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Today was one of those days. The weather was beautiful, my holiday is only days away... and somehow my brain still found a reason to focus on everything that was wrong. Then I stepped on the scales. I'd put on two pounds. For a moment, I genuinely thought, "Why am I even bothering?" So I had to stop and remind myself why I started this journey in the first place. It was never just about losing wei...

Yesterday could easily have turned into one of my old blowout days. A work email triggered that familiar feeling of uncertainty, and before I knew it I was scrolling, avoiding, bargaining with myself, and heading straight towards the spiral I've fallen into so many times before. This time, something was different. In this episode I talk about how I interrupted that spiral, why removing unhealt...

This week I had what felt like an anxiety attack... sitting on the toilet. Nobody had said anything to me. Nothing had actually happened. But within seconds my throat was closing up, my stomach was in knots and all I wanted was my phone so I didn't have to sit with what I was feeling. That moment made me realise something I've never properly understood before. Maybe the chocolate wasn'...

This week felt like a turning point. I've finally given what I'm doing a name: Retrain the Brain . It's no longer about another diet or another plan. It's about teaching myself to deal with stress, uncertainty and discomfort without automatically reaching for food, alcohol or other old comfort blankets. The frustrating part? Fourteen days in, the scales still haven't moved. But...

Three days ago I was talking about giving up sweets and learning to deal with stress without reaching for my usual comfort blankets. Then work turned everything upside down. The company I work for lost a major contract and, as things stand right now, my future employment is very much up in the air. My first thought? A large glass of red wine. What surprised me was what didn't happen next. No wine....

I've made a decision. For now, I've stopped eating sweets completely. And honestly, it's making me a bit twitchy. In this episode I'm talking about why giving up chocolate, biscuits, cakes and all the other sugary comfort foods feels so much bigger than just changing what I eat. I've been comparing it a lot to stopping smoking and changing my relationship with alcohol, and find...

⚠️ Trigger warning: This episode contains discussion of binge eating, self-induced vomiting, disordered eating behaviours, comfort eating and weight struggles. This is a very raw one. I don't have a solution. I don't have a plan. I don't have a neat ending where I've figured everything out. This is basically a real-time account of where my head is at right now. I've reached a p...

Why can something as simple as renewing a driver's licence feel completely overwhelming? In this episode, I talk about how I managed to create far more stress than the situation deserved, why the worrying was harder than the actual task, and what happened when my nervous system finally decided it had had enough. I also share one of the biggest changes I've made over the last year: learning...

A virus knocked me sideways, my routines went out the window, and before I knew it I'd stopped podcasting, stopped posting, and convinced myself I had nothing worth saying. But this episode made me realise something. I recently found myself missing a creator whose videos helped me through some difficult times. Not because he was perfect. Not because he had all the answers. Simply because he do...

We booked a holiday. Egypt. Five stars. Caves hotel. Fred and Wilma style. First proper trip as a couple in over twenty years — basically a very late honeymoon. And within about thirty seconds of booking it, my old brain did exactly what it always does. The panic, the timeline, the "I need to do something." And yes — Mounjaro crossed my mind. Of course it did. It's everywhere. But he...

I scratched my eye trying to put on fake eyelashes, ended up in A&E, felt sorry for myself… and turned it into a full 7-day binge spiral. You know the one. Where one thing turns into “fuck it, the whole week doesn’t count anymore”. I talk about: the streak system I’m using (very loosely… not a rule book) how quickly things can slip why it took me 7 days to get back on track the internal argume...

This week, having a shower counted as a win. Not exactly the kind of thing you’d post as a transformation, is it? And I think that’s exactly the problem. Because I am so fed up with this constant feeling that I’m somehow not doing enough… not disciplined enough… not strong enough… not “there” yet… just because I don’t look like someone else’s highlight reel on Instagram. The truth is, I am showing...

