How I Met Jesus

Send us Fan Mail Have you ever felt like you were getting better at something, and then suddenly you got worse? In this episode, I share a recent experience with tennis that almost made me want to quit. After weeks of improvement, I took a short break and when I came back, everything felt off. My focus was gone. My shots were inconsistent. And I started questioning everything.  This episode is abo...

Send us Fan Mail Have you ever felt like you’re always thinking…but not really living?   In this episode, I reflect on a pattern I didn’t fully see before—I was living in my head… not my life. I share how overthinking kept me disconnected from my life— and what it means to finally start living. Stop thinking. Start living. Support the show Email: elenaswy@gmail.com IG: @elenaswenyu

Send us Fan Mail Have you ever felt like the only way to feel safe…is to control everything? In this episode, I explore something I’ve been slowly learning—Control doesn’t actually make me feel safe. It gives me the illusion of safety…but underneath, I’m still anxious. Still thinking. Still trying to hold everything together. Because maybe control was never about control. Maybe it was about fear....

Send us Fan Mail What if your need for control… is actually fear? In this episode, I explore the deeper reason behind control— and why we hold onto it so tightly. Control tries to keep you safe. Trust is what sets you free. Support the show Email: elenaswy@gmail.com IG: @elenaswenyu

Send us Fan Mail What if you’re not “preparing”… just trying to control everything? In this episode, I share how my need for clarity was actually a form of control—and why that’s been holding me back from taking action. You don’t need full clarity. You just need to begin. Support the show Email: elenaswy@gmail.com IG: @elenaswenyu

Send us Fan Mail Have you ever planned something in your head… so many times… that you felt like you already did it? In this episode, I share a pattern I’ve been noticing in myself— overthinking everything before taking action. And in the process… using up all my energy before I even begin. This episode explores the deeper reason behind overthinking— the need for control, safety, and certainty. Be...

Send us Fan Mail Why is it so hard to choose… even when you have options? In this episode, I share what it really feels like to be stuck between paths— and how I’m learning to move forward without a perfect answer. You don’t have to choose perfectly. You just have to choose honestly. Support the show Email: elenaswy@gmail.com IG: @elenaswenyu

Send us Fan Mail Have you ever felt like you know what to do… but still hesitate? In this episode, I explore why we struggle to trust our own voice — and how that’s connected to fear, past experiences, and faith. Through personal experiences, I explore how that pattern was formed — and how it quietly keeps us stuck in cycles of hesitation, doubt, and overthinking. It’s hard to trust yourself when...

Send us Fan Mail Have you ever felt like you know you can do something… but you still don’t? In this episode, I reflect on a deeper truth I’ve been facing — that what’s been holding me back is not a lack of ability, but fear. Fear of failure. Fear of being seen.  Fear of being judged. And sometimes… even fear of success. Fear doesn’t remove your gifts. It just convinces you not to use them. This e...

Send us Fan Mail In this episode, I share how childhood experiences can shape the way we see ourselves — and how we learn to suppress what once came naturally. You were never too much. You were just in places that didn’t know how to receive you. Support the show Email: elenaswy@gmail.com IG: @elenaswenyu

Send us Fan Mail Have you ever felt like you have something inside you… but you’re not fully using it? In this episode, I reflect on the story of Peter the Apostle — someone far from perfect, yet chosen and used in a powerful way. Through his story, I began to ask a deeper question: What if the issue is not that we lack gifts, but that we’ve been waiting too long to use them? I share my own experi...

Send us Fan Mail In this episode, I share a difficult season in my business journey—losing accounts, money, and partnerships—and how it impacted my confidence and mindset. More importantly, I reflect on what these experiences taught me about failure, growth, and self-forgiveness.  If you’re navigating setbacks, self-doubt, or the fear of trying again, this episode offers a perspective that may hel...

Send us Fan Mail For a long time, money was how I measured everything — my success, my value, even my life. But even when I had more… it never felt like enough. In this episode, I share a personal shift I’ve been experiencing — from chasing money to questioning what I was really looking for all along. Through honest reflection, I talk about anxiety, expectations, and what it feels like to have les...

