“ignoramus” w/ kJoiee ✨

In Episode 10, we talk about what it really means to honor your feelings — even the uncomfortable ones. Growth asks for truth, not perfection. Sometimes choosing yourself comes with consequences that sting, but that doesn't make the choice any less divine. This episode is a soft reminder that you can hold joy and grief at the same time - that you can be proud of your progress while still processin...

This episode is a quick, unfiltered check-in. I open up about the delay, share what’s been happening behind the scenes, and take a moment to thank you for your patience and continued support. More than that, this episode is about grace—how you’ve given it to me, and how you can give it to yourself. We talk about love, self-compassion, and creating a sense of safety within your own space. It’s shor...

We’re all given a blueprint for love: these are the rules for friendship, these are the rules for romance. But what happens when a connection defies the plan? After the pressure to label and define her relationships landed her in the hospital, host Kevineh kJoiee Emman Freeman is deconstructing the architecture of connection. In this episode, she explores the rift between society's scripts and our...

A reflection on retreating inward. In this episode, I explore what it means to exist inside my shell—not out of fear, but out of necessity. It’s about overstimulation, quiet survival, and learning to honor stillness without shame.

In this deeply personal episode, I open up about the quiet pain of feeling dismissed, unheard, and betrayed by people I once trusted — from a decade-long friendship, to an ex, to a job that called me “family” and still threw me away. We’re unpacking what it means to try over and over again and still not be received… and how to honor the hurt, even when you’re told to “move on.” This one’s for anyo...

What does it really mean when we feel a spark with someone? Is it love? Destiny? Or just something deeply familiar? In this episode of Ignoramus, we untangle the messy truth behind the idea of “meant to be.” Through the lens of ADHD, relational trauma, and emotional re-patterning, we explore how intensity can disguise itself as alignment—and why so many of us feel an almost spiritual obligation to...

What do you do when love lingers, but connection doesn’t? In this episode of Ignoramus, host Kevineh kJoiee Emman Freeman unpacks the grief that comes not from being left—but from staying. From holding onto a bond that once felt mutual but now feels misaligned. From loving the potential in someone who no longer lives up to the person they once promised to be. Through raw journaling, reflection, an...

What do we owe the people we love? And what do we owe ourselves? In this episode, I explore the complicated and tender space between community and self-preservation. I reflect on the friendships that changed me, the betrayals that broke me, and the lessons that taught me what real accountability—and real love—actually look like. From bell hooks to Justin Bieber, from chosen family to personal grie...

In this episode, we dive into the blurry line between healing and hiding. I unpack how ADHD, self-diagnosis, and the internet’s aesthetic obsession with “healing” can keep us stuck in performance instead of progress. We talk about what it really means to check in with yourself—and how easy it is to bypass your own truth in exchange for feeling seen online. If you’ve ever wondered whether you’re ac...

After years of surviving, performing, and pouring into everyone but myself—I had to ask the real question: who am I when I’m not pretending? In this reintroduction to Ignoramus, I open up about heartbreak, identity loss, and the uncomfortable beauty of coming back to yourself. If you’ve ever had to start over with the version of you no one clapped for… this one’s for you.

breakups and heart break go hand in hand but how often do we think about breakups and the brain? we are continually experiencing shifts and changes within our everyday lives; in this episode we talk about breakups and it’s heavy role on your brain’s cognitive functionality and processes. so when you think you’re crazy and alone, trust it’s not just you!

how often do you place your needs as secondary? how often do you ask yourself what your needs are? here we talk about loyalty to yourself first and the need to channel your own voice. special guest & artist Stanley joins us to talk about his breakup experiences and learned life lessons. we also are joined by my mother who shares her insights with us on heartache and the progression through it.

have you ever been scrolling through dating apps and think is this person a slob? do they shower? are they a creep? why? what are your questions rooted in? are they really your concerns or ones you think you should have simply based on what they look like? this week we talk about fat phobia in dating and the ignorance that come up when trying to find a date. we get real again about my feelings on...

this is my most painful episode to date. i revisit the list of my previous relationship & how painful the process at times can be. this is my raw and honest assessment of my feelings. how often do we sugarcoat and try to paint a nice picture of things that hurt us. there are always two sides to a story and just because there are two doesn’t make yours any less true. matters of the heart and muddy,...

this is a time where i don’t have any extra words. this episode speaks volumes into the transcendence and transformation of my growth. this is 25.

once again we are on a journey of self healing and reflection. this week we get an update on my sexual assault situation and it’s aftermath. life continues to throw and i continue to claim my existence in this world.

*trigger warning* hey y’all, i’ve been going through an array of things as of late and it’s hard to stay focused and keep moving forward. in this episode i talk about setting boundaries, sexual assault, and expressions of anger. join me! ☀️

what happens when we give into change? what happens when we give into our temporary discomforts even when they feel long lasting? can we allow ourselves to be honest enough to move through the discomforts and be inviting of change? this episode we talk to the wonderfully talented actress and screenwriter Pam and learn about her journey from audition process to writing her truths. You don’t wanna m...

i struggled with beginning my podcast journey being that i’ve been so torn up & tired recently from my personal life. because there was always going to be an excuse as to why i couldn’t i just hit record. here i move through a plethora of findings by traveling into beginnings and ends of my three year relationship, upbringing, & more.