Estradiol Illusions

As our Sundance converage rolls along, we’re super excited to welcome Nathan Barr, composer of Uncle Frank to the show. Uncle Frank is one of the standout films of the festival, a heartwarming narrative for the LGBTQ community. Nathan shares some of his experiences crafting the film and collaborating with director Alan Ball again after seven seasons composing music for True Blood.   You can follow...

Our Sundance coverage continues with one of my personal favorites from the festival, Promising Young Woman. Delighted to welcome composer Anthony Willis to the show. Anthony explains his approach to scoring Emerald Fennell’s unique masterpiece. Anthony also plays some of the music from the film, an exciting treat you won't want to miss.  Promising Young Woman will be released on April 17th.   For...

Recorded from the Sundance Film Festival! Join host Ian Thomas Malone as she interviews Emily Wilson and Danny Dikel, the director and star of the new short Danny’s Girl, an eclectic provoking commentary on internet. Emily & Danny share some insights from the film and explain the decisions behind the unique narrative that shies away from technology in this iPhone-obsessed era. A spoiler-free inter...

Grab your motorcar and the deed to Toad Hall, we’re going a merrily journey to nowhere in particular. Join Ian & Tarabelle for an in-depth discussion of Mr. Toad’s Wild Ride, the most idiosyncratic and wonderful attraction in Disney Park history. While The Adventures of Ichabod and Mr. Toad served as a loose adaptation of The Wind and the Willows, Mr. Toad’s Wild Ride largely abandons any connecti...

Grab your peach and the crown off the head of your least favorite older sibling, it’s time for a trip back to Westeros. Join Ian & special guest Sam of the Rainbow Guard for an episode all about the baby sibling of House Baratheon. Dearest Renly wasn’t in our story for very long, but he sure made an impact. Westeros’ most prominent gay character provided some great representation for the LGBTQ com...

Get your Lazarus Pit ready for a trip to Earth-CW! The Arrowverse pulled off a crossover for the ages and Estradiol Illusions is here to talk about it. Join host Ian Thomas Malone and special guest Ed Carroll for an exciting discussion covering Crisis on Infinite Earths. Ian & Ed break down what worked, what didn’t, plus all those exciting cameos. We may not have seen Nicholas Cage finally don the...

Who watches the Watchmen? Who listens to the Estradiol Illusions? Grab your Rorschach mask and your giant blue dildo, because Clint is back for an exciting episode dedicated to everybody’s favorite costumed adventurers. Join Ian & Clint for an overview of Watchmen’s first and possibly only season. From Sister Knight to Lube Man, this season was full of memorable characters and jaw-dropping moments...

Grab your shunter’s pole and your coil of wire rope, we’re back on the Island of Sodor! Join Ian & Tarabelle for the return of Thomas the Tank Engine & Chill, covering the classic Thomas Breaks the Rules. From our favorite “regular law breaker” to Bluebelle’s search for her calf to James’ messy accident, this VHS tape offers so much excitement. Be sure to listen to the end to hear Ian’s rendition...

Eight surgeries in a four day stretch lead to quite the recovery! Join host Ian Thomas Malone as she reflects on having bottom surgery and facial feminization surgery (FFS) at the same time. Two months later, life is slowly getting back to normal, minus all the dilation of course! People looking to have bottom surgery will certainly want to check this episode out, as well as anyone who's ever wond...

Join host Ian Thomas Malone as she welcomes actor and audiobook narrating Therese Plummer to the show for an exciting conversation about her career. Therese has had quite a fascinating career, voicing characters in the Iron Man: Extremis motion comic, Pokemon, and acting in shows such as The Good Wife and Law & Order: SVU. Therese has narrated over 400 audiobooks as well, including the Virgin Rive...

Join host Ian Thomas Malone as she interviews James Ellars, who is currently running for Congress in the 8th district of California, a seat currently held by Republican Paul Cook who is not seeking re-election. James is a member of the Yang Gang who supports Universal Basic Income among a host of other progressive policy positions. Topics covered include healthcare, data property rights, the curre...

We're back! Join host Ian Thomas Malone and special guest David Frei, cohost of The National Dog Show, for an exciting conversation all about one of America's favorite Thanksgiving traditions. With over 20 million viewers for six years in a row, the National Dog Show has exploded as a must-watch family event. David shares plenty of insight from his decades-long career judging and hosting dog shows...

