Lana Manikowski
IVF Failed You - The "So Now What?" Podcast
I am an infertility survivor—the kind you never hope to become: childless. After enduring multiple rounds of IUI and IVF at some of the leading fertility centers, I was advised to discontinue treatment. When my fertility journey ended, I was offered no resources to help me navigate the reality of an unexpected childless life. I was left asking: So now what? In the years that followed, I tried to convince myself I'd be OK, but I wasn't. I felt shattered, alone, and failed—not just by the process but by my own body. I longed for someone who truly understood the pain I felt, a guide to help me na...
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Lana Manikowski
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Jul 9, 2026
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Episodes
National Infertility Awareness Week 2023 25.04.2023 10:44
we are just in the kickoff of National Infertility Awareness Week , this is something that I am very grateful for Because I think the conversation around infertility needs to be more abundant, and I think that there needs to be a broader understanding that infertility does not always end up with having a child, and that people who go through , fertility treatments don't always end up pregnant. And...
National Infertility Awareness Week 2023 25.04.2023 10:44
we are just in the kickoff of National Infertility Awareness Week , this is something that I am very grateful for Because I think the conversation around infertility needs to be more abundant, and I think that there needs to be a broader understanding that infertility does not always end up with having a child, and that people who go through , fertility treatments don't always end up pregnant. And...
Infertility Can Have You Feeling Disconnected 18.04.2023 13:57
I'm so excited to talk to you about something that comes up so often for those of us whose life ended up so differently than we thought it would, and that is connection. When you think about connection, what comes up for you? Take a minute and just think about connection. Does it mean someone understanding you? Does it mean someone looking like you? Does it mean somebody's story that parallels you...
Things Didn't Work Out as Planned 11.04.2023 16:28
I know a lot of you have been following along on my journey of applying for a new job at work and taking my career in a bit of a different direction. Since my fertility journey ended, I felt like I was a little bit stuck in where I was in my workspace, and so back in September. A new position opened at work. I applied for it, it got put on hold, opened up again in January and I started the intervi...
How Are you Coming Along? 04.04.2023 8:07
We just finished a really fun time in my sales organization - I had a great quarter at work and I feel really proud of where I am. I had my final interview for the job that I've been interviewing for, so I will keep you posted when I find out if I get the job, but either way….it felt really good to want something and really desire for movement in my life and take more of an inventory of what I've...
Getting S%#T Done 28.03.2023 11:16
One more week of creating connection. One more week to find more women. Who I have just been searching for a community to join after finding out that they can't become a mom. Know that I come here every week with so much excitement in my heart and so much desire to really create that connection that I so wanted at this point where you might be in your journey know that you're not alone, and know...
I Love You (and there's nothing you can do about it) 21.03.2023 12:09
I'm so glad that you chose to come back again and listen to another episode of the podcast. It goes without saying that. The more opportunity I have to reach other women who might be struggling or might be feeling alone or feeling like they don't have a place in the world or not welcomed in their workplace, in their church, in their families because they don't have children. That's what drives...
Your Seat at the Table 14.03.2023 12:28
St. Patrick's Day is always historically such a celebration. And where we live in the city was kind of like in the height of everything that was going on. On my morning thrive after infertility mastermind call with our Saturday cohort. And I was looking at the window and the parade route was assembling; people were buzzing through the city with green on. Jack came home from running some errands a...
What You Are Creating 07.03.2023 11:00
I am so excited to talk to you this week about an area of focus that I learned. When I was in my life coach certification. Something, my teacher, Brooke Castillo taught me about consuming versus creating. One of the things that brought this topic to light for me most recently was receiving a message from one of my listeners of the podcast, and I'm gonna read you this message I received from he...
Being Childless and Dying Old and Alone in a Nursing Home 01.03.2023 12:53
I mentioned to you last week that we were going to Lake Tahoe for our annual trip with my niece and nephew, my sister and brother-in-law, and I am just feeling so fortunate that I've been able to be an aunt and my niece and nephew. My sister and brother-in-law really have made it a priority to include Jack and I in the life of their children, and it's something that I don't at all take for gran...
Handling Baby Shower Invites 21.02.2023 12:35
Hey, beautiful one. I have this YouTube channel up and bumpin, so if you haven't checked it out yet, go to YouTube and search for Lana. Mankowski. On YouTube and if you would just give it a follow, I would so appreciate it. That way more women like us can find each other and create bonds and create a community that I know I so needed when my fertility journey ended and I didn't become a mom. Hope...
Purpose After Infertility 14.02.2023 15:11
I launched a YouTube channel , so I'm trying something different. I am going to be simultaneously video recording when I audio record a podcast, so you need to go to YouTube. Make sure you follow my YouTube channel . You listen to the podcast, you can see me in the trenches as I'm recording each week's episode. I wanted to talk about something this week that is probably one of the largest stick...
