MC Somatics: Rebuilding The Self

In this week’s episode, I talk about what comes up when we actually sit with ourselves. The recurring themes. The thoughts we keep circling. The feelings waiting underneath the noise. And the honest question of whether we are truly making time for ourselves at all. I explore what self-connection can reveal when we slow down enough to listen, and I share a simple exercise of writing first thing in...

In this week’s episode, I talk about the bare minimum and how healing changes our ability to see it, and how what once felt normal can start to reveal itself as emotional manipulation, low effort, or a profound lack of emotional availability. I share examples from my own life and how, as I healed, certain friendships began to fall away because people could no longer meet me emotionally. What I onc...

In this episode, I talk about the remnants of narcissistic abuse—the ways it can linger long after the relationship or dynamic has ended. I explore what gets left behind: self-doubt, hypervigilance, confusion, internalized blame, difficulty trusting ourselves, and the exhausting habit of overexplaining, appeasing, or questioning what we know. I talk about how this kind of abuse does not just wound...

In this episode, I talk about the years I spent trying to convince myself that if I just healed enough, certain things would stop bothering me. I explore how that mindset became its own form of self-gaslighting, how it created internal conflict, disconnected me from what I was actually feeling, and turned healing into a maladaptive coping mechanism. Instead of listening to my reactions, I kept ass...

In this episode, I explore the symbolism of what we drive and how our choices often reveal more than we realize. The cars we choose can reflect what we value, such as safety, status, freedom, comfort, reliability, adventure, or image, and those same values often show up in our relationships. I talk about how our preferences are rarely random, and how what carries us through the world can mirror wh...

In this episode, I explore communication as a high art form, something far deeper than simply saying words. I talk about how we come to connection from very different places: sometimes from defensiveness, and sometimes from a real desire to understand. That difference shapes everything. It shows up in our tone, our timing, our ability to listen, and whether our words create clarity or distance. Th...

In this episode, I talk about moving out of the cycle of constantly fixing ourselves. I explore what happens when we stop treating ourselves like a project and start building a life that actually supports us. I talk about reducing the pressure to improve, perform, and constantly work on ourselves, and how choosing what feels more peaceful, honest, and regulating can change our relationship with an...

In this episode, I talk about the immense grief of living without repair. I explore what it has meant to have a father who never really repaired with me, who made the pain about himself, and how that absence shaped what I came to expect from other people. I talk about the “look on the bright side” kind of bypassing that skips over what is real, and the deeper wound of having your hurt minimized in...

In this week’s podcast, I talk about authenticity as the cost of admission to your life. As the old self dissolves, there are patterns, relationships, and parts of an old life we can no longer participate in. Not because we are better than before, but because something in us has become too honest to keep abandoning itself. This episode is about identity, change, and what happens when authenticity...

In this episode, I talk about what happens when we already know the answer, but do not trust ourselves enough to act on it. So instead, we go to committee. I explore the ways we outsource our knowing by polling other people, gathering more opinions, asking the same question in different rooms, and hoping someone else will give us permission to do what we already know is true. I also talk about wha...

In this episode, I talk about how resentment is often not randon, it is a signal. More often than not, resentment builds when we have missed a boundary that was necessary, ignored what we needed, or kept saying yes when something in us was already asking for a no. I explore how resentment can point us back to ourselves, showing us where we have overextended, self-abandoned, or tolerated too much f...

In this week’s episode, I talk about self-trust, discernment, and what it means to get honest about who truly deserves a seat at the table in our lives. I explore the shift that happens when we stop making excuses for low-effort friendships, inconsistent support, and people who barely show up, yet still expect access to us. I also talk about trusting ourselves enough to choose better, to stop over...

In this week’s podcast, I talk about how to listen for emotional availability in ordinary moments. For example, when someone asks how you are, and you say, “Not great,” and they immediately respond with, “Oh, but look on the bright side,” that tells you something. Not about your emotions being too much. About their inability to stay with discomfort. That is not support, that is information. I talk...