This week my brain decided I was about to lose my job. Nobody actually said that. Nobody told me I was doing a bad job. But after a colleague was fired and a rather hostile meeting about “being watched and audited,” my nervous system went straight into threat mode. 5:30am wake-ups. Arguing with management in my head. Planning financial collapse before breakfast. Normally weeks like this end in alc...

This episode almost didn’t happen. The last couple of weeks completely stress-tested my ability to cope. Between our pony Elvis being diagnosed with laminitis, work feeling uncertain, and the general chaos of the world right now, my brain tipped into what I call “the dark place.” A weekend of doom scrolling, junk food, wine, and doing absolutely nothing showed me again how quickly stress can knock...

This episode explores the gap between people who never seem to question their bodies and those of us who carry that tension for decades. I talk about identity, old baggage, and the pressure women live under to discipline and correct themselves — and why real change doesn't come from thinking harder, but from staying with different behaviours long enough for something to shift. What’s emerging feel...

In this episode, I’m back behind the mic and finally figured out how to add music to my podcast — which feels like a small miracle and a good sign for 2026. I talk about why I stepped back from social media, how I learned to quiet the outside noise, and what changed when I stopped letting other people define what MY “well-lived day” should look like. I reflect on last year, my relationship with al...

I thought I was signing up to point people down a path in a high-vis vest. Instead, I ended up part of a 500-year-old tradition with horses, carriages, and chaos. More than that, I realised how small my world had become — nights on the sofa, routines that kept me safe but disconnected. Volunteering for the Lichfield Sheriff’s Ride pulled me out of that bubble, reminded me what real connection feel...

This morning I got a comment—unsolicited advice, the kind that used to send me into a spiral. I would’ve taken it as truth. I would’ve overthought it, deleted my post, and probably changed how I showed up online. But not today. In this episode, I share the moment that reminded me just how far I’ve come. The way I responded. The way I didn’t shrink. And the power of standing tall in the face of opi...

Join me for a very real catch-up: proud mum updates, family tension that nobody talks about, and why consistency still feels terrifying. Plus, my pony throws over the wheelbarrow mid-recording. Because of course he does

I’ve always been a nervous rider. Even when I was younger, even before the bad falls. It’s never been easy to get in the saddle—but this time, something’s different. I’m still nervous. Still cautious. But there’s a flicker of enjoyment now. A quiet moment of oh… this could actually feel good. In this episode—recorded from the car, dogs in the backseat, straight after a ride—I talk about getting ba...

Warning: I start with blisters and end up talking about Trump. In between, there’s a dodgy perm in Bangkok, a henna tattoo on a boob, and some properly honest reflections about the state of the world right now. If you like podcasts that are structured and tidy, this ain’t it. But if you’re up for some raw rambling with heart, welcome in.

I had this version of someone in my head for years. Thought I was the smart one. The driven one. The one who knew better. But life has a way of humbling you. And eventually… yeah—turns out I was the a**shole. This one’s about ego, old stories, and eating that unavoidable slice of humble pie. If you’ve ever had to face your own bullshit—you’re in good company.

My son is about to be sworn into the Army Reserves. My daughter just finished her A-levels. They’re becoming grounded, driven humans — far more steady than I ever was at their age. When I was 18–20, I was a mess. I’d already failed three apprenticeships and spent years trying to outrun myself — first to London, then Southeast Asia, then the U.S. I drank too much, smoked too much, and kept dragging...

A rough week, too much chocolate, and a hard look at why I self-sabotage when things start working. This one’s real, raw, and might hit close to home if you’ve ever spiraled just as something good was gaining momentum.

Five episodes in, and I still haven’t got a bloody clue what I’m doing. There’s no fancy editing here—just me, walking around my living room, recording this on my iPhone and hoping ChatGPT can clean up the background noise. But this isn’t about technical perfection. It’s about real life. Real thoughts. Real bloody bras that won’t roll down over damp skin. In this episode, I talk about joining the...