My dog will eat my face

When you think you're fully prepared for the fight, or the news you'll get, nothing will fully prepare you for the actual event. Not unlike in war, there is always the unexpected, the sudden unknowns, the fog that make whatever you've prepared yourself for, a significant challenge once it's no longer an expectation or simulation.

I open up about more about my worsening health and it's impact on some family. #Heart Failure #Declining Abilities #Pulmonary hypertension http://www.patreon.com/mydogwilleatmyfacw

In this podcast, I detail what it means to me to live a full life and how I've accomplished that, while acknowledging some blatant differences between my values and others'. #heart failure #end of life #meaning of life #full life #happiness www.patreon.com/mydogwilleatmyface

I recently rediscovered and age-old problem I have, that haunts me to this day and has become my worst enemy... #heart failure #therapy #hospice #dying http://www. Patreon.com/mydogwilleatmyface

As a history buff I've often viewed my life through the lense of a rising and now falling empire. Here I explain my views of my decline. Also, I announce I'll be welcoming a visitor shortly. #heart failure #end of life #pain #assistance www.patreon.com/mydogwilleatmyface

I've experienced some of the hardest days of my life, as my condition worsens. I try to explain what's happening, with broken words. Bare with me, it's not my best work, by far, but a very important change to the narrative. #incontinence #major pain. heart failure #collapsing #pain management www.patreon.com/mydogwilleatmyface

Details of my sudden chair attack, and a rough poll of fears of fellow heart failure sufferers. #heart failure #collapsing #pain management www.patreon.com/mydogwilleatmyface

Facing a "new normal," if increased pain and physical suffering will be a challenge. This is my first (and likely worst) attempt at creating a means to handle it. #heart failure #collapsing #pain management www.patreon.com/mydogwilleatmyface

My own week of "falling down" - but more literal and slightly less graphic. And yet, in both the movie and the podcast we're fighting for our life. #heart failure #collapsing #ventrical failure www.patreon.com/mydogwilleatmyface

Every week I'm asked if I have adequate support for my dying process; I answered "yes" for the first time ever this week. Why? #heart failure #arterial failure #finding peace #stocism www.patreon.com/mydogwilleatmyface

Why don't I fear solitude? Rather, I cherish it. I wonder why and what that means to me as I approach my last day. #heart failure #jail #arterial failure #journaling www.patreon.com/mydogwilleatmyface

Episode 36: A dive into the victimhood and it's lethal attack on the human souls. #victimhood# heart failure #jail #arterial failure #journaling www.patreon.com/mydogwilleatmyface

Recently I've endured a swarm of worsening conditions, and many reminders of how fragile I am and lucky to be alive #dying #heart failure #jail #recovery #arterial failure #journaling www.patreon.com/mydogwilleatmyface

Episode two covering recent history and end of a long career. #dying #heart failure #career www.patreon.com/mydogwilleatmyface

I'm in a living hell, or maybe not? Maybe I died and went there. Here I am venting and whining. I'm only human, all too human. #dying #heart failure www.patreon.com/mydogwilleatmyface

A brief history of my career, since so many have asked. First part of two. #dying #heart failure #jail #recovery #career www.patreon.com/mydogwilleatmyface

More meditation compositions from Orlando jail. #dying #heart failure #jail #recovery #meditation #journaling www.patreon.com/mydogwilleatmyface

More meditations from "Orlando Jail" and my reflection since they were composed some 5-6 yrs ago. #dying #heart failure #jail #recovery #meditation www.patreon.com/mydogwilleatmyface

Since it's a slow week, I elected the share some of my musings from Orlando Jail (aka rehab). #dying #heart failure #jail #recovery #meditation www.patreon.com/mydogwilleatmyface

In this episode I discuss how my efforts to seek joy have paid off, at least for one moment, and are in the face of yet even more bad news from the doctors. #dying #heart failure #immunity #happiness www.patreon.com/mydogwilleatmyface

Apparently living a good life is key not only to happiness, but also finding peace at death. An analysis of two topics normally sparring apart. #dying #heart failure #hope #happiness #peace www.patreon.com/mydogwilleatmyface

A brief reflection of my life, and the corresponding conclusion and message that I must press to loved ones for when I finally depart this earth #dying #heart failure #classifications #don't look up www.patreon.com/mydogwilleatmyface

I asked my doctor what "kind" of heart failure I have, and I got a detailed answer. I have to handle these facts and provide a final judgment on the kind of life I've lived, before it's gone. #dying #heart failure #classifications #life expectancy www.patreon.com/mydogwilleatmyface

I entered into a discussion with someone about death and dying and disclose that here. Also, for some reason, I sound high to me throughout the podcast. No clue why! #dying #heart failure #death www.patreon.com/mydogwilleatmyface

Despite my physical ailments and frailty, I've adopted a new pooch to have companionship and a new friendship with! Despite the naysayers, I'm living my life, welcoming a new being into my life pooch. #dying #heart failure #hope #adopting www.patreon.com/mydogwilleatmyface