Mekhaela

Did MEKHAELA still continue to fight a losing battle and hope for a better day? "I’m lashed, slashed, and crushed. " Voiced by MEKHAELA Sound by JABS Cover art by MONIQUE

Will MEKHAELA be able to slowly get her feet back and start fresh? "Where have all the good people gone?" Voiced by MEKHAELA Sound by JABS Cover art by MONIQUE

MEKHAELA started to think that there’s no hope for happiness left of her anymore. Was it because SHE's too frustrated that SHE didn’t get what SHE wanted or was SHE just too weak to fight off the pessimism that’s been burning in HER heart? ...It’s a shame that people have the guts to hurt a person like me who does nothing but give them love and emotional support all along. Voice: MIA Sound: Jabs C...

The only mistake MEKHAELA did was that SHE clung to the memories and hoping that MILES will come back. SHE had never forgiven herself for being too hard on herself. MEKHAELA still saved all the memories MILES left. "Submissive is the word of the day. That’s me. I allow myself to be eaten by my feelings unknown to the fact that I’m slowly being killed by them in the middle of the chapter." Voiced b...

July 2009 has been a rough month for Mekhaela. But despite it all, she was able to channel her inner poet and turn her sadness into poetry. Cheesy? Quite. "..Of the way I touch your face, Kiss you on the lips and play with your ear Whispering words you always long to hear, And hear me make a giggling noise when you say you love me?" Voiced by MEKHAELA Sound by JABS Cover art by MONIQUE

Mekhaela felt like she's carrying all of these adversities alone. Did anyone help? Nope! Did anyone check on her if she's okay? Hell, no. Did anyone offered to be her soundboard? Double hell no! "It’s true what they say, even the strong ones get trampled on. " Voiced by Mekhaela Sound by Jabs Cover Art by Monique

MEKHAELA will reveal a secret she had kept for so long. "Was I caught? Nope! Veteran's Move? Hell, yeah!" Voiced by Mekhaela Sound by Jabs Artwork by Monique

GUESS WHO REACHED OUT AND APOLOGIZED for putting MEKHAELA in a tight spot?? "I’m hurt. A ton of sorry would not heal the wounds but I’m sure it may serve as a painkiller for the meantime. But painkillers wear off after a couple of hours. " Voiced by MEKHAELA Sound by JABS Artwork by MONIQUE

Why did MEKHAELA wait for something so vague? Maybe it was just her ego talking.  Just maybe.   "No, I’m not an Ice Queen. I just numb myself of all the unfortunate incidents that have happened to me." Voiced by Mekhaela Sound by Jabs Artwork by Monique

What was Mekhaela even fighting for? For him to come back even if she knew he won't? Was she just making a fool of herself for thinking he's for real? "But as long as you’re on the other side of the rope waiting for me, pain is worth taking and wounds will remind me that I’m holding on with a purpose." Voiced by Mekhaela Sound: Jabs Art: Monique

What did MEKHAELA do to deserve such castigation from someone she'd loved and sacrificed for? Why do people hurt her that much?  "I easily get frustrated and angry." - Mekhaela  Voiced by Mekhaela  Sound: Jabs  Art: Monique

One thing Mekhaela was so sure about: time management was off the table. Mekhaela tried to convince herself that whatever happened to her with MILES was just a minor setback. But even though it hurt so much she still sucked it up and endured the pain. Real love....or stupidity? "I’ve been crying myself to sleep, trying my darndest to eat right but it seems food doesn’t want to be digested as well...

It was a battle between her head and her heart. Mekhaela's head said the relationship was nothing but toxic, but her heart was telling her to do what makes her happy. "Both of us can’t promise anything except to make each day very meaningful. " -Mekhaela Host: Mekhaela  Sound: Jabs  Cover Art: Monique

Did Mekhaela find gold amongst the rust? "He knows if I’m genuinely happy, sad, or upset...If only I could keep him in my pocket forever." Host: Mekhaela Sound: Jabs Cover Art: Monique

Mekhaela started to notice that Miles was slowly fading out of the picture but she's still trying to get her hopes up. The stronger she fell for him, the more it had become, and it's making her anxious. "Probably, I’m making a fool of myself for loving someone whom I know I can’t spend the rest of my life with." Host: Mekhaela Sound: Jabs Cover Art: Monique

Mekhaela wrote an email that was never sent to MILES. She made a promise to stay. A promise she kept that sealed her fate.  "It’s always a promise that I will keep until such time that you’ll need to break free. I won’t let go. Hope you’ll do the same." Host: Mekhaela Sound: Jabs Cover Art: Monique

A year after her marriage ended, Mekhaela had once again, exposed herself in a very vulnerable situation and began opening herself to the dating scene...and then, she met him. Mark all your calendars on November 2nd. Mekhaela will be back. 

Mekhaela wrote a little entry in October 2008  about how she met her husband, struggled, loved, and lost. "We thought this love would last for eternity. The joys, sorrows, pain, and hardships were nothing when we’re together. " -Mekhaela Host: Mekhaela Sound: Jabs Cover Art: Monique

Mekhaela had already sabotaged everything in her life and blaming everyone for everything. “I like to get hurt, I let go of things or people who are so important to me, and the worst part is I’m the one who gets easily affected by my decisions.” Host: Mekhaela Sound: Jabs Cover Art: Monique

Did she turn to vices to forget everything? Host: Mekhaela Sound: Jabs Cover Art: Monique

Mekhaela's married life was already hanging in the balance and yet, she's trying to keep everything together for the sake of not disappointing the people around her. But deep inside, she's tired. Should she endure the pain just to keep her precious unit together or should she just give up and take whatever that's left of her and move on to another chapter of her life? "Another dawn came, the sun h...

It wasn't easy for Mekhaela to follow advice from people. Had she blindly obeyed someone's advice and things took turn for the worse? "Unsolicited advice is not welcome." - Mekhaela Host: Mekhaela Sound: Jabs Cover Art: Monique

Was Mekhaela becoming lazy or just fed up with everything that went on around her? "I’m becoming more and more lazy–a lot of people told me that. Am I  lazy or just totally fed up with the daily routine, being yelled at,  being called useless idiot for no reason at all?" Host: Mekhaela Sound: Jabs Cover Art: Monique

This was the last entry of the year 2007. Mekhaela tried to reevaluate all the things that have happened to her. She was trying to figure out if those were just a setback or if there were reasons for everything.  "I’m currently struggling– in all aspects. There are some things that I cannot avoid and the worst part of it is that I haven’t done anything to either stop or change it." Host: Mekh...

Mekhaela recalled that she was worried that her temper was spreading like cancer, that's why she's trying to keep herself from socializing. That affected her relationship with her family, friends, and even her husband. "Why keeping these a secret? People sometimes do that. I don’t know. Maybe I’m one of them… or maybe I’m not. It depends on the situation." Voice by Mekhaela Sound: Jabs Art: Moniqu...