Lament + Light

What happens when a child has to hide the way she was made? In this episode of A Summer of Sorrows , we look at a creature from the world of Fantastic Beasts called the Obscurus — a picture of what forms when glory is forced underground. We sit with John of the Cross, imprisoned by his own order and writing some of the most profound spiritual literature in history from inside a cell. And we open P...

Lament Playlist 1, Nightfall Cries: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/4VRsHb4VKpJHnrI6STkwF1?si=2c1e6cdf9c4c478f Lament Playlist 2: https://open.spotify.com/playlist/1zRvtsw5R3IpbuYo046M4Y?si=151f339f0a6a4ef9 Anne Steele, "Father, Whate'er of Earthly Bliss" (public domain) Psalm 77 Hinds' Feet on High Places, Hannah Hurnard

She was a servant. Pregnant. Fleeing into a wilderness she had not chosen, toward nowhere in particular. And she sat beside a spring alone, with no reason to believe that anyone in the universe knew she was there. And then she was asked a question. Not for the information. For her sake. Where have you come from? What are you carrying? This week we are sitting with Hagar, with a young woman named P...

A Summer of Sorrows — Psalms, Saints and Stories | Lament & Light Podcast → The grief that does not make the prayer chain — and why that does not mean it does not count → Psalm 88: the only psalm in the Psalter that does not turn, and what God is saying by preserving it → Anna Karenina and what happens when interior grief goes unwitnessed for too long → The difference between religiosity and l...

Have you ever worked harder at your faith than you have in any other season of your life, and still felt like you were failing? The more you studied, the more you prayed, the more you tried to bring your mind into submission, and it still did not shift. Not because you lacked faith. But because what you actually needed was not a better spiritual discipline. There is a name for what many of us were...

🎨 Join Paris for Giving Shape to Sorrow — a guided grief art retreat, June 13 (online, 90 min) 💌 Subscribe to ⁠⁠⁠ Notes from the In Between ⁠⁠⁠ ✞ Learn more & go deeper: ⁠⁠⁠⁠Between Grief & Glory Website⁠⁠ Nobody told you what to pick up when the old tools stopped working. They just kept handing you the same ones and wondering why you weren't getting better. This final episode of Thr...

For a long time, I could not read James 1:2 without feeling worse about myself. 'Consider it all joy when you encounter various trials.' If you have ever been handed that verse in the middle of something genuinely hard and felt like you were failing it, this episode is for you. Today we are sitting with what James is actually saying — and what he is not saying. We are going to the garden with Jesu...

🎨 Join Paris for Giving Shape to Sorrow — a guided grief art retreat, June 13 (online, 90 min) 💌 Subscribe to ⁠⁠⁠ Notes from the In Between ⁠⁠⁠ ✞ Learn more & go deeper: ⁠⁠⁠⁠Between Grief & Glory Website⁠⁠ One of the cruelest things about the wall is what it whispers: everyone else's faith is working. Yours is the one that broke. The historical record says otherwise. In this episode, Par...

The Story That's Been Shaping You Behind the Scenes Something happened this week in a relationship that matters to me. A trigger surfaced. My body felt it before my mind had words for it. And for the first time in a while, I could name what was happening before it named me. In this episode we talk about the difference between head faith and embodied faith, how the brain stores and recalls patt...

🎨 Join Paris for Giving Shape to Sorrow — a guided grief art retreat, June 13 (online, 90 min) 💌 Subscribe to ⁠⁠⁠ Notes from the In Between ⁠⁠⁠ ✞ Learn more & go deeper: ⁠⁠⁠⁠Between Grief & Glory Website⁠⁠ You did everything right. You showed up. You pressed on. You did the Bible programs, the prayer lists, the accountability. And somewhere along the way — it stopped working. Not because...

Most of us were taught the Psalms as inspiration. Beautiful, ancient poetry to lift us when we feel low. But David was not writing inspiration. He was  processing . He brought his fear, his rage, his grief, his abandonment — raw, unfiltered, completely unpolished — and he voiced it to God. Not the cleaned-up version. The real one. And what modern neuroscience is now confirming is that what David w...

💌 Subscribe to ⁠⁠⁠ Notes from the In Between ⁠⁠⁠ ✞ Learn more & go deeper: ⁠⁠⁠⁠Between Grief & Glory Website⁠⁠ You are at the wall. But which one? Because not all darkness is the same. And if you have been treating your wall like something it is not — applying remedies that don't fit, wondering why nothing is working — you may have been wandering in the right territory with the wrong map....

You know attachment theory. But have you considered that the same patterns shaping how you relate to people are also shaping how you experience God? In this bonus episode — a bridge between the Wilderness series and the Dark Night of the Soul — Paris explores how our early attachment environments form templates we then press onto God. Why you can believe He is good and still not feel it. Why praye...

🤍 Join us for ⁠⁠⁠ Seen in the Wilderness — May 13 & 14 ⁠⁠⁠ (free, live)   💌 Subscribe to ⁠⁠⁠ Notes from the In Between ⁠⁠⁠ ✞ Learn more & go deeper: ⁠⁠⁠⁠Between Grief & Glory Website⁠⁠ If prayer has felt hollow lately. If Scripture feels like words in a foreign language. If you have gone through the motions of your spiritual life for months — feeling nothing. Not peace. Not warmth. N...

A bonus episode before the series continues — because too many messages have been arriving that could not wait. In this episode, Paris gets honest about where she is right now — not from a place of having arrived, but from the middle of something tender and unresolved. She talks about what it actually looks like when a trigger hits, why the spiral of "I should feel differently by now" is...

🤍 Join us for ⁠⁠⁠ Seen in the Wilderness — May 13 & 14 ⁠⁠⁠ (free, live)   💌 Subscribe to ⁠⁠⁠ Notes from the In Between ⁠⁠⁠ ✞ Learn more & go deeper: ⁠⁠⁠⁠Between Grief & Glory Website⁠⁠ You have tried the programs. Done the Bible studies. Sat in counseling. Pressed through. And something still has not moved. This is not because healing is impossible for you. It is because the approach...

🤍 Join us for ⁠⁠ Seen in the Wilderness — May 13 & 14 ⁠⁠ (free, live)   💌 Subscribe to ⁠⁠ Notes from the In Between ⁠⁠ ✞ Learn more & go deeper: ⁠⁠⁠Between Grief & Glory Website⁠⁠ You heard last week's episode and something in you exhaled.  Yes. That is exactly it. And then — quietly, almost immediately — something else showed up alongside that recognition. A hesitation. A pulling ba...

🤍 Join us for ⁠ Seen in the Wilderness — May 13 & 14 ⁠ (free, live) 💌 Subscribe to ⁠ Notes from the In Between ⁠ ✞ Learn more & go deeper: ⁠⁠Between Grief & Glory Website⁠⁠ You have been praying. Showing up. Doing everything you were taught to do. And something still hasn't moved. This first episode of Lament & Light is for the woman who is not burned out from giving up — but fro...