How To Leave A Cult

Send us Fan Mail In this final episode of How to Leave a Cult , I close the chapter on why this podcast began—and why it’s ending. I share what led me to create this space in the first place: a need to process my own story and create something that could support others navigating religious trauma, control, and exit. This podcast was always meant to be an avenue for truth, clarity, and healing—both...

Send us Fan Mail In this deeply personal episode of How to Leave a Cult , I share one of the most painful chapters of my life—when shame, control, and isolation collided and nearly broke me. After the end of a relationship, the weight of judgment from Dr. Duran and other ministers left me drowning in guilt and self-doubt. I was told to withdraw, to stay home, to disconnect—and as I obeyed, I becam...

Send us Fan Mail In this episode of How to Leave a Cult, I share the relationship that became a breaking point—not because it failed, but because of how it was treated when it ended. Ministers and leadership, including Duran, used shame as a weapon—tearing me down and telling me I should have been a whore rather than being in the relationship I was in. I reflect on the stark inequality inside the...

Send us Fan Mail In this episode, I open up about a part of cult life I’ve never fully unpacked in one place: what it meant to navigate relationships—romantic ones—while still inside the group . Dating wasn’t a normal developmental experience. It wasn’t playful or curious or exploratory. It was shaped by fear, spiritual consequences, and unspoken rules meant to keep everyone in line. I talk about...

Send us Fan Mail In the final part of my conversation with Lane Kamp, we reach the moment everything began to change — not just internally, but in action. Lane opens up about the painful, careful process of separating from the cult, protecting his family, and building a way out of a life he had once helped uphold. We talk about the emotional weight of leaving, the tactical steps it took to remove...

Send us Fan Mail In Part 3 of my conversation with Lane Kamp, we explore the dual life of the cult during its time in Tonto Village — a small mountain town where the group integrated deeply into the community while privately maintaining layers of spiritual control and unspoken rules. Lane, now an adult with his own family, describes what it was like to live under that public-private split. The cha...

Send us Fan Mail What happens when your concept of God is shaped more by fear than by love? In this episode, I explore the fear-based spiritual teachings that governed my childhood—where consequences weren’t just earthly, but eternal. From hellfire and damnation to karma and reincarnation, every action carried the weight of divine punishment. I share how women were treated as lesser, how relations...

Send us Fan Mail In this second part of my interview with Lane Kamp, we step deeper into the structure of the cult — and what it was like to grow up at the center of it. Lane shares what it meant to be raised by Trina and Steven Kamp, how spiritual authority was claimed, and how belief systems were shaped, expanded, and enforced over time. We explore how members were chosen, how teachings shifted,...

Send us Fan Mail In this episode of How to Leave a Cult , I sit down with Lane Kamp — the son of Trina Kamp, one of the founders of the cult I was raised in. This is the beginning of a multi-part interview, and we start not with the cult itself, but with the woman at the center of it. Lane takes us through his mother’s early life: her childhood, her first marriage, and the moment she met spiritual...

Send us Fan Mail In this episode, I share a harrowing experience where my minister crossed the line, touching me inappropriately and making suggestive advances. I talk about the overwhelming guilt and shame I felt, believing it was my fault, and how this abuse affected my emotional well-being for years. What made it even harder was the fear that no one would believe me—after all, he was a trusted...

Send us Fan Mail In this deeply personal episode, I open up about the emotional journey I navigated after my divorce and the search for stability in the aftermath. I discuss how going back to school played a crucial role in creating a future for myself and my children, giving me the confidence and direction to move forward. Along the way, I explore the powerful emotion of shame, how it can hold us...

Send us Fan Mail Kicking off Season 2 of How to Leave a Cult , I open up about the emotional aftermath of my divorce and the deep sense of failure I felt. I share insights into the cult's prestigious school, which boasted renowned teachers in basketball, chess with Igor Ivanov, and ballet with Yen Li Chen, gaining recognition statewide and nationally. We delve into the evolving expectations p...

