey through the forest in search of...

In this multi-episode series, we explore the ancient fairy tale "The Handless Maiden," collected by the Brothers Grimm in 1812, through the lens of astrologer and mystic Jessica Davidson's brilliant online essays. The story follows a young woman whose father, in a desperate deal with the devil, sacrifices her hands for wealth and convenience. Her subsequent journey through the forest in search of...

This episode plunges into the depths of the Rennes-le-Château mystery, where Berenger Saunière, a seemingly modest priest, unearthed secrets that could redefine our understanding of history. His discovery, sparked by renovations in a small French church, led to astonishing theories about hidden treasures, the Ark of the Covenant, and the bloodlines of Jesus and Mary Magdalene. As we peel back laye...

In this episode, I invite you on a soothing journey into the essence of your being, where the hidden bindings of self-perception are gently unraveled. As you settle in for this immersive meditative experience, let the calm narration guide you through a reflective exploration of the deep-seated beliefs that often keep us from fully embracing our lives. We'll delve into the concepts of feeling incom...

Join me as together we delve into the profound wisdom of the second tablet from The Emerald Tablets of Thoth, titled "The Halls of Amenti." These ancient texts, attributed to Thoth, the Egyptian deity of wisdom, writing, and magic, serve as a bridge to the divine, offering secrets of alchemy and spiritual knowledge that have intrigued seekers of truth for millennia. Originating from a civilization...

This guided visualization ritual explores the psychological benefits of Rosicrucian affirmations for inner transformation. These affirmations are not mere words but keys to unlocking the latent potential within your psyche, guiding you through a process of spiritual alchemy. By embracing these transformative principles, listeners can embark on a profound journey of self-discovery, shedding the lea...

In this final episode of our American Alchemy series, we explore the term 'The Christian Alchemists' coined by Walter Woodward, encompassing a diverse group of practitioners with varying religious affiliations. A key figure among them was Gershom Bulkeley, an alchemist, pastor, and physician from Massachusetts. Despite his skepticism towards astrology, Bulkeley was deeply involved in Paracelsian m...

In this second episode of our three-part American Alchemy series, the focus shifts to John Winthrop Jr. and the culmination of his alchemical endeavors in New London. Acting as the eyes and ears of the Royal Society of London, Winthrop sought homegrown talent for his alchemical project, becoming a central figure in the American colonies' intellectual landscape. He enlisted the help of local alchem...

In the first part of this three-part series, join me on a fascinating exploration of America's hidden history, delving into the convergence of alchemy, mysticism, and early scientific endeavors that shaped the nation's intellectual landscape. Our journey begins with the surprising influence of Puritan alchemists in the founding of America, unraveling a tapestry woven with extraordinary characters,...

Embark on a mystic journey on crossing the abyss. In this episode, we unravel the profound insights gained from Frater Archer’s deliberate encounter with divinity. Explore the liminal space between creation and divinity, where practitioners are stripped bare, and only the spark of divinity remains. Frater Archer shares three paths—vision, meditation, and ritual—and warns of the consequences of thi...

In this episode, we delve into the captivating life of the venerable mystic, St. Francis of Assisi. Join me on a journey through the opulent streets of medieval Assisi, where a young Francis, born to a wealthy merchant, defied societal norms by choosing a path less traveled. Unravel the mystery of his transformation from a life of privilege to one of profound simplicity and humility. Discover how,...

Get ready to unlock the secrets of a powerful and enigmatic figure: the Black Madonna, a symbol of divine femininity, has captured the imagination of spiritual seekers for centuries. This mysterious and often overlooked aspect of the Divine Mother has roots in various cultures and traditions. The Black Madonna is a sacred and revered image of the Virgin Mary depicted with dark or black skin. Found...

Have you ever wondered about the *real* meaning of Halloween? Unlock the ancient mysteries of Autumn with me as we dive into the cross-cultural celebrations of the Autumnal Equinox, a time of profound transformation, with hidden esoteric teachings that transcend time and tradition. From Greek mythology's Persephone to the Mexican Day of the Dead and Hindu Durga Puja, discover how these rituals ill...

☾ Prepare to dive into the Mystical World of Tarot ☽ // Join me for a journey through the ancient origins of Tarot, as we unveil the secrets hidden within the cards. In this episode, you’ll discover the true essence of Tarot, transcending its roots in medieval Italian card games and diving into the mystical realms of divination and cartomancy.   We'll unravel the rich tapestry of Tarot iconog...

In this captivating episode, we embark on a mystical journey through the rich tapestry of Berber (Amazigh) culture, deep within the heart of North Africa. Join us as we delve into the enchanting world of the Berber people, a community whose ancient belief systems, myths, and legends are as awe-inspiring as the towering Atlas Mountains they call home. Discover the fascinating lore of the Berber cul...

Join me as we delve into the intriguing connection between occultism and the exercise of state power throughout history. Together, we'll explore how occult practices have played a role in shaping the dynamics of governance, from ancient secret societies to modern conspiracy theories. The discussion ranges from the alluring concept of the "magician State" as proposed by scholar Ioan Couliano, to th...

If the paramount project of  W.B. Yeats ’ professional life was the perfection of the art of poetry, it was intertwined with a personal preoccupation, the study and practice of magic—not in any metaphorical sense, but the dedicated pursuit of supernatural powers based upon the ancient traditions of alchemy and necromancy, which began in his youth and persisted to the end of his long life. SEL...

Self-remembering" is an esoteric practice focused on cultivating heightened self-awareness. Practitioners observe their thoughts, emotions, and physical sensations without judgment, fostering mindfulness in the present moment. This technique encourages detachment from ego-driven tendencies and the pursuit of a deeper, authentic self. It serves as a valuable tool on the path to personal awakening a...