Lana Manikowski
IVF Failed You - The "So Now What?" Podcast
I am an infertility survivor—the kind you never hope to become: childless. After enduring multiple rounds of IUI and IVF at some of the leading fertility centers, I was advised to discontinue treatment. When my fertility journey ended, I was offered no resources to help me navigate the reality of an unexpected childless life. I was left asking: So now what? In the years that followed, I tried to convince myself I'd be OK, but I wasn't. I felt shattered, alone, and failed—not just by the process but by my own body. I longed for someone who truly understood the pain I felt, a guide to help me na...
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Lana Manikowski
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Jul 9, 2026
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Episodes
Navigating Your Career After Infertility 10.11.2022 10:29
Have you noticed that since finding out that you weren't gonna be a mom, you felt as though your life is at a standstill. Is life just going on around you and you were sort of in this surf of life, so you might be moving forward, but not necessarily by your own projection? Do you feel like you were are moving forward on this wave in your career, but you didn't really have sort of a grounding on wh...
How to Love Your Life After IVF 02.11.2022 15:34
Do you know how good that feels for 60 weeks? I don't know if I've ever been so consistent about anything for 60 weeks, but it feels so good to show up here every week and connect with you. And for those of you, you know who you are. It's people like you who are continuously showing up every week. Working to create a life that feels fulfilling and you feel like you're thriving again. and you ar...
Infertility Can Keep You Captive 25.10.2022 13:51
This week I want to talk about part 2 of Episode 58 where we talked about people feeling sorry for us. If you haven't listened to that episode, I advise you go back and listen to that first and kind of get a little bit of context about what I'm going to talk about this week. This past weekend we had a wedding in our ethnic community. If you don't know, my family is originally from Serbia , so we...
No Need to Feel Sorry for Me 19.10.2022 11:53
things are progressing here. everything. Um, thrive after infertility, moving along fabulously. I'm just so in love with the program. I can't wait to talk about when we're gonna open the doors again. If it sounds like something you're interested, let me know now because I think I'm gonna keep it at a small group. I love the vibe, I love the personal interaction we have with one another. I love tha...
Infertility Is So Challenging 12.10.2022 12:01
We launched Thrive after Infertility last week. We had our first class on Wednesday, and can I just tell you, it was magic. It was magic for me. I know it was magic for the women that chose to go on this three month journey with me, and I'm just so proud of the women that have chosen. To make change in their life because I know what it feels like to feel stuck and feel like there's just nothing wo...
Infertility is So Challenging 12.10.2022 12:01
We launched Thrive after Infertility last week. We had our first class on Wednesday, and can I just tell you, it was magic. It was magic for me. I know it was magic for the women that chose to go on this three month journey with me, and I'm just so proud of the women that have chosen. To make change in their life because I know what it feels like to feel stuck and feel like there's just nothing wo...
The Life We Dreamed Of 04.10.2022 11:02
I want to talk about a topic this week and offer you some opportunity to do some belief work in your own life. So, you know that I teach about the BFA cycle, so the belief, feel, act cycle, and one of the most. Eye opening and liberating parts of my journey of navigating my future. When I found out that I was not going to be a mom, the thing that I just always assumed my whole life, I would be....
Speaking Up for Women with Infertility 27.09.2022 13:38
How are you? How is this life of yours? How are you feeling? How are you doing and what are you doing to make changes in your life and in your future? That is my big question to you because I think so many of us get caught in believing that life is just always going to feel this way. If you hear me speak often, you might hear me give the equation of my life, at one time, I always believed would ma...
Will My Marriage Be Enough? 20.09.2022 11:40
I am freshly back from vacation; this is our first time we did any time away since COVID we went to wine country in Sonoma. And hung out there for a few days. And then my sister and her husband came and had just such a glorious time. We really had a lot of fun Jack and I really travel well together. When we travel, I love that we're on the same wavelength because we are adventures. We just like to...
Loving Your Body Again 13.09.2022 12:04
I am so committed to you, this community, and to myself to continue showing up every week, and offering you an opportunity to see that loving your life again, after failing IVF. Failing your infertility treatments does not have to be the end of your story. I am so grateful that these last 52 weeks (and now this 53) we are continuously growing and knowing that each of you are finding a way to dec...
Happy 1st Birthday 07.09.2022 10:08
Happy Birthday. It is hard to know what you would have blossomed into when I hit "publish" on Episode 1. I was so uncomfortable sharing the emotions I felt and beliefs I clung to for years after failing any last IVF cycle and finding out any one frozen embryo had Trisomy-16 and would never be viable for implantation. For years I clung to this belief that my life would never feel truly full because...
Grieving the Motherhood You Didn't Achieve 30.08.2022 13:04
As of today, we are just over 8,500 downloads of the podcast, which just tells me that there is more work to be done because at the rate, the podcast is growing, i t's apparent women are searching to love their life, if they couldn't become a mom Preparing for this episode, I've been thinking quite a bit - mostly because it comes up quite often when I'm doing teaching - if it's possible to be grie...
