Healed-ish

Part 1 of 1 Colten grew up in the Holiness movement, a Pentecostal tradition with even stricter rules than most. In his church, women were not allowed to cut their hair, wear jewelry, or even wear pants. Baptism had to be done in a very specific way, or else your eternity was on the line. His dad was the pastor, and Colten took those rules to heart, believing his salvation depended on them. In thi...

Part 1 of 1 CW: mentions of suicide You may know Gabrielle Stone as the bestselling author of Eat, Pray, #FML , where she chronicles the wildest year of her life: discovering her husband’s affair with a 19-year-old, falling into a whirlwind romance, and then getting dumped just before a month-long trip to Europe. But her story doesn’t begin or end there. In this conversation, Gabrielle opens up ab...

Part 2 or 2 Corey’s story pulls back the curtain on what it was really like inside Teen Mania’s Honor Academy, the infamous discipleship program featured in Amazon’s Shiny Happy People . From grueling workouts to “Unreached People Group Week,” where students were forced to cosplay as missionaries, Corey was subjected to bizarre exercises in control and spiritual manipulation. During his time with...

Part 1 of 2 Corey’s story pulls back the curtain on what it was really like inside Teen Mania’s Honor Academy, the infamous discipleship program featured in Amazon’s Shiny Happy People . From grueling workouts to “Unreached People Group Week,” where students were forced to cosplay as missionaries, Corey was subjected to bizarre exercises in control and spiritual manipulation. During his time with...

This is a special crossover episode with my other podcast, The Overshare Hour, where we read listener submissions and respond in advice-column style. We’re diving into a topic close to both of our hearts: religious trauma and the journey of deconstruction. From purity culture and church guilt to untangling fear and finding freedom, we share our experiences and open up space for healing conversatio...

Part 2 of 2 We’re bringing it close to home this week with someone you’ve heard me mention before — my ex–sister-in-law, Kenzie. We first met as teenagers in youth group, navigating the pressures of purity pledges, religious guilt, and the rollercoaster of charismatic Christianity. While we shared plenty of fun moments during those years, we were also shaped by environments that demanded conformit...

Part 1 of 2 We’re bringing it close to home this week with someone you’ve heard me mention before — my ex–sister-in-law, Kenzie. We first met as teenagers in youth group, navigating the pressures of purity pledges, religious guilt, and the rollercoaster of charismatic Christianity. While we shared plenty of fun moments during those years, we were also shaped by environments that demanded conformit...

Kelli grew up deeply rooted in Mormonism, where rules and worthiness shaped her entire identity. She and her husband walked through deconstruction side by side. They traded their garments for coffee runs, tried things once considered off-limits, and together learned what freedom outside the church could look like. Their journey led to them ending their marriage on their anniversary. But instead of...

Part 2 of 2 Trigger warning: Domestic Violence, Pregnancy Loss Alissa Gray’s story is one of survival against overwhelming odds. What began as a relationship full of promise quickly spiraled into years of physical and verbal abuse. After enduring countless assaults and a terrifying police escape with her children, Alissa managed to break free - but her journey through domestic violence did not end...

Part 1 of 2 Trigger warning: Domestic Violence, Pregnancy Loss Alissa Gray’s story is one of survival against overwhelming odds. What began as a relationship full of promise quickly spiraled into years of physical and verbal abuse. After enduring countless assaults and a terrifying police escape with her children, Alissa managed to break free - but her journey through domestic violence did not end...

Part 1 of 1 You might know Jake Deyton from TikTok, where he shares Taylor Swift chart updates and debunks excessive Easter eggs. But behind the music commentary is a powerful story of survival, deconstruction, and acceptance. Jake grew up in a rural Appalachian town in North Carolina, where church attendance was essential if you wanted friends or acceptance. At just three years old, he was told h...

Part 1 of 1 You might recognize Samantha as a licensed therapist who now helps others heal from the very belief systems that once shaped her. But before she began that work, Sam and I actually sat in the same small group at Bethel. In this episode, Sam shares her story of being introduced to JH Ranch at just 14 years old. She attended a father-daughter retreat where she was asked to sign a contrac...