Vaginal liberation is upon us. With Ian set to undergo facial feminization surgery and bottom surgery, Estradiol Illusions will be going on hiatus. Ian shares some pre-surgery thoughts on her transition journey, being off hormones for two weeks, as well as plenty of laughter over the various absurdities of the process. For whatever reason, Ian also decided to rank the quality of a few, but not all...

Grab your corset and your lady’s maid, we’re heading back to Downton Abbey! Join host & Downton superfan Ian Thomas Malone for an episode breaking down all the various plotlines of the film. Ian dives deep into the series lore to take a look at which parts of the narrative worked best. From the return of Mr. Molesley to Mr. Barrow’s quest for love to Lady Mary’s efforts to set up all the chairs in...

Grab your droid and your blue milk, we’re going to Batuu! Ian and Tarabelle talk all about Star Wars – Galaxy’s Edge, the first new land added to Disneyland since Mickey’s Toontown in the early 90s. Galaxy’s Edge is a beautiful yet simultaneously underwhelming place, a land too heavily invested in expensive experiences to leave much of a lasting impression either on first-time attendees or Annual...

An episode inspired by… bodily aroma! Ian talks about the changes that HRT has brought to her body’s sweat glands. This episode also discusses the broader plights of dating, attracting, and relationships that affect the general population, transgender and cisgender. Tune in to hear all the ways love at first sight can be spoiled by one small mishap. You’ll never think of BO the same way again.

Grab your old rod and your golden poké ball! Join Ian Thomas Malone and special guest Thomas Henkins for an episode all about Magikarp. Often thought to be a worthless Pokémon devoid of any redeeming qualities prior to evolution, Magikarp serves as an inspiration for all of us struggling to splash through the gym battle called life. Ian and Thomas share personal stories that endeared them to the u...

We’re back on the Island of Sodor and the engines have gone on strike! Make sure you get a good seat for the Indignation Meeting, because the evil capitalist Sir Topham Hatt is going union-busting, calling in the scab Edward to stick it to his workers. Poor Henry, after showing solidarity with his tendered brothers, finds himself all alone in need of gluten-free coal. The station master’s wife isn...

Join host Ian Thomas Malone and special guest Colin George-Babb for a discussion about 13 Reasons Why’s third season. The controversial teen drama has continued to be quite divisive, though Ian and Colin both enjoyed this season. This spoiler-filled episode dives into the major points of contention through the season, including Ani’s narration, Bryce’s continued presence in the narrative, and yoga...

Join host Ian Thomas Malone as she interviews Shahid Buttar, who is currently challenging Speaker of the House Nancy Pelosi for a seat in Congress representing the twelfth district of California. Shahid has made a career of speaking truth to power, as an attorney with a long career in civil rights fighting for LGBTQ equality, immigrant rights, and First Amendment protections, among many others. Th...

Estradiol Illusions is back from summer vacation! We are absolutely delighted to welcome the iconic transgender activist, filmmaker, and writer Andrea James to the show for a wide-ranging conversation about her work. Andrea talks about her upcoming work The Transphobia Project, an interactive chart that tracks anti-transgender bias in the media. Andrea also shares plenty of insight regarding the e...

Grab your newspaper and your leather bootlace! Estradiol Illusions returns to the Island of Sodor, covering the seminal VHS collection James Learns a Lesson. Everyone’s favorite red engine duels the selfish yet smartly dressed man, fending off threats of dysphoric blue paint from Sir Topham Hatt. As the title suggests, we learn a lot of lessons along the way, such as the value of not getting steam...

An episode all about butts! Join host Ian Thomas Malone for a solo episode about her growing sense of body positivity, best represented through her tush, one of the many beneficiaries of HRT. Getting dressed in the morning used to be a struggle, but it’s been great to be able to look in the mirror and be relatively pleased with the butt starring back. Ian dives into a broader discussion of happine...

Avengers assemble! Join host Ian Thomas Malone and special guest Manu of A Scene of Ice and Fire for an in-depth look at all the exciting stuff planned for the MCU. Starting with the reception to Endgame, Ian & Manu discuss all the upcoming projects planned across film & television. With so many team-ups in the works, there's a lot to look forward to in the post-Tony Stark world. Grab your fishbow...

Stannis returns! Join host Ian Thomas Malone and special guest Rohanne for an in-depth look at the colorful characters of Team Dragonstone. From Mel to Davos to Duram Bar Emmon, the Dragonstone chapters in A Clash of Kings and A Storm of Swords provided so many memorable moments. Stannis may not have found his purpose until he reached the Wall, but everyone’s favorite cuddly curmudgeon is a lot of...