Mindfully Disruptive

What does a 4am dream have to do with a 17-year-old pattern you never knew you were carrying? Everything. As it turns out. In this episode of Mindfully Disruptive, Patricia shares one of the most unexpectedly honest conversations she has ever had — with herself, on a morning walk, after a dream cracked open something she had been carrying since long before she had words for it. This is not a tidy...

What if your exhaustion isn't about your schedule? What if it's older than you? In this episode of Mindfully Disruptive, Patricia gets into something most wellness conversations completely miss — the exhaustion that lives in the body not because of what you did last week, but because of what your lineage survived for generations. This isn't burnout from overcommitment. This is something deeper. So...

The Knowing Beneath Burnout: Living in Emotional Entanglement In this episode, we explore a quieter truth about burnout. What if you’re not exhausted because you’re doing too much — but because you’ve been living inside long-standing emotional entanglement and over-responsibility? Many women, especially women 40+, aren’t just tired from work. They’re depleted from years of managing emotional clima...

You're Not Fading—You're Just Done Performing: Redefining Beauty in Menopause The beauty industry has a message for women in menopause: You're fading. You're aging out. You need to fight it, fix it, reverse it. We call bullshit. In this unapologetic ManiPause conversation, Patricia and Marina take on the beauty industry's exploitation of menopausal women's insecurities—and why we're done buying wh...

When Menopause Isn't a Choice: Ana Roxana's Journey Through Medical Menopause and Reclaiming Power Some women enter menopause gradually. Anna Roxana Lia Chaga was thrust into it—medically induced at a young age during breast cancer treatment. In this raw and powerful ManiPause conversation, Patricia and Marina welcome Ana Roxana—power systems engineer, artist, holistic practitioner, and Splenic Ma...

Nobody's the Boss of Me: Jewel's Journey from Resistance to Liberation and Awakening her heart "Awakening the hearts of humanity is a tall order. And there's nothing else for me to do." That's Jewel's orientation point—the place she comes back to at every turn, every challenge, every crossroad in life. And it's the thread that runs through this entire conversation. In this deeply spiritual Manifes...

Navigating the Symptoms: What Your Body Is Actually Telling You Hot flashes. Anxiety. Weight gain. Brain fog. Insomnia. Mood swings. Joint pain. The list of perimenopause and menopause symptoms can feel endless - and when you're a Manifestor already managing unpredictable energy cycles, it can be completely overwhelming. But here's what nobody tells you: there's no one-size-fits-all solution. What...

Full Circle: My Year-End Ritual: How I Close One Chapter Before Opening the Next Most people stumble into January carrying everything unresolved from the year before. But what if you could close the year consciously—with clarity, completion, and intention? Since 2016, I've practiced a year-end ritual that changed how I move through life. It's not about setting goals or making resolutions. It's abo...

When Human Design Saves Your Life: A Conversation with Tshu Cardamatis Some people discover Human Design out of curiosity. Others discover it because they're drowning—and it becomes the lifeline they didn't know they needed. In this Manifestor-to-Manifestor conversation, Patricia welcomes Tshu Caradamatis for a deeply personal dialogue about how Human Design didn't just inform her life—it transfor...

When Your Manifestor Burst Meets a Hot Flash: Menopause at Work You're in the middle of a creative surge - ideas flowing, momentum building, ready to make things happen. And then your body says "plot twist" with a hot flash, brain fog, or exhaustion that hits out of nowhere. Welcome to being a Manifestor navigating menopause in the workplace. Your Manifestor design already means your energy works...

Boredom as Medicine: What Your Exhaustion is Really Asking For We're terrified of boredom. So we fill every empty moment—scrolling, consuming, moving, doing—anything to avoid the discomfort of stillness. But what if boredom isn't the enemy? What if it's actually the medicine your exhausted body has been begging for? In this episode, I dive into something deeper than physical tiredness—existential...

When the External Guide Goes Quiet: Finding Your Manifestor Energetic Rhythm in Menopause For years, you may have linked your Manifestor rhythm to your menstrual cycle—that reliable rise and fall of energy, creativity, and rest. But what happens when perimenopause and menopause make that rhythm irregular, unpredictable, or gone altogether? In this episode of ManiPause, Patricia and Marina get real...

