Midlife Misery: the Journals

Midlife Misery Bonus Episode Webpage After more than a year away from recording I’m returning with a long-overdue bonus update episode What was supposed to be a six-month break from the Midlife Misery podcast - became something far longer — and far more serious — than anticipated. In this episode I explain why the break extended well beyond my original timeline. Since the last episode, I have cont...

Midlife Misery: The Journals - A Podcast - 5150 February - Chapter 4: The Tech F&^% of February- Goes Full On In this episode I wrap up the timeline details of February 3, 2024 Another day full of tech foolery that began overnight in the early morning hours when most people are sleeping. I received several notifications from a DIFFERENT TV streaming application that new devices, in neighboring...

In this episode I wrap up the timeline details of February 2, 2024 Which was a day full of tech foolery that began with a tv streaming app malfunction. As the day went on there was the purchase of a VPN. In the evening I received a weird reaction from my EX when I mentioned a conversation about WiFi networks that I had with an old co-worker/frenemy. February 2nd culminates with a very odd conversa...

Season 1 Episode 20 5150 February - Chapter 2:  The Tech F&*% Muckraker Scapegoat In this episode I give a brief historical recap of all of the technological incidents that my Abusive, Narcissistic Ex Husband created and used to claim that I suffered from severe mental illness and commit me into the involuntary psychiatric hold - the 5150 of February 2024 I continue to provide the timeline det...

Season 1 Episode 19 5150 February - Chapter 1:  The Calm Before the Atmospheric River of Deceit I am FINALLY at the point of the story where I am FINALLY going to get into all of the gory details of February 2024 February 2024 is the month of the infamous 5150 hold - The infamous 5150 hold that my Abusive, Narcissistic Ex Husband initiated and COMMITTED me into - ALL BY HIMSELF The 5150 hold that...

Season 1 Episode 17: The Mysterious Motive In this episode I take another break from the timeline details to explore MOTIVE and EFFORT Motive is the elusive WHY - the question I keep getting asked, ad nauseam, by the royal EVERYONE Why did my ExHusband go through so much effort to make me appear to be mentally deranged and dangerous??? Why did my ExHusband claim that the only way to salvage our ma...

Season 1 Episode 17 New Year, New…………..Husband???? In this episode I jump back into the timeline details for the remainder of January 2024 Before I do that I briefly discuss the images on last week’s episode webpage - Season 1 Episode 16 - The Foundation of Fuckery -  Many of the images I posted on last week’s episode’s webpage are there to help me tie together some details of the story that don’t...

Season 1 Episode 16 The Foundation of F@$#ery I take a break from the timeline details of January 2024 to incorporate many of the details and characters I have presented in the story so far. I take a break from the timeline details of January 2024 to build the very malevolent foundation of my Ex’s chaotic plan. I explore some of my Ex’s possible motives. I explore the timing of my ex’s actions. I...

Season 1 Episode 15 In this episode I examine the evidence of tampering - much like the broken glass coffee mugs I mentioned in last week's episode The tampering that could be evidence of potential longterm poisoning. This evidence existed in the old apartment inside the tea kettle I used daily to heat the water for my morning coffee   I threw that tea kettle/piece of evidence out into the garbage...

Episode Webpage Podcast Website Spreaker Supporter's Club Link BlueSky Profile TikTok Profile Season 1 Episode 13 I begin this weeks episode with a brief rundown of all of the signs my EX displayed that are indicative of his propensity for Narcissistic Personality Disorder and the wide variety of societal systems that he used as weapons against me. I briefly discuss the signs that make it obvious...

Season 1 Episode 13 In this episode I go over the timeline details of the 2nd week of January 2024  I speak to the fact that I was waking up to the idea that something was terribly WRONG in my marriage and with my Ex - my gut instinct was screaming out to me but my rational brain was desperately trying to talk me out of it but I was feeling a power shift in my relationship and it wasn’t a positive...

Season 1 Episode 12 In the episode I give a little recap of the factual evidence that’s been presented so far in my medical records and text messages  -  I’ll be presenting new evidence that’s been provided by my close friends and that also appears in public documents and  now that we’re finally in the January 2024 portion of the timeline  things begin to ESCALATE quickly  So will the amount of NE...

