My Life In Showbusiness

John Allen brings his finger-wagging internal censor Pal along to try to defeat "what is" by surrendering to it. Yeah right. That's going to fucking happen. Pal tries every trick he knows to get his friend to see that he's lost any resemblance to a real boy and has turned into a bad replica of one. Find out how you too can end up a vassal, mistaking it for love. On sale now — balls at cut-rate pri...

John Allen returns for a return cage match with God hoping that this time he will finally triumph. This fight is to the death and there are no rules. This is heartbreak. Real heartbreak. Not the kind on sitcoms. Nope this is heartbreak without any uplifting moral or any greater meaning other than you fucking lost and you are never going to get back up on your feet. So enjoy it down there on the ca...

John Allen returns to the struggle of  saying yes to what is and losing yet again, this time to love. This is not a story about a breakup. It is an elegy for an open wound. traced through memory, music, obsession and the body itself. The heart break is never ending. The stakes are very high.  This is the grail wound-a land laid waste where  no birds sing- and the only thing that heals it is attent...

John Allen brings his son in as backup in his ongoing argument with what is. My son and I discuss the only relevant questions that really count. How do I get more girls and not get cancelled? Is there an age where it's just too creepy to keep hitting on the babes? Are all men misogynist? My answer to that one really pissed off my girlfriend now my ex-girlfriend. So totally worth it. I thought the...

John Allen is back to face what is. What am I? Suffering is not a glitch. It's a call to pay  attention to what you are having an argument with in reality. With what is.  With God. And guess what?  You will lose every fuckin' time if you go toe to toe with God. LOL Just saying

John Allen makes a deal with "what is". Once again 'what is"  pulls the football away. Dare to be pretentious Ash Wednesday. 6:10 Falling out with the therapist 6:30 Always willing to give it a shot. 8:00 Sin in original Aramaic means to miss the point. 10:00 Lots of cool shit is going on when you pay attention 12:45 I was going to talk about loving 13:30 It's so...That made me laugh. For real...g...

John Allen loses yet again to what is. This time he doesn't even make it to the end of the round. Shakespeare starts Hamlet AFTER the king is dead. That's drama. The reaction. 1:50 Because I have nothing to lose I am free to talk but it's shocking that most people don't have that freedom. 2:30 Freedom of speech is in serious danger. Danger! Danger! Will Robinson 4:50 It's not that they will lose t...

John Allen losing to what is...again. I thought I was the guy making the joke; but it turned out, that I am actually the joke. A dark place Giving up Sir Galahad Guys turning their girlfriends into Mommy We want them around making us a sandwich but not actually... I got a prostate like an Idaho potato but I am still a good stick man- Marlon Brando Last Tango in Paris. The teeter totter Should I bo...

John Allen survives yet another battle with "what is". meditation, questioning,critical thinking, what the fuck is happening now? who am i? who cares? Fuck it LOL

Prospero and what is. All suffering is an argument with what is. Suffering is not a glitch. Allow suffering to be. Investigate. Space. Party down. Repeat. Let your indulgence set me free  

John Allen and what is. 00:09 Deconstruction of musical mirror. Brown Sugar cultural time capsule. 01:45 Don't want that in the mirror. Don't want that in the mirror 02:33 Groundlings demanding a different ending for Hamlet. 4:00 Cinema Verite: Taking a sip of coffee. 06:36 So much for Cinema Verite 07:47 People think Trump is the epitome of an American businessman because he played one on TV. 09:...

John Allen and what is. 00:30 You say you want a revolution 1:55 I like the battle of Stalingrad as much as the next guy 2:22 True confessions. 3:08 My friend Dave 4:00 Another Cassandra moment 4:35 Terrific bang...Yuuch...I didn't like the way I said that. At all 5:05 No no no we are just friends. 5:50 Lets face it Old Guys are not great. 6:30 I'll just dance by myself and look at the floor. 7:00...

John Allen takes on what is. Its a draw. Nah. What is always wins. And of course Amateur Lesbian Porn. 0:50 https://www.amazon.com/Self-Illusion-Social-Creates-Identity/dp/0199988781 2:17 Requiem for the Pandemic 05:58 Amateur Lesbian Porn Revisited 6:50 If ya gotta rub one out for sleep I get it. 8:30 I'm going to be living in a maytag box 9:10 I am not who I think I am. I am not who you think I...

