Figuring Sh!t Out

This episode is a confession, an homage to honesty, a bid of vulnerability on a deeply personal shift happening in my life that I've let through a couple of episodes but I haven't unearthed fully because - Well, I've been believing lies that have kept me scared and stuck. Yes, even (ESPECIALLY) Miss. FiguringSh!tOutYapsALotPodcastHost has fear and doubt that chokes her up. In this epis...

and how much of ourselves have we lost deciding that how we are, as we are, is not enough? how much of our very nature has been stripped away, chipped away, from the gnawing need to be complete? complete by what measure, by what degree? by whose decree? where did we learn that if it wasn’t done perfectly, then it shouldn’t be done at all? that 0% until we can miraculously have 100% is better than...

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for anyone who feels like they're behind: a path is formed by walking a path is formed by walking a path is formed by walking. -- Want more? Join METAMORPHOSIS - a creative nervous-system led sanctuary designed to help you move through fear, trust your voice, and express what's inside of you - in COMMUNITY. GET 10% OFF YOUR MONTHLY METAMORPHOSIS NOW WITH THE CODE 10OFF : HERE (monthly) GET...

"If no one sees your art, it is still revolution. You freed yourself, did you not?" - Jayla John  In this episode, we talk about how creativity could heal you - if you just let it.  And how to let it.  And if you need a little more help,  -- Want more? Join METAMORPHOSIS - a creative nervous-system led sanctuary designed to help you move through fear, trust your voice, and express what&#39...

let your tenderness speak, let it lead you into darkness, and let your darkness lead you into light. -- Want more? Join METAMORPHOSIS - a creative nervous-system led sanctuary designed to help you move through fear, trust your voice, and express what's inside of you - in COMMUNITY. GET 10% OFF YOUR MONTHLY METAMORPHOSIS NOW WITH THE CODE 10OFF : HERE (monthly) GET 20% OFF WITH A QUARTERLY MEMB...

My darling, I have news for you.  You are here to feel safe enough, trusting enough - to pause, land, and unravel your very existence at the feet of something loving. And if you are, (like too many of us are) living a frantic, disordered life, one that feels like you’re chasing a plot that never comes - If you are clogging your heart with unwarranted worries - If you are unknowingly caught in the...

How to hear the call of your divine assignment & listening to your Sacred Marching Orders - beyond what the inner critic has to say. - Want more? Join METAMORPHOSIS - a creative nervous-system led sanctuary designed to help you move through fear, trust your voice, and express what's inside of you - in COMMUNITY. GET 10% OFF YOUR MONTHLY METAMORPHOSIS NOW WITH THE CODE 10OFF : HERE (monthly...

This episode is your reminder that there is a future version of you who is thanking you deeply for doing it scared. This episode is proof that the first step is always the courage to admit. This episode is proof that you WILL figure it out, even if you have no f*cking clue how. How do I know? Three years ago, I started this show in my bedroom while working full time in Corporate America. Two years...

"I believe that your highest path lives in the hands of a greater knowing.  And the cure to all of your anxieties lies in that subtle desire to reach for these hands when you know you need them most.  But what if I told you - that you actually need them all the time? And that they’ve been silently guiding your steps - here, in this moment, to receive these words, so that you can see that you a...

This episode is being posted live from a jungle in Costa Rica two days after hosting my first retreat. 15 women expressing their most true selves, accessing their inner child, creating art from the depths of their hearts - all because I had an idea for a podcast almost three years ago and decided to act on it. If that's not evidence that your ideas are blessings that must be honored, respected...

Creativity & self-expression is how you heal. This episode is about excavating your creativity - using your life and experiences as a devoted practice to the creative process and your art as an offering and symbol of your resilience. And on the other side - a powerful, potent, peaceful you emerges. - Want more? Join METAMORPHOSIS - a creative nervous-system led sanctuary designed to help you m...

