May Thoughts Ako

Habang naghihintay ako ng bagong episodes ng Bridgerton , napaisip ako kung gaano ka-structured ang love doon. May courtship. May malinaw na intensyon. May “What are your intentions?” energy na hindi offensive pakinggan. Dito sa real life? May good morning, may update, may lambing… pero pag tinanong mo kung ano kayo, parang ikaw pa yung intense. Sa episode na ’to ng May Thoughts Ako, pinag-usapan...

KPI, or Key Performance Indicator , is basically sukatan. Ginagamit siya para malaman kung “okay ka ba” based sa output, visibility, at results at tuwing Feb 14, parang ganun din ang love at ganda. Sa episode na ’to ng May Thoughts Ako , pinag-usapan natin kung paano nagiging metrics-driven ang pagiging attractive at pagiging in a relationship tuwing Valentine’s Day. Yung subtle pressure na i-pres...

Sa episode na ’to ng May Thoughts Ako , pinag-usapan natin yung realization na habang tumatagal, hindi pala lumalaki yung table mo. Minsan, lumiit lang talaga. Hindi dahil may tinanggal ka, kundi dahil nag-iba yung setup ng buhay mo. We talk about how growth doesn’t always mean adding more people. Paano mo napapansin na may mga taong bagay sa dati mong version, pero hindi na tugma sa current one....

Sa episode na ’to ng May Thoughts Ako , pinag-usapan natin yung klase ng pagkakaibigan na unti-unting nagiging tahimik. Yung wala namang masama, pero wala na ring energy para ipaglaban. Hindi dahil may issue pero dahil nagbago na kayo ng pacing. We talk about how friendships fade without announcement. Paano mo narealize na hindi na kayo magka-update, pero wala ka ring urge mag-reach out. Na minsan...

In this episode of May Thoughts Ako , napansin natin yung moment na minsan, preference lang talaga na ayaw mo. Hindi lahat ng dislikes o boundaries may trauma sa likod. Minsan gusto mo lang umiwas sa crowd, sa over-sharing, o sa usapang hindi mo feel at okay lang ‘yon. Sa episode na ito, i-celebrate natin ang freedom ng ayoko lang , kasi okay lang naman talaga yun. Topics Covered Preferences vs av...

In this episode of May Thoughts Ako , pinag-usapan natin yung moment na narealize mo na hindi lahat ng nararamdaman kailangan mo intindihin agad. Hindi lahat ng thought o emotion kailangan gawing task o deadline. Minsan, puwede lang silang dumaan, pumuwesto sa tabi, at tapos na. We talk about how processing became pressure: feeling like kailangan mo agad i-label, i-fix, or i-decide everything. Eve...

In this episode of May Thoughts Ako , pinag-usapan natin yung moment na narealize mo na hindi mo na kailangan i-justify lahat. Yung dati parang automatic response yung magpaliwanag, tapos ngayon… hindi mo na lang ginawa. At okay lang pala. We talk about why over-explaining became a survival skill. Especially when you’re gay, when you’re different, when sanay kang mag-defend ng choices bago pa itan...

This episode is a continuation of Mag-isa Pero Hindi Lonely . Hindi recap, hindi re-explain. More like the next thought that came after acceptance. EP 3 was realizing na okay lang mag-isa. EP 4 is realizing na dahil dun, mas gumaan pala yung buhay. We talk about what happens after you stop feeling lonely. Yung hindi ka na nagfo-force ng plans, hindi ka na kailangan ng constant noise, at yung silen...

Wala si Mama ngayong Pasko. Miss ko lang siya. In this Christmas episode of May Thoughts Ako , walang malaking realization o life lesson. Kwento lang ng Pasko na mas tahimik kasi wala yung taong dati nagho-hold ng lahat together. Pwedeng malayo siya, umalis, o wala na. Basta siya yung tinuring mong Mama. Hindi ito malungkot na episode. Hindi rin masaya. Ganito lang talaga. 🎄🤍

In this episode of May Thoughts Ako , pinag-usapan natin yung difference ng pagiging mag-isa at pagiging malungkot. Hindi yung aesthetic solitude, hindi rin yung “strong independent” narrative. Just the normal, tahimik kind of alone. Yung umuuwi ka mag-isa. Kumakain ka mag-isa. Tapos tuloy lang yung araw. Pinag-usapan din natin kung bakit awkward sa simula yung silence, bakit ang hirap makasama sa...

Hindi lahat ng healing may IG reel. In this episode of May Thoughts Ako , we talk about the kind of healing that doesn’t look good online. The boring kind. The quiet kind. The kind that chooses rest over chaos and peace over performance. This isn’t about glow-ups or becoming your “best self.” It’s about unlearning the idea that growth has to be impressive, productive, or aesthetic to be real. If y...

This is the first episode of May Thoughts Ako , recorded habang medyo tipsy, medyo reflective, at medyo pagod na mag-react sa mundo. We talk about that quiet realization na hindi ka naman lost. Mas naging mapagmasid ka lang. We talk about why Christmas doesn’t feel as festive as before, bakit hindi na whole-day event ang pag-mall ngayon kumpara dati, and how growing up in your 20s slowly changes h...

Here's to praying mapanindigan ko 'to. Catch May Thoughts Ako every Saturdays! Kailangan ko ba talaga gumawa ng podcast to because I have a lot of unsolicited opinions about life? Unfortunately, yes.