Grey Maybe Podcast (hosted by Jillian Schmitz)

Trigger Warning: Death, grief, cancer, animal euthanasia. Season Three of Grey Maybe, a podcast and social experiment, focuses on the topic of Grief. In this episode Jillian Schmitz recalls her first experiences with grief and her current state of 'compound grief.'   Do’s and Don’ts for supporting a person who is grieving: ⁠⁠https://mygriefandloss.org/dos-and-donts-guidelines-for-supportin...

Trigger Warning: eating disorders, disorder eating, fat phobia, dieting, weight loss and gain, drugs, body dysmorphia, unwanted sexual attention, graphic language. Episode Seventeen of the second season of Grey Maybe, Jillian wraps up the season with a couple of stories sent in from listeners and her reflections on the season. If you would like to share your story of recovery, please email: greyma...

Trigger Warning: Eating disorders, disordered eating, anorexia, weight gain and loss, sexual assault, racism, avoidant/restrictive food intake disorder (ARFID), orthorexia, bigorexia. Episode Sixteen of the second season of Grey Maybe is a conversation with singer and songwriter Bailey Coats. Bailey tells her story of suffering from avoidant/restrictive food intake disorder (ARFID), the pressures...

Trigger Warning: Eating disorders, disordered eating, anxiety, depression, obsessive compulsive disorder, binging, purging, restriction, anorexia, bulimia, weight loss and gain, fat phobia, racism, ‘ballet body.' Episode Fifteen of the second season of Grey Maybe is a conversation with the Associate Choreographer of the new Broadway show Sweeney Todd. Chelsey shares of her earliest complicatio...

Trigger Warning: Trigger Warning: Eating disorders, disordered eating, anorexia, restriction, dieting, cleanses, fat phobia, weight gain and loss, adoption/child loss, pet loss, binging, purging, anxiety, depression, explicit and graphic language, abortion. Episode Fourteen of the second season of Grey Maybe is a conversation with Burlesque Queen Ambrosia Minge. Minge talks about her recovery jour...

Trigger Warning: eating disorder, disordered eating, over eating/binge eating, drug use, suicide, alcoholism, unwanted touching, addiction, clowns, religion, depression, anxiety, restrictive eating, bulimia, body dysmorphia. Episode Thirteen of the second season of Grey Maybe is a conversation with producer, director, and cinematographer Keida Mascaro. Keida discusses his history in recovery, chil...

Trigger Warning: eating disorder, disordered eating, anorexia, bulimia, body dysmorphia, drug use, suicide. Episode Twelve of the second season of Grey Maybe is a conversation with friend, musician and financial advisor Kevin H. Kevin shares about being a man with bulimia, his experience in rehab, and what he's gained in recovery. If you would like to share your story of recovery, please email...

Trigger Warning: Eating disorders, disordered eating, body dysmorphia, anorexia, cutting, suicide, sexual assault, fat phobia, weighing and measuring, weight notice, anxiety, depression, physical injury. Episode Eleven of the second season of Grey Maybe is a conversation with ballet teacher and professional dancer Nancy Dobbs Owen. Nancy shares her experience of growing up feeling ill equipped for...

Trigger Warning: Eating disorder, disordered eating, bulimia, anorexia, fat phobia, body dysmorphia. Episode Ten of the second season of Grey Maybe is a conversation with Carrie Locklyn, an HGTV star and former professional dancer. Carrie recounts managing hard times growing up and navigating a professional career as a young adult while battling bulimia and body dysmorphia. If you would like to sh...

Trigger Warning: Ozempic, Eating disorders, disordered eating, restriction, anorexia, body dysmorphia, fat phobia, racism, sexism, abortion, The Oscars, performance enhancing drugs (PED)/steroids, physical injury. Episode Nine of the second season of Grey Maybe is a conversation with producer Rodrick about current body trends and diet related topics in pop culture. If you would like to share your...

Trigger Warning: Eating disorders, disordered eating, anorexia, food insecurity, fat phobia, witnessing of a homicide, bullying, racism. Episode Eight of the second season of Grey Maybe is a conversation with Melissa Adylia Calasanz, a professional dancer and certified yoga therapist (C-IAYT). Melissa details  experiencing food insecurity as a child and young adult in pursuit of a professional dan...

Trigger Warning: eating disorders, disordered eating, fat phobia, body dysmorphia, depression, anxiety. Episode Seven of the second season of Grey Maybe, Jillian shares a recent realization about her recovery journey. If you would like to share your story of recovery, please email greymaybestories@gmail.com Do’s and Don’ts for family and friends of loved ones with eating disorders: https://eatingd...

