Nikki Rothrock

Kept Secrets - A podcast about overcoming childhood (sexual) abuse

Education EN ↓ 46 episodes

Welcome to Kept Secrets! I have created this podcast in hopes of helping other survivors of childhood sexual abuse. I dive deep into my personal experiences and treatment that helped to heal the brokenness. At the age of 5-6 years old, my abuse started and continued for many years. I discuss how PTSD, depression and anxiety have affected my life. I also discuss how I have been able to overcome the abuse and move into a very stable and happy life. I'm not a therapist; I just talk about my own experiences with my psychologist.

Author

Nikki Rothrock

Category

Education

Podcast website

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Latest episode

Jun 17, 2026

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Episodes

Episode 46 - Let’s talk about trauma bonding and how it happens! 17.06.2026

In this episode, I discuss trauma bonding. I will give specific examples from my past and how bonding happened with my abuser. I even explain the difference between Stockholm Syndrome and trauma bonding. I hope you will find this episode valuable.

Episode 45 - What happened when my abuser reached out to me on social media?! 10.06.2026

Let’s talk about what happened when Tom, my main abuser, reached out to me via social media. This has been a recent event in my life and I talk about the way that it’s affected me emotionally over the past couple of weeks. This episode is a little longer than normal, but I do dive into the history that Tom and I had and the trauma bond that I experience.

Episode 44 - A Little Catching Up… 19.02.2026

Hello!! I’m back with a catch up episode. A lot has changed this past year. I talk about how my trauma and PTSD have been affected by weight loss surgery, job loss and my new daily life.

Episode 43 - Overcoming Shame and Guilt After Sexual Abuse.wav 20.02.2025

If you have ever felt guilt and shame about being abused, you will want to listen to this episode. I talk about my own feelings and how I was able to work through freeing myself of the guilt and shame from the truama.

Episode 42 - Ways to Reclaim Your Life After Trauma with Self-Care 05.02.2025

In this episode, I will tell you about a few ways to show yourself self-care after trauma. Self-care is so important in our healing! (I'm still working on sound stuff. I'm sorry for any of the background noise you hear!)

Episode 41 - 10 Exercises to Heal Your Inner Child 12.11.2024

In this episode, I will discuss an online article and give you some personal examples of how I was able to reach my inner child and work with her.

Episode 40 - The Menendez Brothers and Why Children Don't Tell...Putting it Together! 21.10.2024

In this episode, I will discuss the Menendez Brother's case and why children don't talk or tell about abuse. Then, I discuss my opinion on both cases and link them together.

Episode 39 - Childhood Trauma: Signs You're Repressing Traumatic Memories 14.10.2024

In this episode I will talk about signs of repressing your traumatic memories. I use a few personal examples. I hope it's helpful.

Episode 38 - How childhood trauma and dissociation result in horrible adult problems 23.09.2024

This episode discusses how we dissociate and the longer-term problems that occur in our lives.

Episode 37 - What is the link between trauma and dissociation? And an update about my Alcatraz visit 16.09.2024

Let’s talk about the link between trauma and dissociation.

Mini Episode - 36: Quick update: Two days until I return to Alcatraz Island 01.07.2024

A quick update on feelings and anxieties about returning to where my healing began in 2007.

Episode - 35 Are you a codependent survivor of childhood sexual abuse? 27.03.2024

In this episode, I discuss symptoms of codependency and how to escape it.

Episode 34 - Part 3 // Living with Trauma: How to Cope with Flashbacks 22.02.2024

In this episode, I will give examples of flashbacks and things that you can do to cope. I will also discuss personal experience.

Episode 33 - Part 2 // Post-traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) 01.02.2024

Part 2 about Post-traumatic Stress Disorder. I give personal experiences and discuss treatment options.

Episode - 32 Part 1 // Post-traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD) 24.01.2024

In this episode, I give some detail about what PTSD is like for me.

Episode 31 - Living w/someone who has PTSD. Special guest, my husband, Ryan 03.11.2023

Previously recorded but not shared on Spotify.

Episode 30 - Listener’s Story #2 Julie’s Story 23.10.2023

This episode is Julie’s story. It’s crazy how much she and I have in common. Take a listen!

Episode 29 - Listener’s Story #1 - Anna’s Story 18.10.2023

This is our FIRST listener story! Anna’s story is a powerful story. You have to listen!

Episode 28 - Let’s talk about how to improve our self-esteem 09.10.2023

In this episode, I will give 6 ways you can help boost your self-esteem

Episode 27 - Let’s talk about low self-esteem 13.09.2023

In this episode, I will talk about low self-esteem and see if we have it

Episode 26 - Let’s talk about long-term side effects of childhood trauma 31.08.2023

In this episode I will give some examples of the long-term side effects that I personally struggle with and a little more…

Episode 25 - Let’s talk about ‘How Childhood Trauma May Affect Adult Relationships’ 02.08.2023

In this episode, I will discuss why we may have issues in our adult relationships. I also give some examples.

Episode 24- Let’s talk about why children don’t tell they were abused 21.06.2023

In this episode, I will talk about reasons why kids don’t tell anyone when they are sexually abused.

Episode 23 - Let’s talk about adult behaviors of someone who has experienced trauma as a child 14.06.2023

And this episode, I will talk about five different adult behaviors of someone that has experienced trauma as a child. I will also give a few examples of my own.

Episode 22 - Let’s talk about finding and getting to know YOUR inner child 10.05.2023

In this episode, I will give examples of what you can do (and what I did) to find and nurture my inner child.

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