Home Is Where The Body Is

In this episode, I explore how the mental health system's obsession with fixing individual brain chemistry kept me from understanding that my symptoms were never random, but rather rational responses to environments designed to harm people like me. I reflect on how this shaped my journey toward being able to honestly say that home is wherever I am right now. I talk about: What the system told...

In this episode, I explore how DEI initiatives, despite their stated purpose, function as a sophisticated mechanism of the systems they claim to dismantle — selecting for compliance, gatekeeping dissent, and abandoning the most marginalized through the very architecture of participation. I reflect on how my experience of this shaped my journey toward being able to honestly say that home is whereve...

In this episode, I explore coercive dependency, the system that weaponizes your need for support against you, and how separating 'needing help' from 'being at fault’ is necessary. I reflect on how this shaped my journey toward being able to honestly say that home is wherever I am right now. I talk about: What is coercive dependency and why it's not your fault (00:55) The burning fr...

In this episode, I explore how my experience of dating exposed deep trauma patterns around love and safety. I reflect on how this shaped my journey toward being able to honestly say that home is wherever I am right now. I talk about: No one owes me a relationship (00:55) Self-reliance: I can be my own parent and savior (09:31) Removing external conditions for feeling complete (16:34) This episode...

In this episode, I explore practical tips for re-parenting and self-regulating after a parentified childhood. I talk about: Release schedule update (00:55) Summary of previous parentification episode (01:34) Reiterating tips shared in previous episode (05:02) Continuing list of tips for re-parenting and self-regulating (06:38) Summary of list (24:18) This episode is created from an unedited writin...

In this episode, I explore how recognizing the parentification of my childhood allowed me to leave behind obligatory caretaking in adult relationships. I reflect on how this shaped my journey toward being able to honestly say that home is wherever I am right now. I talk about: When Caretaking Replaces Childhood (00:54) How It Rewrites Adult Relationships (6:21) Reparenting and Nervous System Reset...

In this episode, I explore how years of misdiagnosis and medical minimization shaped my understanding of autism, chronic illness, and identity. I reflect on how this influenced my journey toward being able to honestly say that home is wherever I am right now. I talk about: Connecting the dots of misdiagnosis and minimization (00:54) Moving from self-doubt to self-recognition(12:27) Building safety...

In this episode, I explore how recognizing that I couldn’t change other people freed me up to detach from unhealthy dynamics more quickly, and invest in relationships that genuinely support me. I reflect on how this shaped my journey toward being able to honestly say that home is wherever I am right now. I talk about: I can’t change others (00:54) Relearning love and attachment (2:13) Safety, boun...

In this episode, I explore how to emotionally detach from discriminatory workplaces. I reflect on how this shaped my journey toward being able to honestly say that home is wherever I am right now. I talk about: Summary of last week’s episode (00:54) A bit more on neurotype as a protected class (03:38) How to emotionally detach (10:07) Resources mentioned:  Study of sexism in the software industry:...

In this episode, I explore how “misaugyny” put a chip on my shoulder very early in my working life. I reflect on how it shaped my journey toward being able to honestly say that home is wherever I am right now. I talk about: Naming “misaugyny” (00:54) When systemic bias puts a chip on your shoulder (07:53) Autistic women statistics (13:43) Resources mentioned:  “Misaugyny” - https://medium.com/@aut...

In this episode, I explore what I’ve learned from my attempts at content creation. I reflect on how it shaped my journey toward being able to honestly say that home is wherever I am right now. I talk about: The inherent value of self-expression (00:54) The value of “bad” art (04:02) The many benefits of creative self-expression (05:39) This episode is created from an unedited writing fragment on m...

In this episode, I explore my eye-opening reaction to the book Anti-Diet. I reflect on how it shaped my journey toward being able to honestly say that home is wherever I am right now. I talk about: Anti-Diet (00:54) Worth is not measured by numbers on a scale, or paycheck (12:14) I AM okay, not I will be okay (20:32) Body positivity within the patriarchy (27:49) Resources mentioned:  Anti-Diet: Re...

In this episode, I explore shifting from prioritizing survival for survival’s sake, to prioritizing alignment with my true self. I reflect on how it shaped my journey toward being able to honestly say that home is wherever I am right now. I talk about: Living in alignment with true self (01:36) Liberation from outcome attachment (22:10) An internal anchor, existential integrity (27:47) This episod...

In this episode, I explore how a shift from the Christianity of my childhood to non-theistic Satanism allowed me to break the internalized link between love, control, and self-erasure. I reflect on how this shaped my journey toward being able to honestly say that home is wherever I am right now. I talk about: A new blog! (00:54) When choice is not a choice (02:29) Reclaiming belonging to myself fi...

In this episode, I explore institutional gaslighting in the context of family court, specifically my mother’s failed attempt to divorce my father when I was a kid. I reflect on how recognizing and learning about institutional gaslighting shaped my journey toward being able to honestly say that home is wherever I am right now. I talk about: Gaslighting in court (00:54) Recognizing institutional gas...

In this episode, I explore how recognizing the humanity in my abusers allowed me to build empathy for them, and to simultaneously set firmer boundaries with them. I reflect on how it shaped my journey toward being able to honestly say that home is wherever I am right now. I talk about: My abusers were human, CW : suicide and physical/sexual abuse (00:54) But empathy is not obligation (10:01) It’s...

In this episode, I explore how recognizing the interaction between neurodivergence, physical disability, and generation trauma gave me the power to shift the narrative relating to my lifelong sense of alienation. I reflect on how it shaped my journey toward being able to honestly say that home is wherever I am right now. I talk about: Recognizing the pattern (00:54) Shifting the narrative (07:06)...

Home is Where the Body Is  is my reflective podcast about searching for home, and slowly realizing it’s something built from the inside out. I’m Jenn, an autistic woman living with complex trauma and chronic illness. Through specific moments and lived experience, I explore trauma processing, nervous system repair, inner child care, and the lifelong work of becoming my own first and truest home. Ne...