Who told us that we were not supposed to hurt - when to feel is our greatest gift?  Who told us that we could have ease - without a little grit? This episode takes you on a journey discussing The Purification Process of the Dark Night of the Soul & the GIFT of enduring the transformation within it. (Spoiler: You Can Do Hard Things & in fact, you were made to.) After all, the darkest hour i...

Honest admittance: I'm a little scared to publish this episode. But what would Figuring Sh!t Out be if it wasn't a testament to overcoming fear, time and time again, by getting as deeply honest as possible and sharing truths from this raw and reflective place? This is Figuring Sh!t Out - in real time. This episode is an existential conversation about God, Existence, and using our critical...

There's your potential - and then there's the power that you DECIDE to have to embody it. And it is a decision. One you must make every day. This episode is a short tough-love transmission reminding you of your limitlessness, your inevitability, the power of your deepest truth when it is aligned in the actions of your highest path, and serves as a first-step to what you know you're rea...

here are my fieldnotes from learning to fall in love with uncertainty again and again and again instead of resist and fear it: the point of life is not to figure sh!t out - and sometimes we have to get so lost in the figuring sh!t out that we have a great big wake up call that reminds us of that wherever you go, there you are life is continuing education. we are here to learn. to have fun. to enjo...

A conversation about girlhood and growing older, embracing the vessel and the life of the body, and embodying the wisdom of life through the preciousness of it's fragility. With my dearest friend, Phia. May this episode allow you to see life through the eyes of your inner elder. ---- Want more? Join METAMORPHOSIS - a creative nervous-system led sanctuary designed to help you move through fear,...

to remain tender is a gift. this episode is an exploration of everything i've learned about love. put simply: "we have all known the bliss of sunshine hitting our skin on a cold day, and we have all belly laughed until our breaths disappeared, and we have all come home chewed up by the world and sunken deep into a familiar withering, and we are all either healing from something or learning...

If the devil can't get to you, he will make you rush. "We think our limits live in the dreams we don’t chase, in the tasks we put off, in the emotions that we avoid - but they’re most alive in all of the small ways we deny our right to enjoy life. In the ferocious hurry between movements, in the relentless devotion to our False God of Control that promises certainty we never actually find....

"I learned how to reach for my dreams with a shaky hand. And time and time again, I’ve seen that once they are in my palms - it makes no difference if I really believe they should be there or not. Because here they are. In my hands. I cannot drop them. I have claimed them. They are a gift and yet - they have always been mine." - an excerpt from my most recent essay "Dreams" (which...

We won’t ever say it aloud - but most of us hold an ideal of perfection inside of our self-development routines. And after spending enough time nipping and tucking away pieces of ourselves that we don't like in an effort to curate the most acceptable, palatable, "perfect" version of us - what many of us will find is this: We are only as whole as we are able to accept the parts of us th...

"We are mosaics. Pieces of light, love, history, stars. Glued together with magic and music and words." - Anna Kritzen There’s a quiet grief that lives inside a lot of people. Because we’ve learned how to contain ourselves. Creativity was once somewhere we all went to feel alive, and became something we use to prove who we are.  We learn to identify with a medium, a label, an aesthetic, a...

This episode is not what you think it is.  It is not a hustle-forward, all-gas-no-breaks charge to a new year.  But it is also not a total rejection of the new year. It is a subtle and soft invitation into moving forward with reflection, ritual, and intention.  Through redefining and examining our relationship with "locking in," or what we turn out focus towards, we can refine our communio...

"Allow shame to find no home in your posture, in your dances, in your aura, in your lovemaking sounds, in your dreaming spaces, in your every single desire," - India Ame'ye This episode is an exploration of releasing shame, guilt, and fear from our bodies and rekindling our inner magic. Through poetry, storytelling, and recommended practices of somatic wisdom and inner reflection, this...

Growing wiser into the ancient knowledge of our spirit and the animalistic nature of our humanity demands the realization that many things our society looks at as luxuries are actually necessities.  One of them: rest. As a society, we have a complicated relationship with rest. An anxious-avoidant one where we long for it, but don't want to get too comfortable in it. We crave it, yet we fear le...