Digging Through Dominoes

After years of searching, Teri Anderson speaks of how she was able to recognize what the hole in her heart was and how it may have come to be. Listen to Teri's story and perhaps you may find some of the answers you've been searching for your entire life. By reading Jasmin Lee Cori's book, The Emotionally Absent Mother, Teri made realizations, looked further into her childhood, and is beginning to...

WOW! I didn't expect this one but it came at the right time and correlated nicely with Chapter 7 of The Emotionally Absent Mother by Jasmin Lee Cori on neglect and abuse. Listen to what happened when a family member opened up her can of abuse with me. The video version on the YouTube version of Digging Through Dominoes should be up tomorrow with her scathing, self centered, remarks, that I took sc...

A recent event shook me so much I wondered if a person can have too much therapy? A recent event shook me so much I wondered if a person can have too much therapy? After the events unfolded I was in a near panic attack, searching for answers and wishing for normal, whatever normal is.  I felt the emotion, the body memories, from decades past enveloping me. Had I taken my therapy too far? Affiliate...

It was a lazy morning as I scrolled through my YouTube feed. There were three videos that caught my attention. One was entitled, "Weird Things Only Narcissists Do," by Rebecca Zung. The next was, "When Narcissists Paint You As Unhinged," by Dr. Ramani. The last,  feel was a true gem. I thought about it all day. It was by Jordi Universe and entitled, "To You, A Year From Now." Jordi's message hit m...

I wasn't prepared for this.   The Emotionally Absent Mother: audio: https://amzn.to/3efBAlT paperback: https://amzn.to/3Qd6NTZ Kindle: https://amzn.to/3AFcjsM

What began as an episode about scapegoating turned into the story of my encounter with an extremely toxic narcissist and the friend that quashed it all. These are the messages the narcissist sent my friend in the attempt to destroy me and was surprised when my friend told her she knew her game. Lipstick and Butch Wax playlist on YouTube: https://youtube.com/playlist?list=PLE4W_QJYGZH4L6s_uOT0toP0f...

Abuse steals out identity. This episode focuses on how abuse changes us and how we can begin the journey to healing and recovery.   COMPLEX PTSD From Surviving To Thriving by Pete Walker https://amzn.to/3RCx7rN The Body Keeps The Score by Bessel van der Kolk: https://amzn.to/3TLagfv Overcoming Toxic Parenting by Rick Johnson: https://amzn.to/3wXlBPO https://liveboldandbloom.com/08/emotional-abuse/...

It's Fragmented Friday! Fragmented Fridays are bonus episodes where I find quotes, encouragement, affirmations, off the internet and bring them to you for inspiration, perhaps a laugh, and to let you know you are not alone! Live Stream on Beyond The Rider with Bry The Biker and me: https://youtu.be/0nJv-zVkaYQ COMPLEX PTSD From Surviving To Thriving by Pete Walker https://amzn.to/3RCx7rN The Body...

Doing this ONE thing can CHANGE your life forever! Judgement, haters, bikers, and prison ankle bracelets are behind this  post.  COMPLEX PTSD From Surviving To Thriving by Pete Walker https://amzn.to/3RCx7rN The Body Keeps The Score by Bessel van der Kolk: https://amzn.to/3TLagfv Overcoming Toxic Parenting by Rick Johnson: https://amzn.to/3wXlBPO Digging Through Dominoes website (audio): https://d...

People living with PTSD or Complex PTSD often time have a difficult time finding the right therapist, the right psychiatrist. In this episode of Digging Through Dominoes, I give you some ideas of how to choose a provider for yourself and weave it into my experiences.  COMPLEX PTSD From Surviving To Thriving by Pete Walker https://amzn.to/3RCx7rN The Body Keeps The Score by Bessel van der Kolk: htt...

What Is Fear? Fear is a natural, powerful, and primitive human emotion. It involves a universal biochemical response as well as a high individual emotional response. Fear alerts us to the presence of danger or the threat of harm, whether that danger is physical or psychological. Traumatized people generally have their lives ruled by fear. Here's where I am at this stage of the game and how fears h...

I Traumatized My Kids By Trying Not To Do What Was Done To Me. Trauma, especially CPTSD, is a journey of many discoveries. I thought they would mostly be about what happened to me. It turns out I discovered how I traumatized my kids by trying to do the right thing. COMPLEX PTSD From Surviving To Thriving by Pete Walker https://amzn.to/3RCx7rN The Body Keeps The Score by Bessel van der Kolk: https:...

Fragmented Friday, an episode woven together with the gentle words written by various individuals that want to encourage us to heal and conquer. COMPLEX PTSD From Surviving To Thriving by Pete Walker https://amzn.to/3RCx7rN The Body Keeps The Score by Bessel van der Kolk: https://amzn.to/3TLagfv Overcoming Toxic Parenting by Rick Johnson: https://amzn.to/3wXlBPO Digging Through Dominoes website (a...