Send us Fan Mail What if money was never the real goal? In this episode, I reflect on a personal turning point — from chasing money as a measure of success, to discovering a different kind of fulfillment. Through recent experiences, I share how my relationship with money has been shifting — from pressure to peace, from “never enough” to “just enough.” I thought money would make me feel enough… but...

Send us Fan Mail I got baptized on Easter. But this episode isn’t just about what happened— it’s about why it mattered. For a long time, my life was driven by pressure, control, and a quiet fear of not being enough. I thought if I worked harder and pushed more, I could build the life I wanted. But something inside me was always tired. In this episode, I share my journey—from relying only on myself...

Send us Fan Mail Is it wrong to want money? In this episode, I explore the quiet tension between faith and financial desire — the part of us that wants to build, grow, and create… and the part of us that feels uncomfortable about it. Through personal reflection and a powerful family story, I begin to uncover how our beliefs about money are often shaped long before we realize it — through history,...

Send us Fan Mail In this episode, I open up about something I’ve carried quietly for a long time—my fear around money. It’s not just about numbers, income, or stability. It goes deeper than that. I share where this fear really comes from—growing up in an environment shaped by pressure, uncertainty, and unspoken expectations… and how those experiences still influence the way I think, work, and even...

Send us Fan Mail Why does money feel so heavy… even when we have enough? In this episode, I reflect on the quiet anxiety I’ve carried around money — the pressure to earn more, the fear of not having enough, and the constant need to feel secure. Because sometimes, it’s not really about money. It’s about what we believe will happen if money is not there. When money becomes our safety, uncertainty be...

Send us Fan Mail Why does it feel like the things we truly love don’t always make money… and the things that make money don’t always feel meaningful? In this episode, I reflect on the tension between passion and survival — the desire to follow what we feel called to do, while still trying to stay financially secure. Through personal experiences and honest questions, I explore the deeper struggle b...

Send us Fan Mail If I already understand where my unworthiness comes from… why is it still so hard to change? In this episode, I explore the tension between awareness and transformation — why old beliefs can still feel real, even when we know they’re not true. Through personal reflection, I share what it looks like to slowly unlearn what was never true, and begin to trust a different truth. Just b...

Send us Fan Mail What if you don’t have to prove your worth anymore? In this episode, I reflect on the shift from striving to be enough… to finally living from the truth that you already are. After exploring unworthiness, fear, and identity, this episode is about release — learning to stop performing for love, and start living from a place of being already loved. You are not here to earn your wort...

Send us Fan Mail Where does the feeling of “not enough” really come from? In this episode, I reflect on how unworthiness is often not something we were born with — but something we learned. Through personal stories and childhood memories, I explore how early experiences, family dynamics, and unspoken messages quietly shape the way we see ourselves. Many of our beliefs about our worth were formed b...

Send us Fan Mail Have you ever been loved… and still felt uneasy? In this episode, I reflect on a pattern I began to notice in my own relationships — how fear, insecurity, and unworthiness can lead us to push love away, even when we deeply want it. Sometimes it’s not that love is missing. It’s that we don’t know how to trust it. Sometimes we don’t push love away because we don’t want it. We push i...

Send us Fan Mail Have you ever been loved by someone… and still felt like you didn’t deserve it? Or found yourself questioning a relationship, not because the other person did something wrong — but because something inside you felt uncertain? In this episode, I talk about a deeper layer of unworthiness — the kind that shows up in relationships. Sometimes it looks like insecurity. Sometimes it look...

Send us Fan Mail Have you ever felt like you weren’t enough — even when everything on the outside seemed fine? In this episode, I open up about a quiet but persistent feeling I’ve carried for years: unworthiness. It’s not always obvious. Sometimes it shows up in subtle ways — in the way we hesitate to speak up, the way we question whether we deserve love, or the way we shrink ourselves around peop...