Dear inner Muslim child - Ramadan Letters

What did Paradise mean to me as a child? In this episode, I revisit my earliest understanding of Paradise — not just as a place of reward, but as a space of reunion. From imagining its beauty to questioning what eternity feels like, I reflect on how a child interprets something so vast and unseen. But more than anything, this episode explores a deeper truth: Was it ever about what Paradise has… or...

What happens when a child stops asking questions about God? In this episode, I dive into curiosity — the kind we are born with, and the kind we sometimes lose along the way. From asking “Where is God?” to learning how to filter my questions, I reflect on how curiosity was nurtured, redirected, and sometimes quietly restrained. This is about more than questions. It’s about what questioning represen...

When did being “good” start feeling like the only way to be loved? In this episode, I return to a subtle but defining shift: when faith stopped feeling like a space of connection and slowly became something measured, observed, and quietly judged. Growing up within structure, expectation, and discipline, I reflect on how “being good” shaped not only my actions, but my sense of self — and how I bega...

For many of us, the earliest feelings we formed about faith were shaped long before we had the language to understand them. In this episode, I reflect on the moment when mistakes in worship — especially my struggle with salah — began to feel like proof that I was failing Allah. Growing up hearing warnings about punishment, accountability, and “doing things the right way,” it became easy to interna...

When did practicing Islam start to feel heavy—and why? In this episode, I reflect on childhood expectations, struggles with prayer, and rediscovering the ease and mercy within our faith.

What Was the First Thing I Ever Believed About Allah? In the first episode of Dear Inner Muslim Child — Ramadan Letters, I reflect on my earliest beliefs about Allah and how childhood experiences shaped my understanding of His kindness, mercy, and love. Guided by the hadith “I am as My servant thinks of Me”, I share memories of my grandmother, the lessons she taught me about faith, and how those e...