Trigger Warning: Trigger Warning: eating disorders, disordered eating, bulimia, weight gain and loss, dieting, fat phobia, body dysmorphia, depression, anxiety, suicide, sexual assault, discussion about processing generalized trauma. Episode Six of the second season of Grey Maybe, Jillian welcomes back Jaayda Ellingham for a conversation about mindfulness, processing hard feelings, and toxic posit...

Trigger Warning: eating disorders, disordered eating, weight gain and loss, dieting, amphetamine use, fat phobia, bulimia, body dysmorphia, plastic surgery, depression, anxiety. Episode Five of the second season of Grey Maybe is a conversation with Kim Hale, a professional dancer, actress, and social media influencer. Kim shares her experience of losing and finding dance, her rocky path to self-ac...

Trigger Warning: Dieting, weight gain and loss, fat phobia, eating disorders, disordered eating, body dysmorphia, and gastric sleeve surgery. Episode Four of the second season of Grey Maybe is a conversation with Dave Colan, a comedy writer, director, and teacher. Dave shares his experience of being put on diets during childhood, being a larger bodied person, and his decision to eventually undergo...

Trigger Warning: Eating disorders, disordered eating, bulimia, anorexia, fat phobia, suicide, depression, weight loss and gain, body dysmorphia Episode Three is a conversation with triple threat Kat Tokarz-Dyson. Kat shares her story of recovery, her journey into motherhood, and her new career path. If you would like to share your story of recovery, please email greymaybestories@gmail.com Do’s and...

Trigger Warning: Eating disorder, suicide, depression, weight loss and gain, anorexia, abortion, sexual assault. Episode Two of the second season of Grey Maybe, Jillian Schmitz continues her story and encourages listeners to share their own experiences, in the hope of lessoning the stigma and shame associated with eating disorders, disordered eating and body dysmorphia. If you would like to share...

Trigger Warning: Eating disorders, disordered eating, bulimia, anorexia, fat phobia, suicide, depression, weight loss and gain, body dysmorphia.  Season Two of Grey Maybe, a podcast and social experiment, on the topic of The Body. In this episode, Jillian Schmitz reads her own story outlining her eating disorder, disordered eating and body dysmorphia in the hope of lessening the stigma and sh...

Trigger Warning: abortion, eating disorders. In episode 8, Jillian wraps up Season 1 of Grey Maybe by summarizing the experience, and teases a season season coming in early 2023. While the pod is on hiatus, we will still be accepting and encouraging abortion stories for future episodes. If you would like to share your abortion story by having it read on this podcast, please email greymaybestories@...

Trigger Warning: Abortion. Episode 7 is a conversation and Q & A with podcast producer Rodrick Barge, a licensed attorney with experience in campaigns and political work. Jillian and Rodrick discuss the outcome of the recent election and related topics. If you would like to have your abortion story read on this podcast, please email greymaybestories@gmail.com  Vote. Org: https://www.vote....

Trigger Warning: Abortion, alcoholism. Episode six in this limited series podcast and social experiment on the topic of abortion. This episode focuses on a story sent in by dancer, yoga teacher, artist, mother and listener Nicole Riviere, read by Jillian Schmitz. Nicole is the second listener to send in a story to be read on the podcast. She has done so in an effort to help lesson the stigma and s...

Trigger Warning: abortion, miscarriage, still born, detailed medical procedures Episode 5 is a conversation with Dr. R, a board-certified OB-GYN with over 30 years of professional experience. Dr. R clears up misconceptions surrounding reproductive health. If you would like to have your abortion story read on this podcast please email greymaybestories@gmail.com  If you are feeling suicidal or...

Trigger warning: Abortion, Suicide, Depression, Racism, Homophobia. With no additional stories sent in to be read on the podcast, episode 4 is a conversation with my good friend Jaayda Ellingham, Licensed Psychotherapist and LMFT, to discuss process, emotional boundaries, CBT, anxiety and recovery surrounding, but not limited to abortion. If you would like to have your abortion story read on this...

Trigger warning: Abortion Episode three in this limited series podcast and social experiment on the topic of abortion. This episode focuses on a story sent in by listener and author Alexia Knight, read by Jillian Schmitz. To date Alexia is the only listener to send in a story to be read on the podcast. She has done so in an effort to help lesson the stigma and shame associated with abortion. If yo...

Trigger warning: Abortion, Alcohol Use, Anxiety, Unwanted Sexual Advance Episode two in this limited series podcast and social experiment on the topic on abortion. Jillian Schmitz reads her second abortion story and encourages listeners to share their own experience with the hope of lessoning the stigma and shame associated with abortion. If you would like your story read anonymously or otherwise,...