mindset over bullshit with Kendrick Avant

MS Diary | How I'm healing a slipped disc Ibuprofen every 4-6hrs Flexeril every 6-8hrs Today, I'll rotate Ibuprofen & Tylenol  Today, I'll drink 80oz water This ain’t no life for the weak.

MS Diary | The most embarrassing fall EVER Tribespeople. G.O.D. Squad.  I fell in a public restroom, rolled under the stall walls and ended up in the stall next door. I feel so filthy. I screamed for help but no one could hear me. Finally, another patron uses the restroom and promises to get help. This ain’t no the weak.

MS Diary | BIG evaluation day Late last year, I was approved for the appropriate wheelchair. It was over $25k and estimated to take 7mo. Obviously, I didn't get it. (Health insurance changed.

MS Diary | Let people leave I no longer believe in loyalty. Everyone has the right to change their minds when given new information. Yes, even spouses, other family and friends.

All ANYONEever has to do is make me feel like I’m bothering their pece and I’m out. Damn the doctor. To hell with the meds. Fuck my health. I’m out. I’ll sacrifice myself for anyone’s peace.

MS Diary | Ugly side of beautiful w/ family It's beautiful to have family, friends, marriage. It's ugly when you aren't sure they want to be with you. It's painful when they don't answer or intentionally ignore you.

MS Diary | What the new PCP said “Kendrick, I'm sorry but this facility isn't equipped to handle your situation nor am I trained to help. I will say, ‘I think stopping your Ocrevus is part of it. We can request immediate visits based on that’. 👑♿️ To order the Disabled AF T-shirt, visit: gearbubble.com/disabledaf

MICHELLE!!!! WOW!! 1. These glasses will make watching my kids sporting events visible again! I can't wait for soccer! 2. The jewelry! If she only knew how I honestly view myself as a pretty boy. These two sets will take me to a whole new level.  3. The Lego set is something my youngest daughter and I will team up on. *sniff* She'll LOVE the quality time and I will too. I need it. 4. Candi...

MS Diary | Going to the doctor  I want to CANCEL because I'm feeling better but that's the issue. I think I'm just getting used to higher pain levels.

MS Diary | Reward Yourself Day I ain't shit today. I WAS then found out it's Reward Yourself Day. *pops collar* I deserve a break and need one. Where's my healing at?

MS Diary | Difference between taking the MS medicines vs wellness/exercise Popping pills is soooo easy. Regardless of how bad I feel, how much I hurt, it's easy as hell. It comes with side effects, rarely works as advertised but sooo easy. Wellness/exercise is hard AF. Truly. It's hard AF, super time consuming, and I must repeat, hard AF. There is a much higher probability that the activit...

MS Diary | The restroom employee Dude was just trying to help. I overstand that. It's just… Picking me up should NOT be your 1st option.

mindset OVER bullshit | I'm baaaaaack Intro: Dad Joke: Spiders Today's Celebration: National Hoagie Day Tip for Tribespeople: Cancel that free trial NOW Affirmation of the MF'ING Day; Michelle King's News: Exopulse Molli Suit Docu-King: Daughters of the Cukt G.O.D. Squad (Gratitude OVER Disabilities)  1.. Tincture! 2.. developing the new mindset OVER bullshit po 3.. Replacing the f...

MS Diary | Feeling better OR used to feeling worse? This ain’t no life for the weak.

MS Diary | What comes 1st? THINKING bad or FEELING bad? It's a tricky question huh? For me, the answer is THINKING bad. Once I start THINKING something is wrong, shit goes south quickly.  I try to focus my thoughts on BEING better. Using this energy, I rationalize that thinking better comes before feeling better. So, today, that's what I'm doing more of. Gratitude journaling, aggressiv...

MS Diary | Tuesday, 4/30/24 | Talking with someone  She has Primary Progressive Multiple Sclerosis too. Our disabilities and limitations aren't exactly alike but we share a LOT. Talking with her has a calming effect. I can put things in a proper perspective. She reminds me who I am. Better yet, she calls me to who I am. She is the only person I don't pretend to be OK to. I can complain, be...

MS Diary | Monday, 4/29/24 | I am struggling  Beautiful side of ugly. Ugly side of beautiful. It doesn't matter. I'm struggling to manage myself and life. My vision has new symptoms. My spasms are violent. My spasticity increased the pain and happenings. My chronic constipation developed a fissure. My feet feel like they're being cut. I've cried so much my wife and brother took tur...

MS Diary | Friday, 4/26/24 | Getting concerned now Last year, I wore an eye patch because I'm legally blind in one eye, the other has double/blurry vision. The eye patches did not work well with my glasses. That was ridiculously uncomfortable and didn't offer the aide I hoped.  Today, the pain that pushed me to an optometrist returned but in the other eye. I'm worried the legal blindne...

MS Diary | Thursday, 4/25/24 | Couch vs bed sleep I'm married. Not just married but married to my college crush. I STILL crush on her, for her, over and under her.  To be honest, that hurts my heart more than the physical pains. I look forward to sleeping with my wife, it's the balm for a bad day. I've spoken and interviewed enough Wheelchair Users to overstand that this is coming. My...

MS Diary | Wednesday, 4/24/24 | How to help your Wheelchair Users  Attention family, friends, caretakers, ducks, cats, aliens, and species in-between… You can make a HUGE impact on our mental and physical health by ensuring we can reach cups, plates and sit in our spot. Y'all know what I'm talking about! Wheelchair Users have favorite silverware because it accommodates a limitation. Keep i...

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MS Diary | Monday, 4/22/24 | When the negative thoughts are aggressive  I do a LOT to thwart the effects of negative thoughts but sometimes…

MS Diary | Friday, 4/19/24 | Doing my best to stay calm With Multiple Sclerosis, any type of rush or stress multiplies the intensity of symptoms. MULTIPLIES.  I use techniques like self-talk to stay calm. I practice breathing exercises and actually bust ‘em out while rocking the nerve pain, rolling the spasms, opening the legs, pulling the feet back unto the pad, etc. I do my best to relax muscles...

MS Diary | Thursday, 4/18/24 | How I handle the mindfuck Multiple Sclerosis is THE mindfuck. Losing your independence feels like… liiiiiiiike…. I imagine myself as a lion being caged. Social media gives me somewhere to roar. I hate that others go through this but I can't lie… It's soothing to connect with others going through this.

MS Diary | Wednesday, 4/17/24 | Tylenol v left leg pain I know it's not nerve pain. My left leg  spasms by itself. The pain covers the entire leg but focused around the knee. In bed, I manage by switching feet positions. When medication is needed, I jump in 2000mg of Tylenol. Usually, a single round is enough but sometimes, I get that 2nd round too. I try to wait 4hrs.