Just One Foot Forward

Every other episode this season has been my story. This one is different. This episode is about a close friend of mine and what happened to her family. I'm not going to share details that would identify her. But what I watched her go through, and what it did to me, and what I learned from her, changed me. Sudden loss is like a strike of lightning on a clear day. No lead up. No chance to brace....

Part 1 ended with a breath we could finally take. This one starts right after that breath, and keeps going. This episode is being recorded from the middle of something that isn't over yet. Seven plus months in, still managing, still waiting, still not done. I take you through what the long stretch actually looks like. The pattern of up two weeks and down. The Shabbos morning he stood at the pl...

One Saturday morning I noticed bruises all over my son's legs. Not a few here and there. All over them. And I couldn't explain it. In this episode I take you through the beginning of what became a seven plus month medical journey with my son. The fear that built with every new symptom. The waiting rooms and the blood work and the middle of the night ambulance transfer. And the four days we...

Nobody brings you casseroles for this kind of grief. There is no funeral. Sometimes there is not even a diagnosis yet. In this episode I talk about what it feels like to watch your child suffer without answers. The fear that sits underneath everything when there is no ceiling on what it could be. The exhaustion of going from doctor to ER to doctor and still not knowing. And the moment I sat in a r...

When I was in 7th grade my mom had a miscarriage. I carried guilt about one specific moment from that day for a very long time. This episode is about what happens to the child in the house when a miscarriage occurs. The one who is old enough to understand but too young to know what to do with it. It is for parents, for teachers, for anyone who interacts with a child going through this. And it is f...

Episode 3 was heavy. I know that. And after hearing some feedback from listeners, I wanted to come back and add something I didn't say. This one is short. But I think it matters. Find me at JustOneFootForward.com, on Instagram at justonefootforward, or reach out at ⁠JustOneFootForward@gmail.com

Nobody tells you that a miscarriage doesn't always end at the miscarriage. That when you're pregnant again it's not all smiles and sunshine. That the people around you will be happy and excited and you may not be able to match that at all. In this episode I talk about what pregnancy after loss actually feels like from the inside. The anxiety that becomes physical. The hiding. The not b...

Have you ever felt like you couldn't take even one step forward? For whatever reason, grief, pain, or you were overwhelmed? In this first episode I introduce myself and tell you why I'm here. I talk about who this podcast is for, what we're going to cover, and why I started it. If you found this, it was for a reason. I’m here. And I've got you. Find me at JustOneFootForward.com, on...

In this episode I talk about what nobody tells you about miscarriage. Not the medical facts. The real stuff. What it feels like to smile through it. What it feels like to lose a baby and then have the world keep moving around you like nothing happened. If you've been there, this one is for you. And if someone you love has been there, this one is for you too. If you found this, it was for a rea...