Midnight Wisdom

17.08.2025 23:53 Im in bed, a bit tired. Lovely day with the children at Einhorn yesterday. Had an intense situation with a woman who needed too much too quickly and had very little grounding. She told me she felt my masculine energy as soon as she saw me. That she feels God between us. From the moment she saw me. I saw in her a love addict that does not know that she is addicted. Or maybe she was...

Rec: 08.06.2025 Up: 11.08.2025

Rec: 20.07.2025 Up: 11.08.2025 Recorded close to my home and reflect on everything. Didn't upload yet so uploading now.

Rec: 23.07.2025 Uploaded. 11.08.2025 I got high with my bong and relaxed. Processed, and watched 28 days later and commented on the movie as I did so. This was when my burnout period started. I gotta say, three weeks since isn't that bad of a number.

Rec: 25.07.2025 Uploaded: 11.08.2025

He replied with a lovey dovey message and didn't hear what I said. So I sent another one. 16.07.2025

Friend slept over and had quite the fight with me. I sent them this message the next day. Keeping it for memories. Sent on: 12th of July

10.08.2025 23:52 About to sleep. Watching The Gorge. Feeling quite tired. But like things came together again within me. After a lot of pressure was collecting behind a dam. Full moon came, full moon gone. Here we are.

03.08.2025. 22:56 I have no ego now. It just flipped. I don't have a personality. I geniunely don't. And me chasing things just to feel like I do is what's making me suffer. So it's fine. I don't have a personality and I don't need one. It's absolutely fine. I lost a friend, who wasn't a friend, after I decided not to pay for her movie ticket, popcorn and drink, whi...

27.07.2025 23:48 Sunday The time I invest now is the gift I give my future. And I want to give my future a lot of gifts. Isn't that right? Berlin I'm coming for you

20.07.2025 01:37 am I'm Sunday now, I'm sitting in my room. It's dark outside. I have the lamp next to me on. I worked on a booklet for my company today and I'm going to a festival tomorrow. I shaved my head today and removed whatever blonde strands that I had in it. I feel very good for coming back to being a brunette again. Black is back in town. It feels great to let go of things at the right t...

22:43 13.07.2025. I am holding on to too much.

23:49 Sun 06.07.2025 I'm with Ashraf in my room after billiards and a walk. Glad I got to upload in time (recorded earlier in the day). I'm not sure what I want to do for next week but it's good to have some goals. I care about this relationship.

21:26 29.06.2025 You are the most confident mother ...... I know. I love you, and hey, enjoy what you are right now. You go through your transformations, you go through your stories, but yours is to break through them. You are growth. You are life. You are growing. Pain is natural in growth. But even if you are growing, it does not mean that you are not enough. Remember this always. You are enough...

15:33 Smoked a little bit. Breathed, sat and recorded this. I managed to come to articulated terms with many things in my head. It's good to take a bewusst day to restart. But it does not feel like a restart. But a moving foward. I'm grateful for this. I feel committed and good. And trusting myself to do the right thing to move this forward. GL

15.06.2025 15:46 I talk about my night clubbing last week, and how I'm feeling since. The bike ride I took to the lake a a beautiful girl I saw. The dance we did yesterday, and how I was sadly one point of key. Let's focus more of our energy on ourselves buddy. Time is precious and this world needs you to be the best of yourself. That's truly the only conclusion. And good will happen....

23:50 08.06.2025 Lovely period. Dancing, sisyphos. Spoke to mama and she was beautiful today. Told her I went partying yesterday. I see a side to Berlin that’s lovely. I am lovely.

23:42 01.06.2025 Finally back home in Berlin. Really tired. 2 out of 4 housemates moved out and expecting a change at that front. Let’s see.

Sunday 20:32 25.05.2025 in Orgiva Benevicio I woke up early and went on a walk in Granada on Wednesday the 21streflecting on my life, my money situation, my job hunt and I’m glad I did. Tried to see how I could break into Al Hambra because I didn’t manage to get a ticket. But Imm glad I didn’t it would have been another 20 euros (or a 3k fine).

18.05.2025 22:47 I'm in Seville for the first time. Lisbon was nice, with its ups and downs. It was an adventure regardless. I had a cold the last four days that I tried to still fight against and make the most out of my vacation. There's a lot I'll sit and reflect on later. Right now, I need to sleep and wake up early to go to the Real Alcazar. This one is recorded on the beach at nig...

22:21 11.05 I need to prolong a video game (FFVII Remake) and 2 books from the library but the website portal was down. In bed at the hostel. Washed my feet at the yoga studio and twadet. Spent 30 minutes or so journaling on the laptop. Was lovely. I dont know where I’m going tomorrow but I believe I’ll decide tomorrow. I have some habits to do! This episode has a voicenote I sent to my friend Ann...

17:54 04.05.2025 On my way to visit my cousin in the west of Sweden. Spent two days in Stockholm. Beautiful city with its own atmosphere. Extremely similar to Germany but endearing in its design, spaciousness, and the things you can get away with because of how much people keep to themselves. Met cool people in the hostel. I’m trying something new by adding in voicenotes I’ve sent to other people....

22:59 27.04.2025 Feeling lighter, like I did my taxes and can relax.

01:56 19.04.2025 how will I feel 10 years later? Feel deep darkness for a while now. Holes that we build for ourselves and stay in. Watched Gantz:O and a Kevin Hart 1 hour comedy special and played hours of death stranding.

16:32 10.04.2025 Had some good interviews and saw a childhood friend yesterday. I also set some strong habits in place and I am feeling good about them. New me.