Grey Maybe Podcast (hosted by Jillian Schmitz)

Trigger Warning: eating disorders, disordered eating, bulimia, weight gain and loss, dieting, fat phobia, body dysmorphia, depression, anxiety, suicide, sexual assault, discussion about processing generalized trauma. Episode six of the second season of Grey Maybe, Jillian welcomes back Jaayda Ellingham for a conversation about mindfulness, processing hard feelings, and toxic positivity. If you wou...

Trigger Warning: eating disorders, disordered eating, weight gain and loss, dieting, amphetamine use, fat phobia, bulimia, body dysmorphia, plastic surgery, depression, anxiety. Episode five of the second season of Grey Maybe is a conversation with Kim Hale, a professional dancer, actress, and social media influencer. Kim shares her experience of losing and finding dance, her rocky path to self-ac...

Trigger Warning: abuse, emotional abuse, physical abuse, abortion, suicidal ideation, drug use, sexual coercion In Episode Twelve (and the Season Finale) of the fourth season of Grey Maybe, mother of two Anita Singleton recounts her experience with intimate partner violence aggravated by her abusers drug use. Anita talks about how important her recovery has been and how its helped her be the mothe...

Trigger Warning: abuse, rape, sexual assault, sexual abuse, physical abuse, grooming In episode eleven of the fourth season of Grey Maybe, Realtor & Teacher Terri Yates speaks about the abuse she's braved throughout her life, her special bond with her mother, the importance of therapy and how she attained recovery. IG - https://www.instagram.com/terriyates23 Terri’s Podcast "Enlightened Curios...

Trigger Warning: rape, sexual assault, sexual abuse, physical abuse In Episode Ten of the fourth season of Grey Maybe, Amber Porter shares about her encounters with abuse throughout her life and the journey that led her to her QHHT certification. IG - https://www.instagram.com/ambermarieporter Amber’s QHHT - https://www.instagram.com/amberistheinnergy Quantum Healing Hypnosis Technique (QHHT) - ht...

Trigger Warning: physical abuse, emotional abuse Episode Nine of the fourth season of Grey Maybe is a conversation with ASL interpreter Genna Middlebrook. Genna recounts her experience with intimate partner violence, how she escaped and her journey of recovery. IG - https://www.instagram.com/gennamiddlebrookmom More information on ASL https://www.nidcd.nih.gov/health/american-sign-language#:~:text...

Trigger Warning: Suicidal Ideation, emotional abuse, sexual abuse, disordered eating, body dysmorphia. In Episode Eight of season four, Actor, Dancer & Choreographer Cat Heinen tells their story of intimate partner violence as a teenager and how they got help and healing. Cat also talks about being non-binary and the role body image and food played in their abusive relationship. IG - https://w...

Trigger Warning: sexual abuse, sexual assault, rape, trafficking, stillborn, grooming In Episode Seven of the fourth season of Grey Maybe, author, dancer & nonprofit founder Isabella Grosso talks about trafficking and her recovery through advocacy, art and being a new mother. IG (personal) - https://www.instagram.com/bellaspinkmachete Book - https://www.instagram.com/natashasnotmyname_ Nonprof...

Trigger Warning: sexual abuse, sexual assault Episode Six of the fourth season of Grey Maybe is a conversation with triple threat Jenni Nicole Bloom. Jenni speaks on the abuse she encountered, the complicated nature of it and family dynamics. IG - https://www.instagram.com/jenninicolebloom IMDB - https://www.imdb.com/name/nm6072942/ Mentioned in this episode: The Bobby Darin Show - https://www.imd...

Trigger Warning: Intimate partner violence, rape In Episode Five of the fourth season of Grey Maybe, Jillian Schmitz recounts other instances of abuse and some unethical experiences, some of which include the entertainment industry. How to help a loved one Do’s and Don'ts https://www.fayettecares.org/wp-content/uploads/2020/06/How-to-Help-a-Loved-One-Trapped-in-Abuse.pdf National Domestic Abuse Ho...

Trigger Warning: psychological abuse, emotional abuse, non-consent Episode Four of the fourth season of Grey Maybe is a conversation with Burlesque Queen & Artist Michelle L'amour. Michelle shares her experience with psychological and emotional abuse, her unique circumstance and her return to self. IG - https://www.instagram.com/michellelamour Website - https://michellelamour.com/ Intimacy Coo...

Trigger Warning: emotional abuse, physical abuse, sexual assault Episode Three of the fourth season of Grey Maybe features Jaayda Ellingham, MA, LMFT. Jaayda discusses the criteria for adverse childhood experiences and how they correlate to domestic violence outcomes. She discusses emotional regulation and how to attain it through mindfulness. IG - https://www.instagram.com/jaaydatherapy Website -...

