Ellah's Confessions

The results are going backwards but I'm still showing up. This episode is about the identity I built at the gym, why it's the one thing that hasn't broken, and the question I keep sitting with: how do I transfer that to everything else? This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit ellahsconfessions.substack.com

Too loud. Too emotional. Too intense. Too much. I have heard it my whole life, from my mum, from friends, from men I have loved. And somewhere along the way I started to believe it. This episode is my confession. I am tracing the “too much” wound all the way back to childhood, to a little girl whose own mother would retell the story of another parent calling her jaga jaga, over and over again, unt...

This episode gets personal. After months off dating apps and intentionally trying to just live life, a DM led to a first date that started sweet and ended in a lesson that wasn’t expected. This one is about what it really looks like when you’re navigating dating from a place of longing rather than groundedness — and what can happen to your boundaries when hunger for connection takes the wheel. The...

I've spent so long putting myself out there, forcing connections, trying to make people stay. And all it did was leave me more exhausted and more alone. In this episode I get honest about yearning for that soul connection since childhood, the exhaustion of chasing what was never meant to be forced, and why I'm choosing to let go and let God. Because if love is meant to find me, it will find me rig...

If you’ve ever felt like something was just... off, but you couldn’t put your finger on it, this one is for you. In this episode, I’m sharing something I’ve been sitting with since September 2025 — my late ADHD diagnosis. Five months in, and I’m still processing what it means, what it explains, and honestly, what it costs emotionally to get here. I’ve been open about my anxiety and depression diag...

29 hit different. A new city, an ADHD diagnosis, therapists, the gym, boundaries, oversharing, a yucky dating life, and a version of myself I kept trying to perfect, only for it to never feel like enough. In this episode I share my experiences with all of it. The gap between what people see and what is actually happening. The exhausting performance of having it together. The overthinking. The mome...

In this first episode, Ellah introduces herself, her world, and the mission behind Ellah's Confessions, to be radically transparent about the good, the bad, and the ugly. Real life, real lessons, first hand. This is a public episode. If you would like to discuss this with other subscribers or get access to bonus episodes, visit ellahsconfessions.substack.com