Just Existing

after last week's episode, i wanted to have a bit more of a life catch-up. we're talking about why i think so many women hold themselves back, why having a bit more audacity might actually change your life, and how i realised i've stopped backing myself the way i used to. i also chat about DJing, kayaking in norway, wimbledon, the world cup, the Jamie Laing backlash, and everything else that's bee...

this week's episode is a little different. i've never properly spoken about my experience growing up mixed race, how it's shaped my identity, or why representation has become so important to me. after reading your comments, it felt like the right time to finally have this conversation. we talk about growing up in newcastle, love island, representation, race, belonging, black identity, my books, an...

this week we're talking all things love island, the world cup and formula 1 😭 from my raw thoughts on this year's villa to football fever taking over and whether kim kardashian has finally broken the infamous f1 curse. we also get into celebrity culture, parasocial relationships, supporting your friends instead of strangers on the internet, and all the things that have been winding me up lately....

i missed another episode 😭 but i'm back and this week we're talking about one thing that's been driving me mad... grifters. from online courses and content creators selling the dream, to self-optimisation culture and why i think we've forgotten how to actually enjoy life. yes... that includes my thoughts on steven bartlett. we also get into my latest tyrique stream, love island, dating rumours, a...

this episode is a bit of a catch up 😭 we talk new medication, my adhd brain, going out sober in manchester, type a friends, why i think people need to have more fun and why i’m mentally already on annual leave. also… thoughts on posting family online and where i’m at with that. life is a lot right now. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices

this episode is a bit of a life update 😭 lately i feel like i’ve been doing too much, not slowing down enough, and honestly just feeling overwhelmed by everything going on in the world. we talk not enjoying work the same way, my psychiatrist review, needing to get back to raving, the james charles drama, drake’s new album, speaking in parliament, euphoria and vanessa fury getting married. a chaot...

this week i’m joined by my best friend ruby and honestly… nothing is off the table 😭 we’re talking the met gala, relationships, insecurity, friends with benefits, dating people less attractive than you, whether we want kids, and all the brutally honest opinions in between. chaotic, opinionated and probably oversharing as usual. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices

this episode is a bit chaotic 😭 i have so much to talk about… from the megan thee stallion and klay thompson drama, to the piers morgan vs russell brand situation, and the very unexpected discovery that people are rating my feet online?? we also get into life updates, fitness chaos, whether i should run the london marathon, and i answer your dilemmas. there’s a lot going on. Learn more about your...

this episode is a bit of a chaotic catch up 😭 my energy has been feeling off, i’m changing meds, had a wet weekend, went to cornwall and have been thinking a lot about my self-concept and how i see myself. we also get into i’m a celeb, the sidemen charity match, alex vs alix drama, and whether i’m actually ready to date again… a lot to unpack. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoice...

this episode i share all my unfilleted thoughts, we’re reacting to the “age of attraction” debate (which is actually gross), coachella, justin vs sabrina, rating the fits, and whether it’s all getting a bit basic… plus tyson fury calling out anthony joshua. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices

i have so much to catch you up on, i don’t even know where to start 😭 this episode is a little chaotic. we talk adhd medication changes, the louis theroux doc, spring resets, the mobo awards, hiking mont blanc, being on joe baggs’ podcast, beyoncé maybe doing a rock tour?! and the bachelorette drama! there’s a lot to get into here... Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adch...

sorry i missed a week 😭 but i’m back and we have a lot to unpack. i watched louis theroux’s documentary on the manosphere and i have questionssss. what actually is going on online right now?? we talk insecurity, weird podcast takes, and why some of this content is blowing up. also… why did hstikkytokky follow me… eww. there’s a lot to get into. Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoic...

this episode is dedicated to reacting to the viral wright at home podcast clip where a group of women said women shouldn’t be wearing thong bikinis on the beach. i’m not going to lie… this has raged me 😭 why are women still commenting on what other women choose to wear? why are we still policing women’s bodies? if someone wants to wear the smallest piece of dental floss to the beach, let them. we...

this episode is a bit of a life catch up. we talk milan fashion week with diesel, speaking at cambridge university, what really happened at the brits and my honest thoughts on some of the performances. sorry harry :( life recently has been a bit chaotic so let’s catch up. follow on instagram: @justexisting all things amber: @amberrosegill Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/...

this week we unpack why i genuinely don’t care if people don’t like me, why small talk drains my soul, leo delusion, dictatorship tendencies, london fashion week and the romantic books i’m currently obsessed with. people are weird. i’m fine with it. follow on instagram: @justexisting all things amber: @amberrosegill Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices

this episode is all about the year of the fire horse. we talk what it means, how to prepare, what you should do on the day, traditions, energy shifts and how to make this year work for you. new year, new energy, forward motion only. follow on instagram: @justexisting all things amber: @amberrosegill Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices

i’m in my luteal phase… brb 😭 today we’re talking boundaries, learning to say no, protecting your energy and time, and finally letting go of people pleasing. sometimes the most powerful thing you can say is no. follow on instagram: @justexisting all things amber: @amberrosegill Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices

this episode is a deep one. we’re talking self acceptance, coming out, mental health, learning not to shrink yourself, and why the most important relationship you’ll ever have is the one with yourself. if you’ve ever felt like you’re “too much” or thought something was wrong with you, this one’s for you. follow on instagram: @justexisting all things amber: @amberrosegill Learn more about your ad c...

this episode is a pop culture spiral 😭 we’re deep diving into the beckhams, who’s actually in the wrong, and why i don’t think people should ask women to respond with grace and decorum! we also talk housewives obsession, shame kinks (don’t ask), love island all stars and why some men are annoyingly fit, plus a very steamy review of a new series that caused a heated rivalry in my brain. consider t...

this episode is all about friendship burnout, feeling drained, outgrowing people, and realising you can’t be everything to everyone anymore 😭 we’re talking friendship breakups, golden circles, being selfish (in a healthy way), therapy culture, neurodivergence and why ending friendships doesn’t make you a bad person. this one might hit a little close to home. follow on instagram: @justexisting all...

this week i’m talking about the weird rules i’ve made up for my life, why i want to be single, being on the property ladder, closing friendship applications, brain rot, the traitors and getting trapped watching cbbc 😭 follow on instagram: @justexisting all things amber: @amberrosegill Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices

this episode is a bit of a catch up. christmas break, feeling off, questioning everything, losing my spiritual side and trying to find it again 😭 we talk manifesting, new years rituals, stranger things spoilers, love island all stars and what i actually want from 2026. follow on instagram: @justexisting all things amber: @amberrosegill Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/ad...

it’s time for my 2026 rebrand bitches. this episode is all about what we’re keeping, what we’re leaving, and what absolutely needs to be retired before the new year 😭 we’re talking pop culture chaos, boyfriends being embarrassing, milestones, seeing beyoncé four times (as one should), things we desperately need to bring back, and an aita new years special to finish it off. consider this my offici...

this week we’re diving into christmas work party confessions… and honestly some of you need to be stopped 😭 from sneaky links and work wives, to strip club stories and things that should never be admitted on camera. merry christmas i guess. follow on instagram: @justexisting all things amber: @amberrosegill Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices

quick disclaimer: i’m not a medical professional, this is just my experience, not advice. this week is all about my adhd journey with medication, being back on meds, getting diagnosed later in life, feeling overwhelmed, forgetting to drink water, and asking the questions everyone actually wants answers to 😭 Learn more about your ad choices. Visit podcastchoices.com/adchoices