John Allen and what is. Tie goes to the runner. 1:45 Hassle 2:23 We gots no balls... no offence to eunuchs 3:20 Eclectic guy 3:45 Rioting is kind of a gas 4:20 Putting porn in all the titles. 4:50 lesbian porn 5:24 I've gotten awful Zen. I hit a three wood off the carpet. 6:30 Elephant in the room 9:23 Empathy is an act of imagination 10:30 The don't know place 11:45 Wooo hoo  the call...wake the...

John Allen and what is. 0:50 Mothers day spike. 1:40 Making jokes as a defence mechanism. Whew LOL 2:25 Lets start with something right off the bat: I don't know shit 3:32 Everything I have done is for a little bit of time. 4:20 I hate who I am when I am with other people 5:30 Viewer mail: Love me love please love me. 6:01 GPS locating in brain produces lots of good shit. 6:35 The buddhists...LOL...

John Allen and what is. 0:30   I've been walking and talking. Everything is a groove 1:20 What the fuck is going on right now? 2:00 Not Suffering when you are falling off a cliff. 3:12 If we all believe the same story we can all get together and kill things 6:00 What are you going to do? 7;00 Fairy tales, fairy tales 8:40 If you are feeling bad then it's because you think this moment should be dif...

John Allen and "what is" fight it out again. Same result. 0:30 Ahhh fuck it…clouds of viral load 2:15 Fire through dry grass- What does it all mean? 6:00 What's the word I am looking for- Stupid. That's the word. Stupid. 7:35 In twenty five years who is going to spike the ball 8:15 Trying to remember where to pee 10:40 CNN Headline- Caesar conquers Gaul and tweets rant about Pompey 11:45 Roosevelt...

John Allen argues with what is all by himself. So what else is new? 1: Don't fucking lose your job 12: Book of job 14: What the fuck is going on? 17:01 Argument with what is? 17:44 Everything should turn into a should 23:09  I Gots nothing to lose 25: Copyright 25:50 How can you say the Emperor has no clothes when the Emperor  is paying you? 29:40 Joe Biden six  points up in florida 30 They aint g...

John Allen returns with what is:   0:00 Vertigo   4:00 Losing teeth.   12:00 Pointing to the future.   22:00 The opposite is true.   31:00 Mutation.   40:00 Michael Jordan.   46:00 An Imperfect Union.   57:00 I'll do it when I do it.   1:03:00 Going all in.   1:05 The end is here all of the time.

John Allen returns with what is:   1:00 Cleaning stuff up.   3:00 Paternalism and taking away the picnic tables.   13:00 Doctors.   22:00 A good handyman.   40:00 Submissive fantasies raise the ante of illicitness.   51:00 Michael Lewis.   59:00 Unknowingly caught in a loop.   1:03:00 Out of control growth is cancer.   1:09:00 Moral issues are now front and centre.   1:14:00 Decision Trees: Footba...

John Allen returns with what is:   3:00 Eating big steaks and fucking some girls.   11:00 Epidemiologists breaking out in smiles.   12:00 Letting the fastball go into the old folks home.   14:00 Jailed in our houses on a beautiful spring day.   16:00 Working on the pyramids.   21:00 The future is always now.   25:00 Belief - another fucking mythology you can grab on to and drown with.   29:00 The...

John Allen returns with what is:   0:00 Low flying ducks.   2:00 Don't need airplanes anymore.   3:00 People are the problem.   8:00 Trump walks away.   11:00 Yahoo protesters.    19:00 No issues.   26:00 Henry Ford and the birth of the consumer economy.   32:00 Discovering the little moments in life.   38:00 Volleyball beach takeover.   45:00 Going inside.   51:00 Zoom ruins the day.

0:00 With Mum and Dad at Google Home.   8:00 The Inner Guru will take you where you need to go.   18:00 The peak is a good sign.   24:00 Eastern people are the nicest.   33:00 We are a product of the things that rub up against us.   34:00 All men are misogynists at heart.

0:00 Our kids are going to grow up in hell.   3:00 Trump's "Liberate" tweets are Machiavellian genius.   4:00 Like Trump - getting away with everything.   10:00 The numbers keep going up in Canada.   14:00 Pandemic haves and have-nots.   21:00 We live in a monarchy: private business runs things and we don't have a say about it.   34:00 Hitler's Birthday. Gotta know your enemy.   37:00 Why Shakespe...

0:00 The American election truly begins.   3:00 Elites can work from their computers.   6:00 The worst time to be alive is the time between empires.   8:00 Mask fashion.   11:00 Kicking in the TV.   21:00 Obama in the backroom.   27:00 The Federales.   32:00 Trump has had no obstacles in life and so can't handle them now.   35:00 The Chinese know how to govern.   38:00 Going to live like sheep.  ...