What Would You Regret NOT Saying? This Manifestor-to-Manifestor conversation between Patricia and Nadege, a 4/6 Splenic Manifestor, gets real about what it means to be unapologetically yourself—even when it costs you comfort, acceptance, or belonging. We're diving into the courage it takes to share your truth, your perspective, your opinions—knowing full well that some people won't get it, won't l...

One Year of Mindfully Disruptive: What Happens When You Follow the Creative Nudge A year ago, I pressed record on the first episode of Mindfully Disruptive with one burning question: "What do I have to say that the world actually wants to listen to?" I still don't have a complete answer—but I've learned that maybe that's not the point. In this special anniversary episode, I'm opening up about the...

What if menopause isn't the end of something—but the beginning of everything? In this powerful episode of The Mani-Pause , hosts Patricia Rundblade and Marina Lamen flip the script on menopause. Forget decline, diminishment, and "drying up." This is about initiation, reclamation, and stepping into your most potent self. What You'll Discover: Why menopause is a sacred rite of passage —not a medical...

What happens when a single book passage stops you in your tracks and changes everything? In this episode of Mindfully Disruptive, I share an unexpected meditation moment that led to a profound shift - all sparked by Marianne Williamson's 'The Gift of Change' and the angel Gabriel's timeless spiritual message about transformation. But here's the thing: spiritual awakening isn't just about mountaint...

What happens when a data analyst is secretly a poet, artist, and Manifestor who refuses to pick just one path? You get Jenna G—aka Heart Illuminations—and this conversation is a masterclass in creative defiance. In this episode of Manifestor to Manifestor , Patricia sits down with Jenna, a woman who's lived multiple lives: prevention specialist, data analyst, artist, writer, poet... and unapologet...

Screw "aging gracefully." Let's talk about aging POWERFULLY. Welcome to the very first episode of Mani-Pause —where two women in wildly different stages of menopause say the quiet parts out loud. Meet your hosts: Patricia 4/6 Emotional Manifestor (60, fully menopausal, navigating body changes that no one prepared her for) and Marina 4/6 Splenic Manifestor (47, riding the pre-menopause roller coast...

What if your burnout isn't really yours? In this raw and revelatory episode, Patricia shares the story of her 2023 burnout collapse while teaching at the Grand Canyon—a breaking point that forced her to confront an uncomfortable truth: burnout wasn't just her story. It was her family's story, passed down through generations like an unwanted inheritance. This episode pulls back the curtain on how b...

What happens when the most impactful Manifestor in the Human Design space refuses to show their face? I just had the most surreal interview of my life—sitting across from an "entity" rather than a person. Meet the human behind @ManifestorAnonymous, the bold, faceless Instagram hub that's rapidly becoming THE playground for Manifestors worldwide. This isn't your typical Human Design conversation. W...

What if everything you've been told about "healthy eating" is wrong—for YOUR body? In this game-changing episode of Mindfully Disruptive, I sit down with Alexandra Esser, creator of the revolutionary Key of Diet system, and her husband Christoph. We're diving into territory that will completely flip how you think about food, your body, and what it means to truly nourish yourself. This isn't anothe...

In this episode of Mindfully Disruptive, I dive deep into the loaded questions we rarely ask ourselves: What does it actually mean to be rich? Wealthy? Truly independent? Sparked by insights from another podcast on financial liberty, I explore how our personal definitions of these concepts might be the very thing holding us back. We'll unpack why society's version of wealth doesn't always align wi...

In this enlightening episode of Mindfully Disruptive, Patricia explores the fascinating journey of Christoph Esser. From his early questions on human behavior sitting with his psychiatrist stepfather to becoming a sports scientist and golf professional, Christoph's journey took a pivotal turn when he discovered human design and other spiritual teachings. Christoph elaborates on his unique approach...

In this heart-opening episode, I sit down with Stephanie Traszka — Human Design Manifestor, Women’s Circle facilitator, Reiki & EFT practitioner, and intuitive life coach — to explore what it really means to follow your urges, reclaim your voice, and dismantle the boxes that keep us playing small. From her days as a Montessori teacher to her spiritual awakening and deep dive into Human Design,...

Some creative urges arrive like a whisper. Others kick down the door. This one started as a dream, grew into a gathering of 9 Manifestors and 1 Reflector—and became The Unspoken Truth Virtual Summit. In this raw, unscripted episode, I share the behind-the-scenes of bringing this summit to life, introduce the incredible speakers, and open up about the profound shifts in my own perspective on what l...