Part 1 of 1 Scroll for CW You might recognize Lyssa from her viral letter board post on TikTok that said: “My separation is 11 weeks along - and it's the size of the hole in our bathroom door from his temper tantrum” In this episode, Lyssa (@lyssagetsherlifeback) shares the story that started her series. Raised in extreme purity culture and once dreaming of becoming a missionary, Lyssa found herse...

After Jedidiah Hartley’s two-part interview on  Healed-ish , the response was overwhelming... and so were the questions. In this follow-up Q&A episode, Jedidiah returns to answer some of the most-asked listener questions about his upbringing, the prophetic movement, and the personal impact of speaking out against spiritual abuse. We cover everything from whether he still believes in prophecy,...

After Jedidiah Hartley’s two-part interview on  Healed-ish , the response was overwhelming... and so were the questions. In this follow-up Q&A episode, Jedidiah returns to answer some of the most-asked listener questions about his upbringing, the prophetic movement, and the personal impact of speaking out against spiritual abuse. We cover everything from whether he still believes in prophecy,...

*Scroll for CW* In this episode, I sit down with Cassandra, a survivor whose story shines a heartbreaking light on the intersections of spiritual abuse, grooming, and prophetic manipulation. At just 14 years old, Cassandra was groomed and sexually abused by her youth pastor. He was 28. Instead of protection or justice, she was blamed by those who should have protected her. Years later, she was tar...

In this episode, I sit down with a guest joining us all the way from Wales. Kayley’s wedding day turned into the unthinkable. After months of planning, dreaming, and preparing to walk down the aisle, her fiancé vanished. He didn’t show up to the ceremony, and he never came back. No goodbye. No explanation. Just… gone. We talk about what it’s like to experience that kind of betrayal on what was sup...

In this special two-part interview, I sit down with Jedidiah Hartley, a former insider in the charismatic prophetic movement and the son of Bob Hartley, a once-renowned “prophet” within IHOP, Bethel, and broader New Apostolic Reformation (NAR) circles. Jedidiah grew up watching his father gain global acclaim for prophetic insights , but behind the stage lights was a man faking words, using confere...

In this special two-part interview, I sit down with Jedidiah Hartley, a former insider in the charismatic prophetic movement and the son of Bob Hartley, a once-renowned “prophet” within IHOP, Bethel, and broader New Apostolic Reformation (NAR) circles. Jedidiah grew up watching his father gain global acclaim for prophetic insights , but behind the stage lights was a man faking words, using confere...

In this episode, I sit down with Mary Beth, a survivor and author who is bravely sharing her story of what it was like to be groomed by her choir teacher. At just 12 years old, a trusted adult began building a relationship with her that would eventually become romantic when she was 19. For years, Mary Beth believed the connection she had with him was special, even meaningful. We talk about what it...

Part 2 of 2 Scroll for CW In this episode, Alisha shares her chilling experience inside a high-control cult church where the pastor dictated every part of her life—including who she could date, how much she could talk to them, and even how she entered the elite crowd of the youth group. From hazing rituals to strict courting rules, Alisha’s story reveals the hidden trauma that often hides behind “...

Part 1 of 2 Scroll for CW In this episode, Alisha shares her chilling experience inside a high-control cult church where the pastor dictated every part of her life—including who she could date, how much she could talk to them, and even how she entered the elite crowd of the youth group. From hazing rituals to strict courting rules, Alisha’s story reveals the hidden trauma that often hides behind “...

Part 1 of 1 In this episode, Colleen shares the story that made her go viral: she donated her kidney to her boyfriend, and not long after, he cheated on her. Her comment section has never been the same… It is constantly filled with people demanding justice and jokingly asking how to get a kidney back. But behind the headlines and humor is a story about betrayal, resilience, and reclaiming your own...

Part 1 of 1 Scroll for CW In this episode of  Healed-ish , Casey shares how she was stalked by an older man who began showing up at her church’s college group. Despite making leadership aware of the danger she felt, Casey was asked to have a sit down conversation with the man who had been following her. This story highlights how spiritual communities often minimize or mishandle boundaries, safety,...

Part 4 of 4 *Scroll for CW* This is where the fog started to lift. After leaving my marriage, I began rebuilding my life and sharing my story online. Just this year, I learned that I never truly knew Ted. In this episode, I talk about what the church hid from me, what I learned from the woman who dated him after me, and how those truths reshaped my understanding of both Ted and the system that pro...