Passing Time After Failing IVF 24.08.2022 10:55
I am doing great. I am just very overjoyed. Lot of good stuff going on. I feel like between the. Upcoming thrive after infertility mastermind that I'm putting together. And then some new clients I started working with in my private one-on-one coaching. I am just buzzing over here and it feels really good. So my week so far is off to a good start and I hope you are doing everything that you possibl...
Finding Your Purpose Without Children 16.08.2022 14:20
Thank you for coming to listen to another episode, as you know, I am getting close to my 52nd Episode hard to believe it's gonna be almost a year that I started this podcast. I started it out super simple just by deciding to tell my story for the first time, and it has flourished into something more amazing than I could have ever imagined. Since that first episode I have been showing up here every...
Finding New Friends When You Are Childless 09.08.2022 12:47
I am feeling so full, so grateful and so energized by the amazing students that I've been working with and all of the people that have been so receptive to my new coaching collective that I presented to you on Episode 47 last week. First, I just want to say thank you for your interest in becoming the best version of you. For so long. I lived my life believing that if I couldn't become a mom, I wo...
Friendships When You Are Childless 02.08.2022 20:32
As women without children, you are not alone if you question your relevance in your existing friendships, especially when there's lots of mom and kid talk in your social gatherings. So many of my students wrestle with the feelings of alienation, lacking or detachment when thinking that you don't have anything in common or you can't relate to a friend or a group of friends that used to be your cre...
What Type of Childless Life Will You Fight For? 26.07.2022 13:02
We fight for thoughts that don't feel good to us. Many of us have a past that did not go as we had planned, dreamed and hoped for. We commonly feel defeated or like we were helpless in a circumstance of going through IVF, and doing all the things that our protocols asked of us, our doctors asked us and we couldn't become moms. But that is in your past. If you are attracted to what I teach every we...
Feeling Out of Control After Failing IVF 20.07.2022 15:11
This week we are talking about feeling in control. It's easy to feel out of control during your fertility treatments, but when your fertility treatments end and you are left without a baby that's a whole nother set up uncontrollables you feel like you have been dealt. The reason we feel out of control isn't actually because we have less control than we did before we started on our fertility treatm...
You Can Always Adopt 12.07.2022 11:34
I am so appreciative for the reviews that have been coming in on the podcast. I got one this week, and I wanted to share it with you. Listening has helped me view my life as child free instead of childless, shifting, my mindset helped me so much. Asyou know, I have a goal of 10,000 downloads of the podcast by September of this year. The more ratings and reviews I get, the more likely it's g...
Being Selfish 06.07.2022 13:41
This week we talk about being selfish. A word we think is bad. We spend so much of our life doing for others in the hope we will please them and we forget to ask ourselves why we do things that we genuinely want to do. Women with infertility get invited to baby showers. Even though it may be painful because we failed multiple rounds of IVF and will never have a baby, we go to the baby shower. W...
My Body Didn't Do What it Was Designed To 30.06.2022 10:08
I am back from an amazing weekend in Colorado. As you know, I have been doing a deep dive into reinvention. The belief reinvention experience has been so transformative, so many of you have reached out and really decided that you were ready to take control over what you're believing about yourself and believing about your body, believing about what you're capable of, because you couldn't have chil...
How People Make Us Feel 21.06.2022 15:43
Thanks for joining us again on the, so now what podcast, first off wanna tell you, thank you to everyone who gave me a rating and review of the podcast. As you know, I am repeating every week that I have a goal of 10,000 downloads of the podcast. By labor day of this year. So if you've listened to an episode and it has spoken to you, if you've taken just a glimmer of a new Pearl or a new thought...
Our Instruction Manual 14.06.2022 11:49
I am just wrapping up a week of being a solo dog mom. My husband has been away for 10 days on a "boy's trip'' in Greece . So many people are amazed that my hubby would go out of town and I'm OK with it. REALLY!?! I've loved my alone time and the opportunity to hone in on some coaching concepts I've been working on in my own life, and preparing lessons for my students in The Belief Reinvent...
Our Instruction Manual 14.06.2022 11:49
I am just wrapping up a week of being a solo dog mom. My husband has been away for 10 days on a "boy's trip'' in Greece . So many people are amazed that my hubby would go out of town and I'm OK with it. REALLY!?! I've loved my alone time and the opportunity to hone in on some coaching concepts I've been working on in my own life, and preparing lessons for my students in The Belief Reinvent...
Getting to Neutral About Life After Failed IVF 07.06.2022 11:37
The Belief Reinvention Experience is in full pilot mode. - some students already made their way through the 4 weeks, - new students starting this week, -some in the midst of it. The feedback I'm getting is really, really favorable. So if it's something that you're on the fence about, DO IT!! It's $300 for four 1:1 sessions with me…it's the steal of the century. What investment could impact yo...
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