Purpose After Infertility 14.02.2023 15:11
I launched a YouTube channel , so I'm trying something different. I am going to be simultaneously video recording when I audio record a podcast, so you need to go to YouTube. Make sure you follow my YouTube channel . You listen to the podcast, you can see me in the trenches as I'm recording each week's episode. I wanted to talk about something this week that is probably one of the largest stick...
Starting to Feel Better After Infertility 07.02.2023 12:13
I am teaching a training class in Minnesota. I just feel so grateful to play a role in the lives of folks that are starting out their career and folks that are energized and ready to embrace what it is to create their own brand for themselves in the corporate workplace. Being a sales trainer is something that is definitely an honor. To be chosen to be one for my organization. What I wanna talk...
Dealing With Failure After Failed IVF 01.02.2023 12:56
I was on a bit of a two week jaunt, running around, getting a lot of things done in my life, and I took a little step away from the podcast, which full disclosure I had a ton of judgment about because I felt like something was wrong with me for not being able to pull it all together and keep it all going. But that is why the power of coaching is so amazing. I paid attention to the thoughts tha...
Compensating for Being Childless 11.01.2023 16:30
I've been thinking about you all week and so excited to share this week's episode with you because it is such an enlightening moment that I recently had, and I wanted to find the right words and opportunity to share this concept with you. There is so much of our life that is amazing and whether it's times that we went through our fertility journey before we even knew we had infertility, before we...
Choosing a Word for Your New Year 03.01.2023 16:51
I know that you are so looking forward to this year being so different and more light and more energizing than last year was, and I want to recognize that if you are not feeling the joys and the excitement and the desire to create a list of 40 new resolutions for yourself, you are not alone. I know those feelings that I used to feel when a new year would come around and I would just sort of fee...
Your Infertility Story 28.12.2022 14:45
thank you for listening to the podcast today, and if you landed on this podcast and something attracted you to it, listen to that little voice in your brain. That is telling you that you want more from your story and that you want more from your life than to just chalk life up to being average and mediocre because you weren't able to have the family you always dreamed of. If this is your first t...
The Feelings We Wanted from Motherhood 21.12.2022 10:49
I am so happy to be here and feeling so great about the magic that we can absolutely make in our lives when we go all in on ourselves and when we decide that these feelings of dread and these feelings of inadequacy and question, and all the things that I felt when I finished my infertility journey, and you might still be feeling today, knowing that all those things are optional. Is just such an...
What Do You Desire Most? 13.12.2022 10:43
You are listening to the So now what podcast with Lana Mankowski, episode number 65. So now what These three words raced through my mind time and time again during my journey through fertility treatments. I tried desperately to have a child, but never was able. I yearned for a community to join that could understand my struggles. I couldn't find one, so I created one with the So now what podcast...
What Do You Desire Most? 13.12.2022 10:43
You are listening to the So now what podcast with Lana Mankowski, episode number 65. So now what These three words raced through my mind time and time again during my journey through fertility treatments. I tried desperately to have a child, but never was able. I yearned for a community to join that could understand my struggles. I couldn't find one, so I created one with the So now what podcast...
Who Will Take Care of You? 07.12.2022 11:57
How is your week going, you beautiful one. I hope everyone is feeling prepared for the holidays. If you've been on one of my recent calls on feeling festive, I hope that you've been able to implement some of the gold that we have uncovered on those calls, and if you haven't had a chance to get on a call yet, don't you worry. I actually have two more Facebook Lives planned. One is for the 18th an...
Feeling "Good Enough" 29.11.2022 12:49
This week we talk about why we being good enough is unattainable for us. It feels like it's just something that we never fully achieve, that we do these things, we try these things. Are put into circumstances that we weren't necessarily expecting to have, and we go at life feeling like, mm, my life's gonna be okay. It'll be like average, but it's just never gonna be good enough. There's always gon...
Holiday Bonus Call 24.11.2022 18:40
This week you will get a glimpse into a LIVE call I did about handling the Holidays. Here's the key takeaways: This will be the last day you are going to have to struggle around the holidays How to deal with family and friends when you ae unable to have children Get clear on mental exercises you can use to create lifelong practices How to feel recognized and gratified even though IVF didn't work...
Childless Around the Holidays 15.11.2022 15:56
Are you starting to get these holiday blues that just seem to be inevitable this time of year? Cause if you are, you are in the right place. I am going to be doing a deep dive into the holidays, and I'm going to start off this week by talking about the holidays more on the podcast, but I'm also going to be hosting a free call this coming Saturday November 19th at 11:00 AM Central and the reason I...
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