Season 1 Episode 11 This is part 2 of last week’s episode  In this episode  I revisit last week’s events where my EX and I had to be in the same room and he was asked to provide truthful answers to some very important questions about February 2024 when he admitted me into an Involuntary Psychiatric hold/5150 all by himself 12 hours after I was seen at a local Urgent Care During my visit to the loc...

The content of this Episode is meant for a mature audience and could be triggering for some - this episode discusses and contains depictions on the topics of child abuse and suicide - if you or anyone you know is in crisis - please seek immediate help - text or chat with the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline by dialing 988 or text TALK to 741741 - and as always, please use discretion when listening Supp...

Season 1 Episode 10 In this episode I give a brief recap of the events in the story so far beginning with September 2023 through November 2023 I talk about this past week’s events where my EX and I had to be in the same room and he was asked to provide truthful answers to some very important questions and the only question that made him clam up and immediately respond with “no comment” was the que...

Supporter’s Club Preview Ep #4 In this episode I talk about my frustration with the lack of results I received after my years of solid effort to get acknowledgment for MY DAD and his service to the Local Police Department In a city with a hardline MAGA stance and stronghold within its City Council  My numerous requests that I’d made that had been dismissed over and over by local Law Enforcement an...

Season 1 Episode 9 In this episode I give a shout out and make a dedication to my #1 FAN an unexpected FAN - but a FAN nonetheless  During my dedication speech I try and give my #1 FAN a very important financial lesson about the difference between a Line of Credit and a Deposit Account. My #1 Fan has been actively assisting my EX with his gathering and preparation of the financial documents he’s b...

Supporters club preview #3 In this episode I read the other journal entry I made on June 23, 2023 - on the very bad no good day that I had a difficult time grappling with the lack of headway I was making in getting anything on my list of things I was trying to get accomplished with my dad’s memory and legacy I read the journal entry entitled November 21, 2024 navigating family drama - lessons from...

Season 1 Episode 8 In this episode I speak to the fact that its my 1 year anniversary of the involuntary 5150 hold my EX successfully placed me in using only his LIES and FALSIFICATION of MY medical records, he didn’t even need law enforcement or my psychiatrist - he knew the game and played it perfectly I talk about gaslighting and how my EX slowly ramped up the fire, making it hard to see as it’...

Midlife Misery: The Journals - Supporters Club Preview Episode 2 In this episode I talk about my relationship with my Mom and how my years of work in therapy helped me to forgive my Mom and to see how her pain shaped some of the mistakes and her treatment of me I also speak to the forgiveness I worked to have for my Stepmom - while at the same time - I was also feeling very judged by my friends an...

Season 1 Episode 7 In this episode I talk about my Ex’s extreme patterns of manipulation and gaslighting I point out the different photos my EX sent out as “proof of the damage” in the apartment that he claims to have found when he went back “the other day” The photos that show ZERO damage are the photos that have not been edited and were taken on April 6, 2024 The photos that show actual damage -...

***This episode discusses and contains depictions on the topic of suicide - if you or anyone you know is in crisis - please seek immediate help - text or chat with the Suicide and Crisis Lifeline by dialing 988 or text TALK to 741741 - and as always, please use discretion when listening*** Midlife Misery, the JOURNALS - Supporters Club Preview Episode  These episodes are going to be a bit differen...

Season 1 Episode 6 In this Episode, I speak to the text messages and accompanying photos my EX sent to my friend on April 12, 2024 - the day he filed for divorce. In his text messages my EX claims he went back to the apartment and observed “damage in the apartment” and claims that I caused the damage, however, the majority of the images he sent to my friend were edited on the same day he sent them...

Season 1 Episode 5 I Love the Smell of Formaldehyde in CRYPTOber In this episode I give examples of my spouse’s ongoing “misinformation campaign” he conducted post spousal abandonment and on the day he filed for divorce. During that time my spouse continued to PRETEND to be concerned about me, my mental health, my reality, and my safety - while he maliciously spread BLATANT LIES to my close friend...

Season 1 Episode 4 In this episode I give a brief description of how I was able to view the MANY rogue devices that connected to our Wifi and interchanged connections between Wifi and Ethernet. I describe the difference between a Therapist/Psychologist and a Psychiatrist and tell a little about which one has the authority to diagnose and prescribe medication. I also describe how schedule 2 substan...