In this week’s episode, I talk about surviving the boogeyman, not just the situation itself, but what it brought up in me and what it revealed. I share how my friends showed up for me in the ways I actually needed, including simply being there at the rink, and why that kind of grounded support matters more than people often realize. I also explore the relationship between perspective and perceptio...

In this week’s episode, I talk about the self-imposed prisons we can end up living in, mortgages, relationships, responsibilities, and other choices made in survival mode that later leave us feeling stuck and trapped. I also share more about my PTSD symptoms and how a recent situation with a past partner activated those familiar feelings of constriction, helplessness, and being unable to breathe i...

In this episode, I talk about the pits, which is depression, anxiety, and grief—and the difficult wisdom they carry. These are the places most people try to escape, numb, fix, or spiritually bypass, but I explore what they can teach us if we stay with them long enough to truly listen. I also talk about emotional bypassing, how quick reassurance, forced positivity, and people’s discomfort with pain...

What Is Love? What is love after disillusionment? In this episode, I explore love as a choice, one we make with clearer eyes, stronger inner boundaries, and a deeper respect for what we know we can and cannot live with. I talk about the real stuck points that matter in relationships: money, taxes, step-parenting, everyday habits, and the misalignments that may seem small at first but can become fa...

What if the songs that move you the most are actually reflecting something your soul already knows? In this episode, I explore a deeply personal realization: music has always been the language through which my inner world speaks. Certain songs have followed me through different chapters of my life, sometimes long before I understood what they were showing me. Looking back, I can see how music mirr...

Some songs that don’t just play in the background of our lives, they hold us. In this episode, I talk about the music that carried me through different chapters of my life. The anthems that steadied me during heartbreak. The lyrics that named what I couldn’t yet say. The melodies that helped me metabolize grief, anger, freedom, longing, and becoming. Music has been more than entertainment for me....

Are You Lonely? It’s a question people tend to ask when they see someone who spends a lot of time alone. But what if aloneness isn’t emptiness? In this episode, I talk about what it’s like to live as an introverted intuitive whose internal world is vivid, layered, relational, and deeply alive. My solitude isn’t a waiting room for connection; it is  connection. Conversations are conversations happe...

We all learn how to shrink. We shrink our voices to keep the peace. We shrink our needs so we don’t seem “too much.” We shrink our bodies, our dreams, our opinions, our boundaries, and sometimes our entire lives, just to fit into spaces that were never built for us. In this episode, I explore the many subtle and not-so-subtle ways we make ourselves small: fawning, over-explaining, apologizing for...

In this episode of  Soul Notes , I explore what happens when we begin to truly listen to the quiet wisdom of our own soul. I talk openly about boundary violations, how they show up, how easily we minimize them, and how often our bodies and intuition are already trying to tell us the truth long before our minds catch up. This is a conversation about learning to trust those inner signals: the discom...

This episode lives in the desert phase of individuation—the stretch where familiar identities fall away, external validation dries up, and the only thing left is your willingness to stay. Ride or Die Radio is for the moments when you’re not seen, not mirrored, not celebrated, and you choose yourself anyway. Show Notes: Individuation Process Overview Song of the Week: Ride or Die Radio by Kassi Ash...

Shame doesn’t just live in our thoughts — it lives in our bodies, our choices, and the parts of ourselves we learned to hide in order to belong. In this episode, I share an overview of  David Bedrick’s Unshaming Way  — a radical and compassionate approach that defines shame in a way that our body and mind can understand. Alongside this framework, I reflect on my own lived experiences of shame — th...

In Jungian language, every temperament corresponds to an archetype. For some of us, the archetype is the working dog — hyper-intelligent, attuned, driven by purpose, and mildly feral when under-utilized. In this episode, I explore what it means to carry that archetype as a human, not after it’s found its calling, but while it’s still looking for one. This is an episode about the gifts and the grie...