Send us Fan Mail In this heart-wrenching episode of How to Leave a Cult , I share the unraveling of my marriage amidst the powerful grip of cult influence. After the birth of our second child, my husband told me he couldn’t bear the people in the group anymore and decided to leave. I reflect on the pain of this loss, amplified by cult members’ gaslighting—insisting that he was a liar and had never...

Send us Fan Mail In this episode of How to Leave a Cult , I take you inside the intense and often toxic dynamics of life as a young couple in the cult. From attending trance circles and processes to learning the cult's harsh, down-and-dirty communication methods, I share how venomous words became a way of life. We explore the damage that such negative patterns can cause in relationships and p...

Send us Fan Mail In this episode of How to Leave a Cult , we dive deep into how living under a cult’s control affects us long after we’ve left. We start by exploring the 80/20 iceberg theory, which reveals how explicit rules and hidden expectations from cult life shape our recovery from trauma. I share the emotional journey of my child's birth, where the pressure to meet cult standards—like h...

Send us Fan Mail In this deeply personal episode, I open up about two major life events—my wedding and baby shower—that were entirely decided for me. From the guest list to the location, nothing was truly mine. I share how these moments, which should have been joyful and celebratory, were orchestrated by the controlling hands of the group I was part of. Join me as I reflect on the emotional toll o...

Send us Fan Mail In the upcoming episode of "How to Leave a Cult," I'm joined by David, a former cult member whose story is both unique and deeply compelling. David and his wife initially found solace in practices like Transcendental Meditation and Rebirthing, which brought them positive experiences and a sense of peace. However, these very practices led them to the doors of the cul...

Send us Fan Mail In this episode of "How to Leave a Cult," I dive into how the harsh and unforgiving teachings of the church led me to become controlling in my relationships. Driven by a desperate need to live up to the impossible standards set by the cult, I started to enforce the same rigid rules that were imposed on me. This episode explores how the pressure to conform to extreme beli...

Send us Fan Mail In this episode of "How to Leave a Cult," I share the harrowing experience of navigating my arranged relationship within the cult. Not only was I responsible for teaching him the "law of the land" and dictating our living situations, but we also faced constant emotional torment due to false accusations. The cult's leadership would tear us down emotionally,...

Send us Fan Mail In this gripping episode of "How to Leave a Cult," I recount the carefully orchestrated meeting with the man I was chosen to marry within the cult. Through this personal story, we delve into the power dynamics that dictate relationships in cults, where choices are rarely one's own. Explore how leaders manipulate and control members' lives, using marriage as a t...

Send us Fan Mail In this compelling episode of "How to Leave a Cult," we take a deeply personal journey into a day in my life as a 16-year-old living within a cult. Through vivid storytelling and raw reflections, you'll experience the daily routines, emotional struggles, and pervasive control that defined my existence at that age. We will also explore the profound question: Why don&...

Send us Fan Mail In this episode of "How to Leave a Cult," we delve into the unsettling reality that cults are not as strange or distant as they might seem—they exist right among us. Using the APA Dictionary of Psychology's definition as our foundation, we explore the intricate dynamics that make these groups both captivating and dangerous. Discover how authoritarian control, target...

Send us Fan Mail In this eye-opening episode of "HOW TO LEAVE A CULT," we delve into the aggressive legal tactics employed by the Church of Immortal Consciousness. Discover how the church launched a series of lawsuits against neighbors, the community, the sheriff's department, a cult deprogrammer, a news station, and a reporter after accusations of cult activities began to surface....

Send us Fan Mail In this riveting episode of "HOW TO LEAVE A CULT," we delve into the far-reaching consequences of the Waco Texas Cult Branch Davidians massacre, how it sparked rumors about our church and cult, and the failures of the sheriff's department in providing protection. Join us as we uncover the challenges of dealing with threats, combating rumors of devil worship, and the...

Send us Fan Mail In this gripping episode of "HOW TO LEAVE A CULT," we unravel the complex web of forced friendships, the aftermath of getting caught using pot, and the art of deception learned within cults. Join us as we delve into the pressures of maintaining artificial relationships, the repercussions of rebellious behavior like cannabis use, and the survival strategies that often inv...