Mediocre Thoughts

Existential emotions that stem from surreal experiences. “Why is being happy so happy?” I don’t know how to tell you, I hope you can be able to not tell me :) HAHAHA IM SO WEIRD

Translation: Being tired isn’t an excuse; it’s a reason. Once again we are back! With life updates! :> hope you’re doing good :D

but also don’t live too carelessly. “Balance and moderation is key.” I forgot what made me write this title.

I wonder if anyone can actually get what I’m trying to say from the title haha if you kind of guessed it I applaud you :> here have some applause *clap clap clap* Talking about a tweet about a tumblr post I saw recently because I have no idea how tumblr works. The post is about how “applying for jobs is a hell designed specifically to torment autistic people.” I said “by your own” when I wanted to...

I recently realised I’m still wearing a t-shirt I got when I was 13. I turn 21 this year. 7 is a third of 21. I am in existential shock. Welcome back to another episode of random shit.

Disclaimer: All of this is the bullshit going on in my head. Do not take this seriously. Take everything with a grain of salt. I repeat, DO NOT TAKE ME SERIOUSLY. I just realised after recording the episode that I didn’t explain anything about the title. Basically I don’t want to disappear without meaning. So this episode is structured a bit weirdly because I added another segment after the actual...

Recent emotions and feelings from rewatching Dead Poets Society for the third(?) time. I should have an episode done for Dead Poets Society given how much it changed my life. So here it is. An episode. A recollection, for it is simply a recollection of feelings from the past. Also as I’m writing this script I’m starting to realise it gets off topic a lot, so the title is not the most accurate, but...

Once again we are back with an existential crisis. I am talking bullshit. The only reason you should listen to this is if you care about me a lot. Like genuinely. Otherwise you’re gonna be bored as shit and this is just gonna be a waste of your time. Everything is a waste of time. The only time you don’t waste is the time you spend being happy. I hope you’re happy listening to this even though it...

Happy 2022! I hope this year goes well for everyone. This is some random stuff written at the end of last year, and reflections on reading a book I bought on impulse after reading a third of it at a bookstore with a homie :>

TW: depression, self-harm, suicide (just a little tho)  Spoiler Alert: BoJack, Neon Genesis Evangelion Talking shit. Got disconnected twice. Thrice? But yes. Here it is. Another guest. The same guest actually, but in another episode. There's gonna be some weird parts that jumped a bit cuz we got disconnected, and I have no idea how to edit it so if it sounds weird just roll with it :3 Thank y...

Finals are over. I’ve missed you. This episode is basically me having an existential crisis. Take this ride with me.

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Final day of November, happy birthday to a very good friend of mine. There is nothing to be done.

“Trust me when I say nothing matters. Trust me when I say you matter to someone.”

Unique. Weird. Unorthodox. I wonder if anyone could guess that’s what I meant. It me reading poetry I’ve written. Cuz I feel overwhelmed by the amount of talent I’m surrounded by in uni. And it’s 4:51am and I’m so dead for class tmr but at least I had fun recording! (: and life is too short to be unhappy!! ((: hehe also the cover pic is a little something that has brought me a lot of joy recently!...

I just realised I don’t actually answer the question. But here are thoughts after having my first humanities class in university and watching Kurzgesagt’s latest video: Can YOU fix climate change? Here’s the link: https://youtu.be/yiw6_JakZFc

In case you miss my voice. Literally. I just talk about what my life is like now. There is nothing to learn, and there are no thoughts. So once again, thank you for listening to Mediocre Thoughts.

TW: very very slight mention of suicide and some mental health stuff From inequality in educational opportunities for Malaysian students to how social media can be bad for you. I present to you: a conversation between two people who have no idea what they’re talking about. Take everything with a pinch of salt. Perhaps a few more pinches than just one pinch would be wise. Nothing matters, no one ca...

Talking about why I think greed is the worst among the seven deadly sins. And also some of my desires. Also this is the first scripted episode in a while so yay.

You can fall asleep to this episode. I know I can.

First episode talking with a friend!! ft. Henniferly aka the person who made all this possible by recommending to me this app that I use to make my podcast :3 (subscribe to her YouTube channel :3 https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCQqSbPmUuu_9alc3lGwa19Q/featured) first episode in third person view instead of second cuz you’re listening to our convo instead of me talking to you :D basically a convo...

Okay so the first time I said “titled” my pronunciation was kinda off and it BUGS ME SO MUCH but I don’t have the skills to edit it and this was kind of a spur of the moment thing so editing it feels inadequate :’D a more accurate description: me talking after finishing my second watch of The Fault in Our Stars, ft. a lot of breaths and sighs and some tiny silence cuz I believe silence is a sound...

To my 19th follower: this is for you even though I don’t know who you are and you probably don’t know who you are either!(cuz y’all can’t see the follower count right)(also jk it’s for everyone I just like giving numbers meaning d:) The episode 18 part of the script was written in the span of a few months because I only wrote a tiny bit every time and it couldn’t accumulate enough into one episode...

Grandma went back to her house so I have a room to myself again therefore I feel obligated to make an episode. Once again this is me bullshitting my way through time. Nothing is easy, everything is hard, but I promise it gets easier with repetition. Your brain is capable of amazing things.

Reassurances is #2 because episode 3 is already Reassurances (#1). The second part of the title is a song lyric from Home by Edward Sharpe and the Magnetic Zeroes. The song was released in July 2009, which is 11 years and 7 months ago as of the month this episode was released. The content is a little random, I’m just writing what I think sounds like reassurances after sharing a little bit about th...