I Traumatized My Kids By Trying Not To Do What Was Done To Me. Trauma, especially CPTSD, is a journey of many discoveries. I thought they would mostly be about what happened to me. It turns out I discovered how I traumatized my kids by trying to do the right thing.  Digging Through Dominoes website (audio): https://diggingthroughdominoes.podbean.com/ Apple Podcast: ttps://podcasts.apple.com/us/pod...

What is your trauma response? Fight? Flight? Freeze? Fawn? What are trauma responses and how do we figure out what ours is? How are they made? What can we do about them? Adverse childhood experiences, abuse, neglect, and traumas train our brain from pre verbal ages to the time our personality is set. Our entire lives are being affected by hidden traumas, remembered traumas, and a myriad of other n...

This is the introductory episode for thee full episode that will publish June 29, at 5AM. Sometimes life gets in the way of things and it has been doing that for the last couple of weeks. This mini episode explains a bit of that and some of the foundation for healthy 4 F responses. COMPLEX PTSD From Surviving To Thriving by Pete Walker https://amzn.to/3RCx7rN The Body Keeps The Score by Bessel van...

I had no idea what an emotional flashback was, much less how to manage them. I now realize the most difficult times of my adult life have been filled with emotional flashbacks and just how they were controlling my life. Listen along as I explain what emotional flashbacks are and how I am now learning to manage them. COMPLEX PTSD From Surviving To Thriving by Pete Walker https://amzn.to/3RCx7rN The...

A vital part of staying on top of recovering from trauma is knowing what the signs are that it's time to take care of you. Self care is something we sometimes think can be put off. As soon as you recognize your triggers and you feel you're about to spiral, taking care of yourself is your top priority,  We were neglected and abandoned as children so it's natural to think we don't matter. However, i...

What is emotional abuse? Learn just how we can be manipulated and how much easier it becomes over time. Love shouldn't hurt. COMPLEX PTSD From Surviving To Thriving by Pete Walker https://amzn.to/3RCx7rN The Body Keeps The Score by Bessel van der Kolk: https://amzn.to/3TLagfv Overcoming Toxic Parenting by Rick Johnson: https://amzn.to/3wXlBPO

Attachment Styles And How They Affect Our Entire Lives. Plus, my attachment style and what it meant for me. COMPLEX PTSD From Surviving To Thriving by Pete Walker https://amzn.to/3RCx7rN The Body Keeps The Score by Bessel van der Kolk: https://amzn.to/3TLagfv Overcoming Toxic Parenting by Rick Johnson: https://amzn.to/3wXlBPO videos referenced: Toddler In Hospital: https://youtu.be/s14Q-_Bxc_U Tod...

Navigating life with caretakers, parents that have their own traumas is never easy. The continuation of getting to know me, my traumas, my proper diagnosis, how I messed up because of childhood neglect and trauma and how I'm surviving day to day! COMPLEX PTSD From Surviving To Thriving by Pete Walker https://amzn.to/3RCx7rN The Body Keeps The Score by Bessel van der Kolk: https://amzn.to/3TLagfv O...

Episode 6 of Digging Through Dominoes explores the origins of and causes of Complex PTSD (C-PTSD) with examples of how my early childhood affected and shaped my entire adult life.  COMPLEX PTSD From Surviving To Thriving by Pete Walker https://amzn.to/3RCx7rN The Body Keeps The Score by Bessel van der Kolk: https://amzn.to/3TLagfv Overcoming Toxic Parenting by Rick Johnson: https://amzn.to/3wXlBPO...

In this episode Teri's guest, Jeff, discusses with Teri how her night in the behavioral unit, misdiagnosis with biploar disorder affected us both in unexpected ways.  His experience of watching Teri in a situation he could do nothing about. His mistrust of the medical system and doctors that only check boxes.  He also gives a glimpse of how, and when, he realized the extent of animosity in Teri's...

The symptoms of Bipolar disorder, C-PTSD and how they overlap.  The medications they put me on for bipolar disorder and how they destroyed my life.  The side effects, the destruction, my reactions. Future podcasts will be published on Tuesdays at 5 AM Pacific time. COMPLEX PTSD From Surviving To Thriving by Pete Walker https://amzn.to/3RCx7rN The Body Keeps The Score by Bessel van der Kolk: https:...

Teri's experience in a behavioral unit in Portland, Oregon.  One morning she found herself in the behavioral unit of Adventist Hospital in Portland, Oregon.  To illustrate, Teri tells her personal story of how a series of traumatic events packed into a short amount of time led her to a breaking point that ended up with her in a behavioral unit. Her story details the how the desire to have control...