Trigger Warning: sexual abuse, sexual assault, rape Episode Two of the fourth season of Grey Maybe is a conversation with Producer, writer & choreographer Scott Hislop. Scott talks about the repressed memories of abuse he experienced in childhood, how he finally gained access through meditation and the role of therapy in his recovery journey. IG - https://www.instagram.com/scotty_hislop Websit...

Trigger Warning: abuse, physical abuse, rape, intimate partner violence. Season Four of Grey Maybe, a podcast and social experiment, focuses on the topic of Abuse. In this episode, Jillian Schmitz reads her own story outlining her experience with an abusive relationship in the hope of lessening the stigma and shame associated with abuse. If you would like to share your story of recovery, anonymous...

In episode twelve of the third season of Grey Maybe, Jillian wraps up the season with a few final thoughts about grief. Do’s and Don’ts for supporting a person who is grieving: https://mygriefandloss.org/dos-and-donts-guidelines-for-supporting-a-griever “Disenfranchised grief”: https://www.choosingtherapy.com/disenfranchised-grief/ Find Sliding Scale therapy in California: https://health.sfsu.edu/...

Trigger Warning: Death, grief, suicide, child loss, burial, cremation, cadavers. Episode eleven of the third season of Grey Maybe welcomes fourth generation funeral director and co-host of the "Let's Talk About Death" podcast, Benny Capaul. Benny talks about the emphasis of empathy in the funeral home business. He discusses the difference between grief and mourning and the importance...

Trigger Warning: Death, grief, end of life care. In episode ten of the third season of Grey Maybe, director, choreographer, and performer Raymond (Ray) Del Barrio shares his experience caregiving for several people close to him, including his late father, composer George Del Barrio. He speaks on his outlook on life and what doesn't work when navigating grief. Do’s and Don’ts for supporting a p...

Trigger Warning: Death, grief, cancer, sudden death. Episode nine of the third season of Grey Maybe is with ex-professional dancer, Tiktok influencer and mom Cara Lidberg. Cara speaks on grief transparency, how she navigated the death of her parents, and how she helps her children understand death and grief. Do’s and Don’ts for supporting a person who is grieving: https://mygriefandloss.org/dos-an...

Trigger Warning: Death, grief, pregnancy, miscarriage, pregnancy loss, stillbirth. In episode eight of the third season of Grey Maybe, photographer Mia Andreoli shares about the loss of her daughter Rosalie Grace, how she endured, what she learned, and her mission to help others who experienced the loss of a child. Do’s and Don’ts for supporting a person who is grieving: https://mygriefandloss.org...

Trigger Warning: Death, grief, cancer, homicide. Episode seven of the third season of Grey Maybe welcomes back professional dancer and certified yoga therapist (C-IAYT) Melissa Adylia Calasanz. Melissa recounts her brother's sickness and death, the shocking homicide of her neighbor, and the journey of healing her grief and PTSD. Do’s and Don’ts for supporting a person who is grieving: https://...

Trigger Warning: Death, grief, near death experience, cancer In episode six of the third season of Grey Maybe, professional entertainer, podcast host and realtor Terri Yates shares about her experience caregiving for her late mother and how she navigated her loss. Do’s and Don’ts for supporting a person who is grieving: https://mygriefandloss.org/dos-and-donts-guidelines-for-supporting-a-griever ‘...

Trigger Warning: Death, grief, Alzheimer’s. In episode five of season three of Grey Maybe, artist and filmmaker Mēsha Kussman discusses the death of her father, the recent death of her mother, and the complicated emotions that accompany grief. Do’s and Don’ts for supporting a person who is grieving: https://mygriefandloss.org/dos-and-donts-guidelines-for-supporting-a-griever ‘Disenfranchised grief...

Trigger Warning: Death and grief. In episode four of the third season of Grey Maybe, Jaayda Ellingham, licensed psychotherapist and LMFT talks about why the five stages of grief are bulls**t, how to process grief, and explains complicated or ambiguous grief. Do’s and Don’ts for supporting a person who is grieving: https://mygriefandloss.org/dos-and-donts-guidelines-for-supporting-a-griever ‘Disenf...

Trigger Warning: Death and grief. In episode three of season three of Grey Maybe, entertainment company powerhouse Abbi Puanani recounts her experiences after the death of her mother. She talks about what worked for her, what didn't, and how she keeps her mom's memory alive. Do’s and Don’ts for supporting a person who is grieving: https://mygriefandloss.org/dos-and-donts-guidelines-for-sup...

Trigger Warning: Death, brain cancer, sudden death. In episode two of season three of Grey Maybe, professional dancer Julie Schmid talks about caregiving, becoming a young widow, and her journey through grief. Do’s and Don’ts for supporting a person who is grieving: https://mygriefandloss.org/dos-and-donts-guidelines-for-supporting-a-griever The support group Julie mentioned: Cancer Support Los An...