Han Nefkens

Episode 102: Without a jacket 19.06.2026 3:54 ↓

“What I understand now, at seventy-two, is that the absence of fit was never the problem. It was the answer.”

Episode 101: Walking alongside my life 26.05.2026 3:55 ↓

“It is a question of trust, learning that things turn out well even when I hold the reins a little less tightly.” 

Episode 100: What is it like to be you? 06.05.2026 3:03 ↓

“I often wonder why I feel this need to become one with people I happen to run into.“ 

Episode 99: Playing hooky 01.04.2026 3:41 ↓

“I’ve carried a free-floating sense of guilt about not doing enough with most of my life. It attaches itself to anything that happens to come by.”  

Episode 98: The trap I keep on creating for myself 19.03.2026 3:27 ↓

“I say I want equanimity, and yet I keep courting the very things that pull me away from it.”

Episode 97: The Twisted Old Tree or the Art of Purposelessness. 26.02.2026 4:02 ↓

"And now, as I approach seventy-two, I find myself willing to learn from a twisted old tree-and to allow myself,  at least sometimes,  to simply be."

Episode 96: What a disappearing scent showed me 14.01.2026 3:22 ↓

“The need for control has introduced a rigidity into my life that interferes with experiencing things as they are.” 

Episode 95: No more mental crutches 26.09.2025 3:28 ↓

“My backup plans are the mental crutches I cling to even though I can perfectly walk without them.”

Episode 94: Vanity Fair 05.09.2025 3:19 ↓

“I am a resilient person. But I couldn’t help showing off that resilience as if it were my new cashmere jacket”. 

Episode 93: When the reverse order takes over 21.11.2024 3:10 ↓

“There really is no point in trying to live up to a self-image that does not correspond to reality.”

Episode 92: A sense of wonder 24.10.2024 3:15 ↓

“The desire to experience a jolt of surprise may be one of the reasons I enjoy travelling so much.”

Episode 91: The scent of hair oil subtly floating from a dignified sumo wrestler 04.10.2024 3:57 ↓

"Observing my feelings has taught me not to engage with the countless sensations that spring up during the day, particularly the unpleasant ones."

Episode 90: How I'm trying to get rid of my talisman 13.09.2024 3:37 ↓

”I continuously put myself in the straight jacket of efficiency while I long for the freedom to do things as they suit me at the moment.” 

Episode 89: Victoria Cokobama and my contradictory feelings 27.08.2024 3:59 ↓

“Knowing that the medication that saved my life could have saved the lives of others is infuriating and heartbreaking.”

Episode 88: Transforming lack into abundance 22.07.2024 3:41 ↓

“Time is my most precious commodity; I have less of it now, but I use it more generously for what matters most to me.”

Episode 87: A sign of progress 01.07.2024 3:28 ↓

“I want to conform in order to be accepted, but I also have this strong urge to express myself, even if it makes me stand out. “

Episode 86: Clint Eastwood or why I don't take myself seriously 03.06.2024 2:45 ↓

“Taking my self-imposed call to exertion seriously filled my life with an overburdened heaviness.”

Episode 85: A soothing illusion 16.05.2024 3:03 ↓

“Facts and feelings often operate on different tracks that don’t overlap.”

Episode 84: My infinite apetite for distractions 29.04.2024 3:28 ↓

´”Why is it so much easier to click on a YouTube than to close my eyes and just be?”

Episode 83: To go through life without an image of yourself 10.04.2024 2:33 ↓

‘I would like to live life outwards, so that wonderment takes over from pointless inner criticism.’

Episode 82: Less rain dancing 25.03.2024 3:32 ↓

“Planning has become a ritual to keep misfortune at bay, something akin to a rain dance.”

Episode 81: My unwavering resistance to the passage of time 08.03.2024 3:28 ↓

Only by resisting the passing of time do I give meaning to my life’

Episode 80: Closer to the core 15.02.2024 6:42 ↓

"I cannot help but think that throughout the years, layers were put over that core freedom.”

Episode 79: Where is the horizon now? 26.01.2024 3:30 ↓

“Can I only take it easy when I know that I have limited time left for an easy life?”

Episode 78: What to do with unwelcome information? 16.01.2024 3:21 ↓

"What to believe? The theory that appeals to me? Or the opposite, which disappointingly leaves everything as it was?”